nineteen mora

told me, says she, you just wait
           things'll change
                      they always do
but i sit waiting and where is the difference
i don't feel older
           or wiser
                      or different
still 'fraid a the same ol' shit
           still drivin' the clunker
                      still tryin' ta please ever'one but maself
so was it she who'wus lyin' o was it me that was foolin'
where is the pay off and the dough
what ta do with ma tirin' hands
don't know whus happenin'
           don't care ta
                      only want ta know where's she
                                 when i found her lyin'?