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written august 31, 7:42pm Hi. So I went to that meeting and I feel so much better. I can’t even believe I was as nervous as I was. I mean, by 4:30 I felt like just crawling into bed and crying. But I went, and it was great. There weren’t very many people there, seven total, I think, and three new members including me, but it was neat. One of the other new members is a girl who lives over in a different freshman dorm and she recognized my righteous babe shirt. :-) Okay, so now that’s all I have to say. I’ve hardly ever been able to write when I really feel good. I think I might go do laundry, I’m on my last pair of shorts, I think. I really should rewear them more but it’s been so hot lately that I just throw all my clothes in the my laundry bag because I can’t stand the thought of getting back into them. But I think I have one pair of not-so-comfy ones I could wear, and of course I have lots of jeans if I get desperate. But it’s still really hot up here. A lot of people seem to be wearing jeans all the time, but I just can’t stand it. So I go around in shorts showing off my hair legs and my blue toenails. y’know what I’ve noticed? I was really self conscious the other day around all the girls in my hall because I am the biggest one.... not just in weight but in general size, half the people here are tiny little 5’2” gymnastics-body types (in fact there is one gymnast and half a dozen dancers on my hall... this school is apparently known for being a good dance school... one of the professors just one a Tony for choreographing “The Lion King”) and anyway normally I don’t even notice whether or not I’m bigger than everybody but here I occasionally feel huge. And now I’m wondering if that’s just my dorm, because there are a lot of dance or athletic training majors and a lot of field hockey players and swimmers and sports people in general, and maybe they group people by major (except me, of course...) because when I went to that meeting today there were four female people total and only one of them was a lot smaller than me, instead of all of them. So I feel better that not everybody living on this campus is tiny. Okay, I don’t feel like writing any more so I’m not gonna. |