~Deja Vu~
I've been here before.
Maybe the station is
different,
but the buses hum and
the diesel
smell are the same.
And so are the tears.
The past,
and the present
play hopscotch in my
memory.
And,
I am, for a time,
an unwilling passenger on
an emotional rollercoaster ride.
I am
seventeen again.
And, hold in my arms
the
uniformed shoulders of
the one I love.
The future stretches out as vast as the heavens.
But, I only know of "here and now".
And a pain
that there are no words to describe.
"If only I
can hold on tight enough," I think.
"I can make
the future go away!"
It doesn't happen.
For no amount of pain or
tears,
can keep life at a standstill.
Or the
world from turning.
My head hurts; my stomach's queasy.
My eyes burn
with unshed tears.
I want this ride to stop.
I want to get off, now!
I can't take anymore.
I
feel the scratchy wool
uniform jacket against my
cheek.
Hold in my arms the same broad
shoulders.
Feel again that
damnable pain!
If I can
hold
on tight enough, but no!
The circle is
complete.
And, I'm not seventeen.
And, the world will turn.
With all the strength
I've ever had to
muster;
I let you go.
God keep you safe, my
son!