~101~
~YESTERDAY
AND TODAY~
~Peggy Haskins~
Yesterday,
was a time, when I use to say...
I could never
live on if you left me,
to live life
without you.
Yesterday,
was a time, when I use to say...
losing you
could never happen to me,
because I
cherished you in every way.
Yesterday,
I believed God would protect you,
from all harms
way for me, because I loved
you so very
much.
Yesterday,
was the time, when I watched a
grieving mother,
thinking to myslef, this
would never
happen to me. "NOT ME"
as I looked
inot her eyes, I thought I
would never
be able to survive
the death
of my child...
Yesterday,
was the time, when I did not realize
the reality,
that the time before I would be walking
in her shoes,
was so close behind me.
Yesterday,
was the day, death came knocking at my door...
Thanksgiving
morning, you were called away...
I was so sure
that I would follow you,
but I stayed...
How so many
wonder...How have I lived without
your laughter,
hugs and those kisses?
My Precious
Child, there is only one, who could
help me survive
these past ten years witout you.
Our Father,
in Heaven, has walked with me during
those times
of my deepest despair.
Today, I know,
I will survive.
This journey
is never-ending, but I will keep
taking those
two steps forward, and the one back.
Today, I know
that grieving mother, who walked
past me on
that day...
We share a
bond which cannot be broken,
because we
both know the loss of our children.
With this
mother, I can share my tears of pain,
and I can
share my memories...
As no others
understand...
Today...I can
say I understand!!!
~102~
~GOD PROMISED~
~Annie Johnson
Flint~
"God had not
promised
Skies always
blue,
Flower strewn
pathways
All our lives
through;
God had not
promised
Sun without
rain,
Joy without
sorrow,
Peace without
pain.
But God hath
promised
Strength for
the day,
Rest for the
labor,
Light for
the way.
Grace for
the trials,
Help from
above,
Unfailing
sympathy
Undying love....."
~103~
~I STOOD BESIDE
YOUR BED LAST NIGHT~
~Author Unknown~
I stood beside
your bed last night,
I came to
have a peep.
I could see
that you were crying,
quietly in
your sleep.
I touched you
softly
as you brushed
away a tear,
"It's me,
I haven't left you,
I'm well,
I'm fine, I'm here."
I was close
to you at breakfast,
I watched
you pour coffee,
You were thinking
of how much you
LOVED me.
I was with
you at the store today,
Your arms
were getting sore.
I longed to
take your parcels,
I wish I could
do more.
I was with
you at my grave today,
You tend it
with such care.
I want to
reassure you,
that I'm not
really there.
I walked with
you to the house,
as you fumbled
for your key.
I gently put
my hand on you
I smiled and
said, "it's me."
You looked
so very tired,
and sank into
a chair.
I tried so
hard to let you know,
that I was
standing there.
It's possile
for me to be
so near you
everyday.
To say to
you with certainty,
"I never went
away."
You sat there
very quietly, then
smile, I think
you knew...
In the stillness
of that evening,
I was very
close to you.
The day is
over...I smile and watch
you yawning
and say
"goodnight,
God bless,
I'll see you
in the morning."
And when the
time is right for you
to cross the
brief divide,
I'll rush
across to greet you and
we'll stand,
side by side.
I have so many
things to show you,
there is so
much for you to see.
Be patient,
live your journey out
then come
home to be with me.
~104~
~BUT FOR A
MOMENT~
~Author Unknown~
You'll always
be my child ~ I think of you each day,
Even though
you must remain so very far away.
I love as
strong as this, I've never felt before:
But you had
to go away ~ up through Heaven's door.
You'll never
have to suffer, or feel pain or hate,
Just peace
& love & happiness ~ God has given you this fate.
I hope that
you can feel just how much I care;
And when my
days are over, in a flash ~ I will be there.
Pure unbounding
joy! We'll never have to part.
You'll be
right by my side ~ And not just in my heart.
But, until
that day, when my dream is real ~
I think I
understand, just how I should feel...
"Mom, I am
fine!" this must be what you would say ~
"Please don't
be so sad, we'll meet again one day.
I'm with God
above ~ so don't cry for me.
Our parting
is but a moment compared to eternity."
~105~
~GOD BLESS
A BRAND NEW ANGEL~
~Vinnie Mardonis~
You were a
rose among my thorns
You were the
calm in the eye of every storm
Now your gone,
I have no more tears to cry
We never had
a chance to say goodbye.
Oh bless a
brand new angel
Heaven isn't
all that far
And though
time came to take you
you're still
living in my heart
With a love
that's never changing
Please bless
a brand new angel
You were my
refuge from the rain
When you smiled
you'd bring
summer back again
I'll hold
you here forever in my mind
until we meet
someday on the other side of time
Oh bless a
brand new angel
Heaven isn't
all that far
And though
time came to take you
you're still
living in my heart
With a love
that's never changing
Please bless
a brand new angel
Without you
the sun will never shine as bright
You're my
gentle touch
deep throughout
each corner of my life
Oh bless a
brand new angel
Heaven isn't
all that far
And though
time came to take you
you're still
living in my heart
With a love
that's never changing
Please bless
a brand new angel
~106~
~THE TEARDROP~
~Betty Purser
Patten~
There's a legend
of a teardrop
that rolled
down a cheek one day.
And it fell
upon a tombstone
where a mother
had gone to pray.
And it sparkled
like a diamond
as it ventured
toward the sod.
And it's brilliance
was so startling
that it caught
the eye of God......
That teardrop,
born of sorrow
for a little
child who died.
Was shed in
grief and sadness
by the mother
who cried.
But it had
a special meaning
to the Father
up above.
For that teardrop
was just loaded
with a mothers
true love......
In it's loving
sparkling brilliance
God recalled
the teardrop home.
And he showed
it to the little child
who, no more
on earth would roam.
Then God took
that brilliant teardrop
shed in love
on earth afar.
And he placed
it in the heavens
with his brightest
morning star.......
When you look
into the Heavens
where ten
million stars are spread.
You may see
a lovely teardrop
That in sorrow,
you have shed.......
~107~
~A BEREAVED
PARENT’S WISH LIST~
~Author Unknown~
~1~
I wish
that my child hadn’t died. I wish I had him back.
~2~
I wish
you wouldn’t be afraid to speak my child’s name. My child lived and
was very important to me. I need to hear that he was important to
you, too.
~3~
If I
cry and get emotional when you talk about my child I wish you knew that
it isn’t because you have hurt me. My child’s death is the cause
of my grief.
~4~
I wish
you wouldn’t "kill" my child again by removing his pictures, artwork, or
other remembrances from your home.
~5~
Being
a bereaved parent is not contagious, so I wish you wouldn’t shy away from
me. I need you now more than ever.
~6~
I need
diversions, so I do want to hear about you, but I also want you to hear
about me. I might be sad and I might cry, but I wish you would let
me talk about my child, my favorite subject of the day.
~7~
I know
that you think of and pray for me often. I also know that my child’s
death pains you, too. I wish you would let me know these things through
a phone call, a card or note or a real big hug.
~8~
I wish
you wouldn’t expect my grief to be over in six months. These first
months are traumatic for me, but I wish you could understand that my grief
will never be over. I will suffer the death of my child until the
day I die.
~9~
I am
working very hard in my recovery but I wish you could understand that I
will never fully recover. I will always miss my child and I will
always grieve that he is dead.
~10~
I wish
you wouldn’t expect me "Not to think about it" or to "be happy."
Neither will happen for a very long time, so don’t frustrate yourself.
~11~
I don’t
want to have a "pity party" but I do wish you would let me grieve.
I must hurt before I can heal.
~12~
I wish
you understood how my life has shattered. I know it is miserable
for you to be around me when I’m feeling miserable. Please be patient
with me as I am with you.
~13~
When I say
"I’m doing okay" I wish you could understand that I don’t "feel" okay and
that I struggle daily.
~14~
I wish
you knew that all of the grief reactions I’m having are very normal.
Depression, anger, hopelessness and overwhelming sadness are to be expected.
So please excuse me when I’m quiet and with drawn or irritable and cranky.
~15~
Your
advice to "take one day at a time" is excellent advice. However,
a day is too much and too fast for me right now. I wish you could
understand that I’m doing good to handle an hour at a time.
~16~
Please
excuse me if I seen rude. Certainly this is not my intent.
Sometimes the world around me goes too fast and I need to get off.
When I walk away, I wish you would let me find a quiet place to spend some
time.
~17~
I wish
you understood that grief changes people. When my child died, a big
part of me died with him. I am not the same person I was before my
child died, and I will never be that person again.
~18~
I wish
very much that you could understand – understand my loss and my grief,
my silence and my tears, my void and my pain. But I pray daily that
you will never understand.
~108~
~TINY ANGEL~
~ Author Unknown~
Tiny Angel
rest your wings
Sit with me
awhile.
How I long
to hold your hand,
And see your
tender smile.
Tiny Angel,
look at me,
I want this
image clear...
That I will
forget your precious face
Is my biggest
fear.
Tiny Angel
can you tell me,
Why you have
gone away?
You weren't
here for very long...
Why is it,
you couldn't stay?
Tiny Angel
shook his head,
"These things
I do not know...
But I do know
that you love me,
And that I
love you so".
~109~
~CHILD OF HEAVEN~
~R.K. Cecil~
Child of Heaven
come to earth,
You just could
not stay.
This world
could not hold you
And so soon
you went away.
Like a rare
and precious rose,
Your lovely
soul can't die.
Budded here
upon the earth,
Now it will
bloom on high.
You are a child
of heaven
And will forever
be
In the arms
of Jesus
For all eternity.
~110~
~WINTERSONG~
Written by:
Sasha
from
her book: Wintersun
Season of lights,
season of
love and peace
Season of
shadow, season of memories
Season of
warmth and joy.
Season of
secret tears:
Give us courage
to laugh again
Give us the
vision to hope again
Give us the
power to love again
For all our
new seasons
For all our
new years.
