Why do I let myself get torn up all over nothing? Well ok it’s not nothing at all. I mean, can you blame me? First they get your hopes up. I mean really really up! You have liked this guy for oh so long then suddenly they tease you two together…without them knowing that you like him. And then the guy suddenly shies away from you? What are you supposed to think? That the guy likes you, too, right? WRONG. You find this out thru your friend who has been talking to this guy trying to do you a favor by piling on praises on you, pa-“good shot”, as some would say. Of course the friend has good intentions, and then out of nowhere, the guy says that he has no idea why they’re teasing you two together, and he knows that you’re great and all that but he doesn’t like you. How would you feel? I dunno if I’m making any sense at all but…who cares? No one that’s who. Of course, when you hear that this guy doesn’t like you, you pretend that you don’t care, that you don’t give a damn. They don’t know that you liked the guy so who cares if you know that he doesn’t like you? I mean, they would think that you would be relieved coz the truth has come out and you would be happy that they won’t tease you two anymore. That you would be happy coz since the truth has come out, you and the guy would be friends again. That you’re happy, you’re relived, because you don’t care…you don’t care…YOU. DON’T. CARE. The hell you don’t! Of course you care, I mean, you really liked this guy. Liked? Admit it, you still like the guy even after what happened and you’re trying to get over him. Whatever. I’m really not making any sense. I’m just writing down whatever comes to my mind. Sorry about the wrong grammar and all, I’m just frustrated and confused, and basically, pissed off. So what do you think? Am I right or am I right?

But in a way, I’m also the one at fault. I mean for instance, out of nowhere, he sends you this heart warming and sweet quote and then he tells you that he wasn’t the one who sent it, its just one of those people who were teasing you two together. A clue right? I mean if he likes you, he doesn’t have to say that he wasn’t the one who sent it. I really want to kick myself. It’s a sign and I was too dense and blinded with this stupid crush that I ignored it. Sign sign sign? Were there any other signs? Let me think for a while…well for now I couldn’t think of any other signs but I’m sure that there were others, a lot more others that I ignored. What else is my fault? Ah, yes. I let myself be affected by the ones around me, by all the teasing and stuff. I let myself be influenced. Once again I became naïve, gullible, vulnerable, stupid. I guess all of it’s my fault. It’s always my fault. Whatever.

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