Mercury In Retrograde

 

by Silk

 

Part 1

 

That wasn't a siren. It was the alarm clock. Jim woke up with a crick in his

neck and an armful of warm, willing Guide. He almost smiled. This nearly

made up for getting a mere two hours sleep.

 

His head ached, his groin was a sticky mess, and even his hair, what little

there was, hurt. Add to this the fact that he and Blair, two heretofore

resolutely straight men, were now lovers. Then there was the little matter of

being expected at work in...oh, about an hour.

 

An hour? Shit. Jim threw back the covers, determined to go about his

business with his usual alacrity. After getting a faceful of blanket, Blair

woke up sputtering. Jim stood by the side of the bed, savoring the sight of

a naked Sandburg in his bed at last.

 

"Morning, Chief," he said softly, waiting for Blair to really open his eyes,

wondering how he would react to the morning after and his first glimpse of a

naked Ellison-in-the-morning.

 

Blair came awake slowly, which didn't surprise Jim, but when his blue-eyed

gaze lit upon Jim, it brightened, flaring with considerable intensity before

it faded into a companionable glow. Jim couldn't help but react. It was aimed

at him. All that love and affection--*his* for the taking.

 

"Hey, Jim."

 

"Hey, Chief," he answered, feeling his early morning erection twitch. God,

he hoped Blair didn't notice that. It was going to make Jim look *so

shallow*. So *sexually preoccupied*. Well, hell, he *was*. Here he was,

pushing forty from the other side now, and his cock seemed to be undergoing

some kind of fucking rebirth.

 

He knew he was grinning ear-to-ear. He just knew it. But Blair didn't seem

to mind. Blair turned onto his side, the better to peer up at Jim through

that silky mass of brown curls.

 

"We should be getting ready for work."

 

"Yeah," agreed Blair. But he never moved.

 

"Don't make me come over there, Chief."

 

Blair chuckled. "I hope the Cascade PD appreciates your zealous commitment

to the job, man."

 

Jim leaned over Blair, his heart in his eyes, for once completely and

utterly readable. "There's only one person I hope appreciates me, Chief."

 

"Me?" Blair squeaked.

 

"You," Jim smiled his assent. Taking the initiative before his nerve

deserted him, Jim bent his head and kissed Blair, murmuring "I love you."

 

Blair grinned, looking for all the world like a sleepy, rumpled teddybear.

"Love you right back, man." Bouncing on the edge of the bed, Blair

exclaimed, "Let's call in and stay in bed all day!"

 

Jim rolled his eyes. As if. "I hate to sound like grumpy old Mr.

Responsibility here, Chief, but we've got a shitload of cases right now.

That's the reality."

 

"Reality bites, man," Blair declared with a sigh. His face fell, and Jim

resisted the urge to hold him, already seeing how much their lives had

changed now that they were joined.

 

"I've got dibs on the shower, Chief," he called over his shoulder, padding

down the stairs on cats' feet before he found ten more reasons to stay home

and play with Blair. Literally.

 

After a hot albeit quick shower, Jim felt more like facing the day ahead.

Yet he still had a nagging feeling that he should be concentrating on

strengthening the new bond between him and Blair. Hell, he thought, I can

always work. I've got more vacation time and personal days owed me than

anyone else in MC. What the hell am I saving it for, now that I finally

found someone to spend my days, and nights, his cock reminded him, with?

 

Breakfast was a slapdash affair. He might wish he could sit at the table,

mooning over Blair's eyes, but he was long on love and short on time. He

managed to choke down a couple of slices of over-buttered toast to go with

his mug of too hot but flavorless coffee. Blair looked vaguely bereft, as if

he thought he should be following Jim to the station rather than teaching an

early morning Anthro class.

 

Jim suddenly stopped at the door, and Blair nearly collided with him.

"Hey....

 

Jim turned to see the owner of the shout. "I just thought of something,

Chief."

 

"What?"" Blair sounded more down by the moment.

 

"I'm going to miss you."

 

"Well, I ought to be there by 2, Jim. I've got a few errands to run after my

class."

 

"The morning's going to be endless, Chief," Jim said, sounding like a man

desperately in love. In truth, he was all too aware of how quickly things

could change. He could take a bullet, and it would all be over but the

shouting. That had never particularly bothered him before. But now...dammit,

he had the best reason of all to stay alive.

 

"You've been without me lots of times, Jim. You'll be fine till I get

there."

 

"I may have been without you before, Chief, but I won't be fine. I'm never

*fine* when you're not there." Jim looked conflicted. "I thought it

was because of the Guide thing, but after last night--I know it's not. You're

the other half of me, Blair."

 

"Jim...." Blair said his name like something painful was being drawn from

his soul.

 

"I know. I'm not the fucking poetic type, and I'll probably never let you

know how much I really care. But I do."

 

Blair swayed closer to the mouth he wanted to kiss. "Shit, Jim, how am I

going to get through my morning now? Everybody's going to take one look at

me and they'll know."

 

"Know what?"

 

Blair smiled as he came within a half-inch of his goal. "That I'm in love."

 

Part 2