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I'm sitting here listening to Bonnie Tyler's "Total Eclipse of the Heart" over and over and I've known this song for four years or so and I think this song is very me. Like when she says "Every now and then I get a little bit angry and I know I've got to get out and cry." That is very me. And so is "Every now and then I fall apart." ...I love how she says that. She says it twice in a row. And I love when she says "Every now and then I know you'll never be the boy you always wanted to be. But every now and then I know you'll always be the only boy who wanted me the way that I am." ...and I'm not sure why, because you'd think that doesn't really apply to me.. but for some reason, those two lines seem to be so true to me. Especially the way she says "am." ...if there's anybody reading this who isn't familiar with the song, or even worse, you're only familiar with that awful dance version that came out a couple years ago... go out and buy Bonnie Tyler's "Faster than the speed of night" cd and listen to that song. The cd won't cost you much... it's not in very high demand. It's an incredible song. I think in song lyrics... actually, maybe it'd be more accurate to say I feel in song lyrics. Song lyrics are so important to me, and they have been for years. I think it's kind of a way to know that someone else has once felt the same thing I'm feeling at whatever given moment, and that they could express it in better words than I ever could. When I was 12, it was mostly show tunes... especially Les Miserables. Then I discovered Sarah McLachlan and I was transformed. Her song "Elsewhere" practically defined my life for several years. (...there's a journal entry in the archives called "elsewhere" which is specifically about why that is.) I discovered Soraya sometime that year too... her song "Nights like this" is also very important... time doesn't pull you through cuz there are nights when I still cry when I think of you sometimes it swallows me in this space I feel inside I think of how strong you were and it helps me to get by... All those nights when you would come to me in my dreams thought I was losing my mind but it's the sanest I've ever been. And on the days when life just seemed too much, I heard your voice and I was comforted by your touch. I suddently have nothing left to say. |