My home seemed so different as Mom pulled into the driveway. It wasn’t a safe, warm place anymore. It seemed to symbolize some hell. Even though I had love there, from Reenie and no one else, it let loneliness take over.
Reenie, Amber, and Dad stood out on the lucious, green, perfectly trimmed grass, anxiously awaiting my arrival. The smiles on their faces frightened me. I was afraid of happiness. It seemed as if they were happy about my being hospitalized, not my return. They didn’t love me. They wanted me to suffer with a needle in my arm, wanted me to die. I wanted to run. I hated this place.
Reenie flowed into my arms, her tiny heart beating wildly against my stomach. She didn’t say a word, just smiled peacefully and embraced me as the sun shone down on our heads. Amber and Dad did the same. I didn’t know what they were thinking. They were so silent and ghostlike. It felt as if they weren’t really there mentally. Their bodies embraced me, but their minds wandered. Everyone was like that when it came down to me. I wasn’t worth their words.
I wasn’t worth anything.
Chapter 11-Perfect
