everyonesays

everyone says that it will get better
and that i shouldn't worry
because you are happy now and better off
but i can't help but wonder how do they know?
do they know what it's like not to have you there?
and to want you there, and wonder why you're not?
do they understand how much i loved you?
when i didn't even know your name?
they can't understand that i never knew you,
and yet we were closer than i've ever been with anyone
everyone says that i can get help
and talk with women who have been through this
but they don't understand that i can't get through this
because you were my hope and i loved you with every part of my being
and they don't understand that it won't get better
because they don't understand
that when you died
i died too……