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King For A Day

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I wanted to feel something
To be something
To see something

I wanted to find
One thing that was mine
And leave this behind
But I can't find my way
To get far away
And bury these days

Fantasy
Once reality
Becomes such a parody

If I could find
One thing that was mine
I'd leave this behind
But I can't find my way
To get far away
And bury these days

If shining
Or if shaking
It's reality faking

If I could find
One thing that was mine
I'd leave this behind
But I can't find my way
To get far away
And bury these days

Bittersweet

Seven sins of wantonness and
everything that's good is gone
Sell it all for glory from the peers
Silicone priestess scratch the back and
twists the knife to bone
Kick agains the pricks and scrape the shins

I'm the enemy in the enemies now

Swallowed the pill
Drank to the fill
All these things I carry now
In this bittersweet, in this bittersweet now

Try to hold the world there sinking,
swimming in a paper cup
Try to own the one beneath the skin
Held up to the flame 'till singeing
skin begins to draw and tuck
Never told there's a chance to win

What couldn't be, wouldn't be now

Swallowed the pill
Drank to the fill
All these things I carry now
In this bittersweet, in this bittersweet now

Hold your hands up to the sky and try
so hard to rise above
But everything is beating down

Swallowed the pill
Drank to the fill
All these things I carry now
In this bittersweet, in this bittersweet now

Shimmer

She calls me from the cold
Just when I was low, feeling short of stable
And all that she intends
And all she keeps inside, isn't on the label
She says she's ashamed
And can she take me for a while
And can I be a friend, we'll forget the past
But maybe I'm not able
And I break at the bend

We're here and now, but will we ever be again
Cause I have found
All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade
Away again

She dreams a champagne dream
Strawberry surprise, pink linen and white paper
Lavendar and cream
Fields of butterflies, reality escapes her
She says that love is for fools that fall behind
And I'm somewhere in between
I never really know
A killer from a savior
'Til I break at the bend

We're here and now, but will we ever be again
Cause I have found
All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade
Away again

It's too far away for me to hold
It's too far away....

We're here and now, but will we ever be again
Cause I have found
All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade
Away again

Guess I'll let it go

Jesus or a Gun

Walk away, I walk the wire
And my fields are burning in the flame
Feel my way, blind in the mire
Struggling from your voice inside my head

But now everything's trying to drag me down
But I'll rip the sky from the ground
But tell me now, who's my saving one
Jesus or a gun

Stripped away my last desire
Nothing comes and nothing's sent away
Happiness I couldn't hire
Struggling from these thoughts inside my head

But now everything's trying to drag me down
But I'll rip the sky from the ground
But tell me now, who's my saving one
Jesus or a gun

All that's safer falls from my favor
When it's over who will cry for me

It's safe to say I don't desire
Everything you push inside my head
And I'll reject it until I'm dead

But now everything's trying to drag me down
But I'll rip the sky from the ground
But tell me now, who's my saving one
Jesus or a gun

Sunburn

The sky was dark this morning
Not a bird in the trees
And silence hung suspicious and anxious
Like a blanket covered a scream

And you were gone
You were not there for me
And I cursed the sky and begged the sun to
Fall all over me
This life's not living, baby
Living ain't free
If I can't find my way back to me
Let the sun fall down over me
Let the sun fall down

All my friends are searching
Quiet, desperately
Look into their eyes you'll see the faithless crying
Save me, save me, save me

And what are they to feel
And who are they to be
And what am I to do with, do with me, but let the sun
Fall all over me
This life's not living, baby
Living ain't free
If I can't find my way back to me
Let the sun fall down over me
Let the sun fall down

Until my eyes cry out
'Til my head is free from doubt
'Til my lungs sigh right out
'Til I'm wiser

Let the sun
Fall all over me
This life's not living, baby
Living ain't free
If I can't find my way back to me
Let the sun fall down over me
Let the sun fall down

New Thing

Take me out alive
Take me out it's all so stale
Give me another life
Excuse me if I tried and failed

And I don't mind if I fall
It's not that far at all

I got a new thing, it's so inspired
It's not the real thing, but it's for me
Because the real thing I don't desire
So it's the new thing I choose for me
Denial comfort me

Built the gallows high
You gave me plans and silver nails
The architects of pride
But I'm the one you're hanging now

And I don't mind if I fall
It's not that far at all

I got a new thing, it's so inspired
It's not the real thing, but it's for me
Because the real thing I don't desire
So it's the new thing I choose for me
Denial comfort me

It's Come To This

And I found my head uncrowned and all life's sweet nectar flowing down
the cracks and seams wasted on some petty little prayers
And I
reached up for despair but I was well below that cherished stage
and all my mangled hopes all songs unsung

I fear I've wasted all my sun
I fear I've wasted all my time
Everything is faded
Smiles are fabricated now
I fear I've wasted all my sun
I fear I've wasted all my time
Held my eyes closed for too long

And I ran out through the streets in hopes that I might find it there
but all my buildings stared back at me tenantless and bare
and I
reached up for the sky, but it always seemed so far away
transcendent thoughts you gave lie atrophied and broken

And I sat when I should have stood; swallowed when I should have spit
until now I only recognize me in pictures taken long ago
and
all the changes simply haunt and never go away
a friend will tell when I hit hell, I may not feel the change

Held my eyes closed for too long
Held my eyes closed for too long

Just before I go don't you offer any sweet advice because
where were all your shoulders when I needed them so long ago
and
now with legs weak and weary from this silly dance
with a suitcase full of memories, I pack my bags and slowly drift away

Song For You

It's all I want
It's all I needed now it's through
It all comes back to you
The only one
The one I needed I abuse
More color for the bruise

So I sing this song for you
There's nothing left for me to do

Goodbye dear one
Venus I thought you'd bless me too
So selfish to presume

So I sing this song for you
And I hope that what is true
Will find a way to you
I sing this song for you

Venus never showed the way
The stars would not be sold
Heaven stole the light of day
And we were never told
So dark the day....
So much for life, for life and love

And now it's done
The color always changes hue
Bright to black and blue

So I sing this song for you
And I hope that what is true
Will find a way to you
I sing this song for you

So I sing this song for you
There's nothing left for me to do

Mary Pretends

Mary pretends she's so insane, so insane, so insane
Mary pretends she's so insane, so insane, so insane
She just sits back and laughs at the pain
Laughs at the pain, laughs at the pain
Mary pretends she's so insane, so insane, so insane

Falling down of her mind
Gives her everything she's wanted from the world
Close her eyes, drift inside, so alive

She wants to know what it feels like
She wants to know how to fly
She wants to know what it feels like to die
Goodbye

Ozone

I wanna make her go, I wanna make her come
I wanna push her away
Don't wanna feel no pain
Don't wanna feel no shame
Don't wanna feel this way
I'm so alone here
Why must I be

I'm the one she calls ozone baby
She waits alone for me to come down
But I want to fly like a silly angel
Aim for the sky, straight into the sun

I wanna make her feel, I wanna make it real
I wanna give her away
She wanna keep me here
She wanna hold me dear
She wanna make me stay
She's so alone here
She don't need me

I'm the one she calls ozone baby
She waits alone for me to come down
But I want to fly like a silly angel
Aim for the sky, straight into the sun

My sun, on you, burning, singe you
Confined inside, rot from my lies, sucker

I'll only hold you down, I'll only steal your crown
I'll only make you cry
I'll only break your pride, and eat you up inside
Why should you even try
I'm so alone here
Why must I be

I'm the one she calls ozone baby
She waits alone for me to come down
But I want to fly like a silly angel
Aim for the sky, straight into the sun

Hideaway

Hideaway, take me now
I cannot face another round
And I'm flipping through these pages
For a name to take my place
Close my eyes, wish that I could find a space
To hideaway

Troubled days cloud my eyes
Stole the sun from my skies
And in this darkness I am tossing, turning
Lying wide awake
Hold my breath, wish that I could find a place
To hideaway

Hideaway, take me now
I cannot face another round

Last Time

I'm not the first you sucked down
I drank your pleasure slow
Then stumbled out from your evil
Still I've come for you tonight
Choke my faith and stab my pride
And tell myself that

This is the last time
This is the last time
This is the last time now
I'll bleed for you

Preservation or predation
As I'm reeling I don't know
Crumbled I spill out of your hand
I want to fall
And you see it all
And you'll just laugh when I say

This is the last time
This is the last time
This is the last time now
I'll bleed for you

And everything I feel I know you know
And everything that heals I know you know
And everything that steals I know you know
And everything that kills you know

And tell myself that

This is the last time
This is the last time
This is the last time now

Hemorrhage (In My Hands)

Memories are just where you laid them
Drag the waters till the depths give up their dead
What did you expect to find
Was it something you left behind
Don't you remember anything I said when I said

Don't fall away
And leave me to myself
Don't fall away
And leave love bleeding in my hands
In my hands again
And leave love bleeding in my hands
In my hands
Love lies bleeding

Hold me now I feel contagious
Am I the only place that you've left to go
She cries her life is like
Some movie black and white
Dead actors faking lines
Over and over and over again she cries

Don't fall away
And leave me to myself
Don't fall away
And leave love bleeding in my hands
In my hands again
And leave love bleeding in my hands
In my hands
Love lies bleeding

And I wanted
You turned away
You don't remember
But I do
You never even tried

Don't fall away....

Empty Spaces

Mister could you maybe lend a hand
To help a drowning, starving, soulless man
Whose eyes are blind and feelings all but numb
Whose ears are all so deaf and mouth is dumb

This is the way, is the way
I fill your spaces now
It's the way, it's the way
Cause all that's been left for me
Is to fight to fill these empty spaces now

Night is day and day is night again
And all that's eating bites with toothy grins
the pages of my memory torn in twain
Where reconstructing lies could not contain

This is the way, is the way
I fill your spaces now
It's the way, it's the way
Cause all that's been left for me
Is to fight to fill these empty spaces now

Scar

Chase the sun in my head
Blistered skin turning red
I can't complain
It's something to do
Cloud my mind and erase you

Since you're gone
All is wrong
Nothing seems the same down here
And if you're gone
And I'm alone
Whose heart will I scar now dear

Fall in fall out
Break free break down

Feel my legs pushing through
This world I built around you
I know the blame
Is not upon you
I know the heartless things I choose

Since you're gone
All is wrong
Nothing seems the same down here
And if you're gone
And I'm alone
Whose heart will I scar now dear

Fall in fall out
Break free break down
One look and I die
One kiss goodbye

Drag this frown from my face
Force a smile to take its place
I can pretend that I'm not confused
And I don't need the likes of you

Fall in fall out
Break free break down
One look and I die
One kiss goodbye

Bad Day

Had a bad day again
She said I would not understand
She left a note and said I'm sorry I
Had a bad day again

She spilled her coffee, broke her shoelace
Smeared the lipstick on her face
Slammed the door and said I'm sorry I
Had a bad day again

And she swears there's nothing wrong
I hear her play that same old song
She puts me off and puts me on

And had a bad day again
She said I would not understand
Left a note and said I'm sorry I
Had a bad day again

Prove

Lay me down in sheets of linen where she lies
I know she's grinning in there
Crossed your heart and hoped to die
And still you broke that spirit that I bear

Lay me down for a while
Maybe you can tell me why
All my dreams you so defiled
And prove to me
You're something like human

Lay me down in sheets of linen where she hides
I know I'm going nowhere
Everything I hoped to be and feel
Is in those lies you're telling somewhere

Lay me down for a while
Maybe you can tell me why
All my dreams you so defiled
And prove to me
You're something like human

Easy

I've seen your "Johnny Come Lately"
Seen your exiled love parade
For you another hit is so easy
One more mask for the charade

Yea, you don't hear the sounds I hear
Yea, you don't feel the fear you fear
The distance that is there
Well it's wearing pretty thin now
And breaking you down is gonna be so easy

I've felt your high and mighty
Parasols and darkest shades
Your sideways glance says maybe
Longing eyes give you away

Yea, you don't hear the sounds I hear
Yea, you don't feel the fear you fear
The distance that is there
Well it's wearing pretty thin now
And breaking you down is gonna be so easy

We'll walk this way now baby
Bring the pleasure bring the pain
Your secret's safe with me for saving
No one has to know you came

Yea, you don't hear the sounds I hear
Yea, you don't feel the fear you fear
The distance that is there
Well it's wearing pretty thin now
And breaking you down is gonna be so easy

Down

I gave you everything
I gave you trust and salvation
I gave you everything that I could provide
I gave you strength to stand and you shoved me
Down

I know you want me to love you
But all you ever do is bring me down
Won't you go away forever

I felt the world of pain
Brought to the water then left me dry
Took the drug from the user
Took all my strength to run then shoved me
Down

I know you want me to love you
But all you ever do is bring me down
Won't you go away forever

It's kinda freaky just to see you crawl
And all you can do is stare
I know you're tripping
When I kick you to the curb
Like you kicked me

I know you want me to love you
But all you ever do is bring me down
Won't you go away forever

Solace

Draw the shades and close my eyes
I never want to see again
I found the cost of courage high
Sometimes hard to pay
I hear the song the Sirens sing
Calling on the shore for me
So sell your soul and try to fly
The tether still remains

And all the finer things they laid upon my table
Smiled as their hooks were slowly sinking in

Another pill I'm to consume
To make me learn to feel again
Is followed by another one
To make me lose the same
God if I could recognize
The things to make me whole again
And draw this air into my lungs
Remember how to breathe

For as the curtain rose I danced as I was able
Felt my deception slowly sinking in

And so I turn to you my love
For the solace that is there
And offer any cherished thing
For a slight reprieve
I hoped that you might find me here
And I could learn to smile again
And as a balm for these wounds
Take away the sting

And as the band did play your body I did cradle
I should have known that song would have to end

Knives

Give me one good reason
To why you're so blind
I covered your back again
Now you better cover mine

If I turned and walked away
Would you stick your knives in me
How much longer till you break
Until I walk away, walk away from you

Give me one good reason
To why you're so unkind
You know I believe, believe it's true
You know I believed in you

If I turned and walked away
Would you stick your knives in me
How much longer till you break
Until I walk away, walk away from you

Innocent

Satan, you know where I lie
Gently I go into that good night
All our lives get complicated
Search for pleasures overrated
Never armed our souls
For what the future would hold
When we were innocent

Angels, lend me your might
Forfeit all my lives to get just one right
All those colors long since faded
All our smiles all confiscated
Never were we told
We'd be bought and sold
When we were innocent

This prayer is for me tonight
This far down that line and still ain't got it right
And while confessions not yet stated
Our next sin is contemplated
Never did we know
What the future would hold
Or that we'd be bought and sold
We were innocent

Slow

All this time
I thought this coming down was fine
Now everything I fought to grow
Is withered hanging on that vine

And all I wanted
Was all I needed you know
And everything good in my life
If you have to take it all away
Oh no, take it all away, oh no, no, no
Take it slow

Everything I try to find
Is every love I'll never hold
And in your garden now
The weeds are choking seeds we've sown

And all I wanted
Was all I needed you know
And everything good in my life
If you have to take it all away
Oh no, take it all away, oh no, no, no
Take it slow

Now you find
Your own savior for a time
And if you try my love
I hope you'll find your cure in time

And all I wanted
Was all I needed you know
And everything good in my life
If you have to take it all away
Oh no, take it all away, oh no, no, no
Take it slow

King For A Day

Bled the line tonight
Fading as the lies lie weeping on the page
Nothing was safe
Falling at the sight
Photographs of white
Bright grin and sunny days
And all was betrayed
And I think I know
The reason that your light would never stay
And all that's left to show are memories now,
But I can truly say
I was king for a day