subdominant words: lyrics

bother

1. sandwich
2. bread pudding
3. fault
4. next to nothing
5. decomposition
6. damage control
7. shock therapy survivor
8. the letters

sandwich

i can't see the idiot for the child.
underneath the ice cream
i hide it, clean. i'm fat and mean
and like a diamond, i see girls go blind.

here's all i can do at the same time:
i can eat and smoke and drink
with only two hands, one in my pants.
idiot. baby. eating all the time.

what i hide i see. stay and make me.
i see it.
i stay. i make.
whenever i come to you, i think that
i didn't need that sandwich.

idiot. baby. eating all the time.
like a diamond, i see girls go blind.

r. bouchard

bread pudding

open your mouth.
i'll fall on your teeth.
i'll fall on your teeth.
i'll fall on your teeth.

run why don't you
like there's anyone
who wants to follow
when you go there.

just a baby with a big one.
just a baby with a big one.
and when we do, you say don't look at me.

r. bouchard & a. carlson

fault

a series of dilating rods chokes me for breakfast.
i get dressed. i poke around. i try things. i feel so sick.
you make me want to run. you catch me, make me want to.

and goes upstairs and into bed and feels around.
and underscores. overeats.
forget about it. all that dress is for taking off.
and underscores. overheats.

i can take on any job i can go to in my pajamas.
hell, i'll take two. take to my grave,
like a natural, all that matters, any lover who can stand
the smell. hell, he likes it.
i smile. i'm a natural in my pajamas.
hell, i'll take two.

r. bouchard

next to nothing

wait. wait.
wait for my other face.
my bones, nobody knows me.
televisions.
blue light on a child.
a wolf in the kitchen.
wait. wait.
nothing. next to nothing
where the trees are
and the grass waits.
my eye has a dark room, black.
the sun is an apple, a leaf
a hole of stars.
wind down.
window.

r. bouchard & d. romanelli

decomposition

the boys are all flowers caught fire at a glance.
everything i lick turns to dust.
i've got decomposition touch. so what.

r. bouchard

damage control

if you try to rescue that child, she may say, why are you bothering?
you can't drag a dead dog on a leash.
what, do you love me or something?
you may even be ashamed and then you know that you are her.
I don't blame you if you don't take it from me.
i know i treated you like a whore.
but aren't you glad for that special perspective?
the deeper one end, the richer the other.
i loved you then, and i love you now, better.
if i could see you i would set you up.

r. bouchard.

shock therapy survivor

couldn't stand to see her twisting up her hair like a shock therapy surviver.
i threw her down the stairs.
all she ever taught me anyway was how to put off work.
i threw her down the stairs.
the cruelest thing i ever did. i can't even imagine the strength it took
to lose me.
maybe i'll go get her. but, oh, the time it takes to work.
maybe i'll go get her, but, oh, the time.
time gets sparse in a staircase. if i'm climbing down, i am blessed.

r. bouchard

the letters

count all the times he told her.
count all the ways he said he.
count every letter in the word.

on saturday
he's coming.
ask her.
she saw the letters.

on saturday
he's coming.
ask her, she saw
she saw
she saw the letters.
the letters.

count all the times he told her.
count all the ways he said he.
count every letter in the word.