"First question: wish I could. Second question: what do you
think?"
"I think what do you mean ya wish you could, love."
"My latest fun loving vision; those oracle people told me that me
and Xander we're keepers. Because he was so 'noble'."
"Watch out people she is going to slug someone."
"Sorry about that Oz; but with everything that has been going on
with Doyle dying; the thought of losing Xander; and Angel
taking..."
"So much time moping."
"Actually I was thinking about when he took that day away from
Buffy's memory, but that too."
"Cordelia!"
"What? Opps."
"What are you talking about?!"
"Visiting hours are over, Mr Harris needs to rest."
"Hear that Xander needs to rest and Doyle and I have some
lost time to make up for. Have fun at Angel's everyone. Bye
Xander see you tomorrow."
With that said Cordelia kisses Xander on the cheek, grabs Doyle , and
disappears out of the room. Buffy is left standing with her mouth agape
wanting to know what the hell Cordelia was talking about. Everyone says
their good-bies to Xander and head over to Angel's place.
**********
Doyle walks into Cordelia's apartment and sits on her couch; one of the
few things she kept from her old place. Cordelia lays down placing her head
on his lap; Doyle runs his fingers through her hair.
"Remember that time we fell asleep on this couch when we were
researching for Angel?"
"Sure do, that was the best night of sleep I had in a long time
; it felt so right."
"Well after you left I used to cry myself to sleep here and pray
that I would wake-up with you again."
"Oh, princess."
"It didn't happen and each time it didn't happen the more I hated
myself for not telling you how I felt. Doyle I am so sorry for the
way I treated you. I was...."
"My princess, Cordelia I fell in love with you exactly the way you
are insults and all. There is no need to be sorry for what was said
and what wasn't said; because we are together now. We can say
everything we never got a chance to; things like the reason I got up
every morning was to see you. After Harry and I broke-up my life
wasn't the happiest; it pretty much sucked. I was like a zombie ,my
life had no meaning. That's when I got into gambling; to chicken to
kill myself I figured eventually I wouldn't be able to pay and they'ld
end themisery for me. Then you came along and changed everything;
so beautiful; so special; so caring; so straight forward; telling it
like it
was about everything ,but yourself. You're mystery, one I wanted
and still want to unravel."
"Doyle I was just so scared of being hurt again; there were so
many times I wanted to open myself up to you, but I just
couldn't. You made me laugh; made me smile; made me feel
safe; made me feel like someone cared. When I finally felt like
I could let you know my feelings it was to late; you were gone.
I never got a chance to say I'm falling in love with you; well
atleast I was."
"Was?"
Cordelia erases any worries from Doyle's mind when she kisses him.
Identical
tears stream down their faces, tears of joy. Neither of them ever imagined
being this happy.
"I love you Doyle."
"I love you Cordelia."
Cordelia and Doyle lean against each other and drift off to sleep with
smiles
stretched across their faces.
**********
Cordelia and Doyle awake the next morning the same way they did the last
time they fell asleep on that couch; by Angel slamming the door.
"Cordelia I can't believe you told Buffy!"
Cordelia hears Angel, but she is afraid to open her eyes; she is afraid
that if she does so it will all have been a dream; she will wake-up alone on
the couch once more. A soft yet passionate pressure on her forehead tells
her it's ok. After placing a soft kiss on Cordelia's forehead Doyle whispers
into her ear:
"We've got company princess."
Cordelia opens her eyes to see Doyle's gazing into hers. She then turns
to Angel who she knows is upset, but she can't help being happy because
Doyle is by her side; this can be seen in the smile stretched across her face.
"What? Oh sorry it just came out. I didn't mean to hurt you or
Buffy; it was just a totally crazy day yesterday."
Angel sees how happy his two friends finally are and he can't stay mad at
them.
"Well you didn't cause to much trouble; me and Buffy stayed up
most of the night talking things out. It turns out she had a dream
kind of like her prophetic ones only this time it showed her the
past; parts of our day together. She understands I did what I
had to she wasn't exactly happy , but she understood. I have
to admit I do feel alot better not having to hide what happened
that day from Buffy."
"So it all worked out, ya? What happened with that girl?"
"Yeah it all worked out. Anya? It turns out she was more
trouble than the vamp. He was trying to find you Cordy;
and Anya was more than willing to tell him, but I stopped
her. You're not going anywhere alone at night Cordelia I'm
not taking any chances..."
"Yeah ,yeah, yeah. I've gone up things alot nastier than that
'CLAAAAAW' guy. So what's the dish on Willow and Oz?"
"Cordelia!"
"Alright guys I promise no wandering around by myself at night.
Angel spill!"
"That's better. The 'dish' on Willow and Oz I guess would be
that they spent the night 'talking' in Oz's van. They seemed very
happy this morning before they headed back to Sunnydale."
"They went home with Xander in the hospital?!"
"They all went to see him first thing this morning and the doctors
said he is doing fine; he is going to be released tonight."
"I am so glad he is going to be alright. Cordy try not to put him
back in the hospital the second he gets out."
Cordelia smiles at Doyle watching as his eyes light up; while she
playfully punches him on the arm. Angel sees the way they are looking at
each other and picks this moment to be stealth boy. Cordelia and Doyle
redirect their attention to where Angel was only to see an empty space.
**********
"You go in I want to pick some stuff up for him; ya know a get
well, thanks for giving me back my life type thing."
"Ok see ya in a few princess."
"Not if I see you first."
Cordelia kisses Doyle then heads off to make Xander's care package.
Doyle enters Xander's room very cautiously not wanting to disturb him in case
he is sleeping.
"It's ok I am awake Giles, Jonathan and Buf left like twenty
minutes ago. Where's Cor?"
"She went to get something for you. Looks like we are gonna
have a man to well half man talk"
Xander squirms in his bed a little then sits up facing Doyle.
"Yeah I wanted to talk to you about those visions. Tell me
they get less um I dunno pain ridden ,please."
"Wish I could pal; painful bitches ain't they. They aren't all that
bad though; one of those visions brought me to Cordy."
"Are you saying that I will have a vision of some chick and
fall madly in love? Like some sort of work man's comp or
something? Cuz that might not suck."
"Could happen; I think you're already in love though."
"Anya? It was fun while it lasted; but I am pretty sure we're
over. Plus it wasn't really love as much as it was not being alone."
"Not with Anya; with Cordelia."
"Cor? No...she...I...we. Why would you say that?"
"You have to love Cordy very much to do what you did. I
mean giving up your life for someone you don't even know;
you don't do that for just anybody trust me I know."
"I love Cordy. I had a chance to be with her and I messed up."
"Why did you help me? I mean me out of the picture; her
suffering; you could have been her rock; made her fall in love
with you again."
"I don't deserve Cordelia you do. I hurt her so much; she almost
died because of me. You died for her. The math is even easy
enough for me to do it."
"What did you do to her?"
"A long story she will tell you one day if she wants. It
wasn't intentional; I didn't beat her or anything. Doyle do
me a favor."
"You did bring me back to Cordy so tell me what you want."
"Protect Cordelia; make her happy; give her the love she
deserves; the love I couldn't give her."
"You got it kid."
Cordelia walks in holding a bag and some balloons; she ties the balloons
to the side of the bed and places the bag on Xander's lap.
"Got what? What are you boys up to?"
Cordelia sits on Doyle's lap as Xander rummages through the gift from
Cordelia.
He yelps with joy pulling something out.
"Twinkies! Oooo and chocolate! Cor you know me so well.
This hospital food is yuck and coming from me that is real bad."
"The jello looks good."
Xander and Cordelia exchange glances and then burst out laughing. Doyle
eyes them both not understanding what is so funny.
"What?!"
"Nothing just if you went to good ole Sunnydale High you
tend to be a little skittish about jello. I will fill you in later we
have time. Doyle do you think you can give me and Xander
a few minutes alone?"
Doyle kisses Cordelia's forehead; then heads down the hall to the vending
machines seeing all of Xander's goodies made him hungry; he can really go for
some Swedish Fish.
**********
Cordelia takes Xander's hand and then looks into his eyes.
"Thank-you; this is the best present I have ever received. I
have been driving myself crazy trying to think of what I can
give you that can even begin to compare to what you gave me.
I think I finally figured it out."
"Cor I don't need anything really; seeing you happy is the greatest
gift; but if you insist on giving me something else through in a Clark
bar and we'll call it even."
"You're wrong you do need something; you've needed it for a long time."
"What are you talking about? You're not going to give me a kick
in the teeth or something are you?"
"No, I am going to give you all my heart can give: Xander I
forgive you for that night; what happened to me wasn't your
fault and I don't blame you. I realized that I have moved on,
and didn't have any harsh feelings toward you, but I've never
said the words. Xander I forgive you and I love you; you
taught me so much and will always hold a special place in my
heart. I can't imagine living without you in my life. Merry
Christmas."
Tears fall from Xander's eyes as he pulls Cordelia into a hug. He has
longed and needed to hear Cordelia say those words for so long; as Cordelia
spoke them Xander felt a tear in his heart being sewn up.
"Thank-you. Merry Christmas."
Doyle leans against the doorway finishing the last of his Swedish Fish;
he clears his throat to announce his presence. Cordelia and Xander break
from their hug turning to face him.
"Hope I'm not disturbing you."
"No it's ok me and Cordy were just finishing up. Now you
crazy kids get out of here."
"You sure Xan?"
"Yeah I'm pretty tired."
Cordelia and Doyle take each others hands as they walk out of the room;
before exiting the room Doyle turns around and winks at Xander who smiles.
"Doyle don't you have something to say to me?"
"You look beautiful."
"Thanks that I know. Don't you have something to ask me?"
"Oh yeah we kind of got interrupted: Cordelia Chase would
you do me the honor of accompanying me on a date?"
"Alright ,but let's go to the movies."
"Princess, a first date? I'm a better kisser than I thought."
"You wish! I have to do work on you before we are seen
out in a public lighted place together. I do have standards
you know...."
Doyle silences Cordelia with a kiss; she stares into his eyes smiling.
"Maybe we can try your way too."
*THE END*
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