"The beach boys?", Joel questioned with a laugh. Him and Jina were in 11th grade and sitting in his room.Jina's hair was chin length and it grazed her face. He took the record from Jina's hands.
"Yeah, it's on my list of things people dont know about me", she smirked. Joel looked down at the cover.
"Do you have a record player?", she questioned. He looked at her puzzled.
"I think my mom might have one in her the closet in the hall let me check", he got up from the bed and left the room. A few moments later he returned with an old record player. He set it down on the night table next to his bed. Then he grabbed the record and took it out of the sleve and put it on.
I may not always love you
But long as there are stars above you
You never need to doubt it
I'll make you so sure about it
God only knows what I'd be without you
If you should ever leave me
Though life would still go on believe me
The world could show nothing to me
So what good would living do me
God only knows what I'd be without you
God only knows what I'd be without you
If you should ever leave me
Well life would still go on believe me
The world could show nothing to me
So what good would living do me
God only knows what I'd be without you
God only knows what I'd be without you
God only knows
God only knows what I'd be without you
God only knows what I'd be without you
God only knows
God only knows what I'd be without you
God only knows what I'd be without you
God only knows
God only knows what I'd be without you
God only knows what I'd be without you
God only knows
God only knows what I'd be without you
God only knows what I'd be without you
God only knows
God only knows what I'd be without you
God only knows what I'd be without you
God only knows
God only knows what I'd be without you
Joel looked at Jina as the words dug into him like a knife. Jina looked back and smiled he bagan to kiss her. She reached her hand towards the record player and without looking pushed it back to the beginning of God Only knows as Joel layed her down on the bed.
Jina's eyes fluttered open as she looked over the the alarm clock on the table. Why did it seem she'd always wake up at 5am. She looked over at Billy who had one leg on top of the sheet and the other under it. She snickered and got up. She put her pink robe over what she was wearing and stepped out of the room quietley not to wake Billy. She walked down the hallway towards the lobby. A firmilar guy sat on a couch looking out the big window in the lobby. Jina stepped around the fancy looking couch and stood next to him.
"Jina", Benji stated startled.He turned to look up at her.
"May I have a seat?", Jina asked looking at Benji who looked kind of down.
"Yeah sure", he stated with a slight smile.
"What are you doing up?", he looked at Jina.
"I had a bad dream, what about you?", she questioned him looking directly into his eyes.
"I didn't sleep all night...", he confessed.
"O, wow it looks like more snow fell", Jina stated as the lights outside lit up the new fallen snow.
"Yeah...", Benji looked back out the window.
"Benj whats eating you, you seem upset", she looked at him. Benji took his hand and placed it on hers.
"Jina I have a little confession to make", he looked down at their hands and then back up at her.
"Yeah...", she was not ready for what he had said next.
"Jina, ever since oh f*ck I can't remember when i started but the past few days have made it even more signifigant that Im falling for you Jee, I dont know how long Ive f*cking felt like this but I realized that in the past few days Ive gotten to know you more and I like the you that ive gotten to know", he confessed.
"Benj, when did you realize this", she turned toward him squeazing his hand.
"On the way up here it caught me off guard kind of, I told Joel and he just kind of walked out of the room I dont know what he was thinking but... he seemed hurt but I just....", Benji couldn't finnish his sentence when Jina just moved in and kissed his periced lips. She had never kissed anyone with this many pericings and it was definitly a turn on. Jina pulled away and smiled at Benji. She grabbed his arm and pulled him to his room.
"O s*it wait is Paul in there?", she questioned him.
"No he met some chicks in the bar last night and never came back", he smiled.
"Well.. looks like he had the same idea", Jina giggled as Benji opened the door.
"I'll be right back", Benji stated as he ran into the bathroom. Jina decided she'd help Benji by taking her clothes off for him. She stood in front of a stereo that was placed on the dresser. She stiped down to her matching dark pink bra and undie set. She let her hair flow down her back. Not realizing Benji was standing there she brushed her hands through her hair. Benji got a chill as she did. He walked over to her and grabbed her by the waste as she turned the radio onto some radio station as he grabbed her. He threw her lightly onto the bed and jumped on top. Benji took off his clothes as he kneedled and she smirked at him. He layed lightly on top of her to try not to hurt her. Then he layed on his side and kissed her. She kissed him up and down. A firmilar song played on the radio she wasn't sure what it was until she heard a lyric. God only knows what I'd be without you
"I can't do this Benj", she stated as she pushed him away and sat up on the bed. She grabbed her clothes which lay next to the bed. She began to get dressed.
"Jna whats the matter?", he questioned.
"Im sorry Benji it's not you it's the song it's a sign that we shouldn't be doing this im really really sorry Benji I just can't be with you", she told him as a tear ran down her cheek. She was confused about what she had just done with him. She completed putting on her clothes by putting the robe on top.
"Jina don't do this to me, I really like you Joel's getting married remember?", Benji questioned with a hurt expression.
"Benj, I dont like you that way", she told him she gave him a kiss on the head and ran out the door. Benji sat in the bed nakid and looked up at the ceiling.
~*~
Jina slamed the door to her room and put her head against the door. A tear rolled down her cheek.
"Jee is that you?", Billy yawned.
"Yeah", she quickly responded as she whiped the tear off her face and walked toward the bed. She sat down on the bed and took off her bathrobe and layed under the covers. Billy rolled over and looked at her. "
Where'd you go Jee?", he questioned.
"I woke up early so I decided I'd go to the lobby, but Im tired now so good night", she stated falling back asleep. Everyone gathered down in the Dineing area at around 10:00am. They all found a table to sleep at including Joels girlfriend. Jina and Benji ended up sitting next to each other both feeling aquard about the situation that happend earlier that morning.
"So Pauly where were you last night?", Joel stated as he took a bite of his eggs.
"I got laid last night by 4 lovley ladies", Paul stated nodding his head. Joel took Jennifers hand as he laughed along with them.
"Very nice Paul are we going to believe you on this one?", Billy asked.
"Im so f*cking serious man, my d*ck is in so much f*cking pain I might have to cut it off", he smirked.
"Okay Paul we didn't need to go that far into detail", Jennifer stated tossing her long locks. Jina looked over at Joel and Jennifer watching as Joel began to eat he saw her and dropped some of his eggs. Jina turned away. She didn;t know where to look she was in such an aquard situation. Benji hadn't said a single word during breakfist to neither Joel or Jina. Jina played around with her food not eating any of it and so did Benji. Billy looked over at his cousin he was on the other side of her.
"Are you going to eat that?", Billy quetioned looking at the fried egg sitting on her plate.
"No, in fact im not hungry at all I'll be up in my room", she stated. She tried to get out by going towards Benji's side but she quickly changed directions and went to the other way.
"What the f*ck is up with her?", Joel questioned looking at everyone.
"Joel maybe if you payed more attention to Jina and stop f*cking around with bimbo maybe you'd see what the f*ck is up with her", Benji stated pushing his plate away and rushing off to his room. '
"Okay did something happen that I dont know about?", Joel looked around. No one answered.
"Okay fine come on hunny buns lets go snowboarding", Joel stated tugging on Jenn's arm.
"Didn't i tell you I hate snowboarding lets go to the club today", she moaned.
"Fine", he stated with an attitude getting up from the table.
~*~
Jina locked herself in the bathroom and sat down on the cold tile floor. She went through a mini bag she brought with pills, cigarettes, razors, tooth brush etc. She pulled out a cigarette first and lit it and began smoking. Jina looked at the toilet and decided to vomit the smoke was making her feel sick. She crawled over to the bowl and stuck her fingers down her throat and vomited. She leaned back and felt the burn in her throat. Sweat dripped from her face. She flushed the toilet and walked out of the bathroom and slowly walked towards the bed and layed down.