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DEATH
Death is a mere image of life.
It is life's only promise.
It will come to everyone.
Somehow, someday, somewhere, someway.
Everyone lives,
Then they die.
There's no turning back.
You'll leave your family, and friends to cry.
Death is not an easy thing to deal with.
But everyone goes through it.
Everyone lives-Everyone dies.
You didn't die today.
But you will die soon.
I have to prepare myself for that.
Now that you're still living-
You give me another day to show you,
Just how much I truely do love you.
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DEPRESSION
Life for me has been nothing but depression.
Sometimes it's so bad, it becomes an obsession.
Why am I like this?
Where are all of the people that say they care?
Will it ever end?
Or will I always live in fear?
There are times that I feel lonely.
No one really wants to be around me.
Words nor tears can nearly express how I'm feeling.
No one really understands-
Because no one knows whats going on in my head.
Sometimes I lay in my bed...Alone
Wondering-what will tomorrow bring?
Why won't somebody just listen and be a shoulder for me to cry on.
Why can't they just be honest?
Am I really that bad to be around?
It really isn't my fault that I can't conquer my depression.
People say that I'm in control of it,
But I'm not-Honestly-I can't-Not on my own.
Sometimes I sit and wonder why
With tears in my eyes, I cry
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EXPRESS
Have you ever loved someone so much it makes you cry?
Have you ever loved someone so much you thought you'd die?
Have you ever felt so much for someone that you couldn't express all of
your
feelings?
You're in love.
It's a wonderful feeling.
You care about someone so much.
You often care about them more than you do yourself.
You'd give anything to have them,
To make them happy,
To spend all of your time with them,
To show them just how much you care.
You'd give anything
To express to them just how much they mean to you
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I HIDE
I smile to hide the pain I feel.
You don't know the real me.
The one that's depressed and hurting.
Other people know the real me.
How come you don't?
Is it because I won't let you know me?
because I'm afraid to let you down?
Because you created me, and I'm afraid to show you that someone you
created is
so hopeless, and ungrateful.
Why do I feel the way I do? So depressed and down all the time?
have I let you down?
Am I not what you wanted?
Why do I hide
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I LOVE YOU
You are my smile,
My every thought.
You are the only reason that I have fought.
You mean so much to me.
You may not realize how much it is true.
Just how much I love you.
I will love you forever.
But forget you never.
You'll always have a place in my heart.
If you should ever go away.
Just remember if I never get to say.
That I'll always love you
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IF YOU EVER GO AWAY
I sit and think about what we have,
And what we've been through.
Then I think about what I would ever do,
If I had to live my life without you.
You mean so much to me.
I don't know where in the world I'd be,
If I didn't have you beside me.
You helped me so much.
I love you dear.
Please say you'll always be here.
Life without you,
Could not be.
I need you in my life,
Standing right beside me.
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KEY TO MY HEART
You took the key to my heart
Then said goodbye
You left me alone
You made me cry
I thought you'd always be there
I thought you cared
I thought you'd listen
I thought you'd share
Your hopes
Your dreams
Your smile
Your life with mine
You earned the key to my heart
Something I wouldn't give away easily
Little did I know then
That you'd turn and run away from me
I really thought you loved me
I thought we'd be together forever
I miss the times we spent together
But now I've realized
We weren't meant to be together
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MAYBE TOMORROW
As I sit here with a tear falling from my eye,
I wonder why.
Why was I created
What have I done
What is it in my life, that makes me feel like there is no one
Like I'm alone.
Like no one gives a shit.
Like why should I bother
My life is in the pits
Don't know where I'm going
Only where I've been
I've made a promise to you that
I won't let it end
My poems, are mixed up words
That don't really mean much
They are attempts of my feelings,
That I'm trying so hard to touch
My feelings and the love for you
I feel inside I hide
I thought they'd go away,
But here goes another day,
And they've stayed
Maybe when tomorrow comes
The world will be brighter,
My heart will feel lighter
And the words I now say,
Will make sense
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SUICIDAL THOUGHTS
A cry for help
That's never heard
A razor to cut
But the blade is dull
A cup of water
But no pills to swallow
I'd hold my breath
But I'm too weak
I'd call you up to talk
But you're not home
I scream,
But no one hears
Is it that no one cares?
They all left me
Now I'm alone
With only one thing left to do
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THERE'S ALWAYS TOMORROW
If today is rough,
Remember there's always tomorrow.
Be grateful for all of the little things you have.
You are yourself, and only you.
No one can change you.
No one can make you do somethng you don't want to do.
No one can make you be someone you're not.
Love yourself for who you are.
You are unique and special.
People love you, and care about you.
So even if today-You feel alone, or like a failure.
Remember, There's always tomorrow.
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THANK YOU
You mean so much to me.
You have been there to help me, to listen and to care, like no one else
ever has.
You showed me that I can be myself and be loved for who I am deep
inside.
You helped me to set goals for myself.
You helped me to realize that I'm beautiful, both inside and out.
You shared so much with me.
You're always there to listen to me, and give me advice.
You encouraged me when I needed encouragement.
You have helped me to believe in myself.
You'll never know what you've given to me.
I couldn't show you enough how thankful I am.
I love you.
I care about you,
I want to thank you.
For helping me to get to know who I am,
And for being there for me always
My friend,
I love you
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WAITING FOR THE END
When the world is blurry,
And you can't see clearly.
You don't know where you are going.
Only where you have been.
Can't seem to face another day.
Just wish somehow, you'd melt away.
Another day went by,
Don't know why I'm still alive.
I want to end it all.
I don't have the courage.
Can't pull the trigger.
My life continues,
Will not end.
I'll face another day.
Just waiting and wishing for the end.
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WHEN TOMORROW STARTS WITHOUT ME
When tomorrow starts without me
and I'm not there to see
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
all filled with tears for me
I wish so much you wouldn't cry
the way you did today
while thinking of the many things
we didn't get to say
I know how much you love me,
as much as I love you
and each time that you think of me
I know you'll miss me too.
but when tomorrow starts without me
please try to understand
that an angel came and called my name
and took me by the hand
and said my place was ready
in heaven far above
and that I'd have to leave behind
all those I dearly love.
but as I turned to walk away
a tear fell from my eye
for all life I'd always thought
I didn't want to die
I had so much to live for
so much yet to do
it seemed almost impossible
that I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays
the good ones and the bad
I thought of all the love we shared
and all the fun we had.
if I could relive yesterday
just even for a while
I'd say goodbye and kiss you
and maybe see you smile.
but then I fully realized
that this could never be
for emptiness and memories
would take the place of me.
and when I thought of wordly things
I might miss come tomorrow
I thought of you and when I did
my heart filled with sorrow.
but when I walked through heaven's gates
I felt so much at home
when god looked down and smiled at me
from his great golden throne
He said "this is eternity
and all I've promised you".
today for life on earth is past
but here it starts anew
I promise no tomorrow
but today will always last
and since each day's the same day
there's no longing for the past.
but you have been so faithful
so trusting and so true
though there were times
you did some things
you know you shouldn't do
but you have been forgiven
and now at last you're free
so won't you take my hand
and share my life with me?
so when tomorrow starts without me
don't think we're far apart
for every time you think of me
I'm right here in your heart.
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