~71~
~WHEN TOMORROW
STARTS WITHOUT ME~
~Author Unknown~
When
tomorrow starts without me,
and I'm not
there to see;
If the sun
should rise and find your eyes
filled with
tears for me;
I wish so
much you wouldn't cry
the way you
did today,
While thinking
of the many things
we didn't
get to say.
I know how
much you love me,
as much as
I love you,
And each time
you think of me
I know you'll
miss me too;
But when tomorrow
starts without me,
please try
to understand,
That an angel
came and called my name
and took me
by the hand,
And said my
place was ready
in Heaven
far above
And that I'd
have to leave behind
all those
I dearly love.
But as I turned
to walk away,
a tear fell
from my eye,
For all my
life,
I'd always
thought I didn't want to die.
I had so much
to live for
and so much
yet to do,
It seemed
almost impossible
that I was
leaving you.
I thought
of all the yesterdays,
the good ones
and the bad,
I thought
of all the love we shared
and all the
fun we had.
If I could
relive yesterday
I thought
just for awhile,
I'd say good
bye and kiss you
and maybe
see you smile.
But then I
fully realized
that this
could never be,
For emptiness
and memories
would take
the place of me.
And when I
thought of worldly things
that I'd miss
come tomorrow,
I thought
of you, and when I did,
my heart was
filled with sorrow.
But when I
walked through Heaven's gate,
I felt so
much at home.
When God looked
down and smiled at me,
from His great
golden throne,
He said, "This
is eternity
and all I've
promised you."
Today for
life on what is past
but here it
starts anew.
I promise
no tomorrow,
but today
will always last,
And since
each day's the same day,
there's no
longing for the past,
But you have
been so faithful,
so trusting,
so true.
Though there
were times you did some things
you knew you
shouldn't do.
But you have
been forgiven
and now at
last you're free.
So won't you
take my hand
and share
my life with me?
So when tomorrow
starts without me,
don't think
we're far apart,
For every
time you think of me,
I'm right
here in your heart.
~72~
~SPECIAL ANGEL~
~Author Unknown~
There's a special
angel in Heaven
That is a
part of me
It is not
where I wanted him, but
where God
wanted him to be
he was here
for just a moment
Like a nighttime
shooting star
And though
he is in Heaven
he isn't very
far
He touched
the heart of many
Like only
an angel can do
i would have
held him every minute
If the end
I only knew
So I send
this special message
To the Heaven
about you
Please take
care of my angel
And send him
all my love
~73~
~DEATH~
~Author Unknown~
Death is nothing
at all
I have only
slipped away
Into the next
room
I am I ~ and
your are you
Whatever we
were to each other
That we are
still
Call me by
my old familiar name
Speak to me
in the easy way
Which you
always used
Put no difference
into your tone
Use no forces
of solemnity or sorrow
Laugh as we
always laughed
At the little
jokes we enjoyed together
Play, smile,
think of me
Pray for me
Let my name
be ever in the house hold
As it always
was
Let it be
spoken without effort
Without the
ghost of a shadow on it
Life means
all that is ever meant
It is the
same as it ever was
There is absolute
unbroken continuity
What is this
death
But a negligible
accident
Why should
i be out of mind
Because I
am out of sight
I am waiting
for you for an interval
Somewhere
very near
Just around
the corner
All is well
~74~
~HE ONLY TOOK
MY HAND~
~Author Unknown~
Last night
while I was trying to sleep,
My son's voice
I did hear
I opened my
eyes and looked around
But he did
not appear.
He said, "Mom
you've got to listen,
You've got
to understand
God didn't
take me from you, Mom
He only took
my hand.
When I called
out in pain that night,
The instant
that I died,
He reached
down and took my hand,
And pulled
me to His side.
He pulled
me up and saved me
From the misery
and the pain
My body was
hurt so badly inside,
I could never
be the same.
My search
is really over now,
I've found
happiness within,
All the answers
to my empty dreams
And all that
might have been.
I love you
and miss you so,
And I'll always
be nearby.
My body's
gone forever,
But my spirit
will never die!
And so, you
must go on now,
Live one day
at a time.
Just understand
~
God did not
take me from you,
He only took
my hand.
~75~
~JUST FOR TODAY~
~Vickie Tushingham~
JUST FOR TODAY
I will try
to live through the next 24 hours and not expect to get over my child's
death, but instead learn to live with it just one day at a time.
JUST FOR TODAY
I will remember
my child's life, not his death, and bask in the comfort of all those treasured
days and moments we shared.
JUST FOR TODAY
I will forgive
all the family and friends who didn't help or comfort me the way that I
needed them to. They truly did not know how.
JUST FOR TODAY
I will smile
no matter how much I hurt on the inside, so that maybe my heart will soften
and I will begin to heal.
JUST FOR TODAY
I will reach
out to comfort a relative or friend of my child, for they are hurting too,
and perhaps we can comfort each other.
JUST FOR TODAY
I will free
myself from my self inflicted burden of guilt, for deep in my heart I know
if there was anything in this world I could have done to save my child
from death, I would have done it.
JUST FOR TODAY
I will honor
my child's memory by doing something with another child because I know
that would have made my own child proud.
JUST FOR TODAY
I will offer
my hand in friendship to another bereaved parent, for I DO KNOW how they
feel.
JUST FOR TODAY
when my heart
feels like breaking, I will stop and remember that grief is the price we
pay for loving, and the only reason I hurt is because I had the PRIVILEGE
of loving so much.
JUST FOR TODAY
I will not
compare myself with others. I am fortunate to be who I am and to
have had my child for as long as I did.
JUST FOR TODAY
I will allow
myself to be happy, for I know that I am not deserting my child by living
on.
JUST FOR TODAY
I will accept
that I did not die when my child did, ny life did go on, and I am the only
one who can make life worthwhile once more.
~76~
~LOOKING DOWN
FROM HEAVEN~
~Author Unknown~
I'm looking
down from Heaven Mommy
I don't like
to see you cry
I remember
how you loved me
I did not
want to say good-bye.
I don't ever
get lonely
At night Jesus
rocks me to sleep
I play with
the other little angels
From cloud
to cloud we leap.
There's a new
little angel here
His mommy
is very sad
Her heart
is surely broken
And like you,
she hurts so bad.
Could you do
something for me Mommy?
If it's not
to much to ask?
You were always
so gentle and kind to me
So I know
that you are up to the task.
You see, I'm
trying to help this angel
He misses
his Mommy so
As we look
down together from Heaven
There's something
you should know.
We will soon
be all together
But there
is time to pass till then
Could you
hold her a little while
And try to
be her friend?
We don't like
to see you crying
Up here in
Angel Land
So instead
of pointing fingers
Could you
please take her hand?
It will make
us both feel better
As we look
down from up above
If you are
all holding up each other
And remembering
us with love.
~77~
~WHILE WE ARE
APART~
~Author Unknown~
Distance may
separate us but my heart will never let you go
For I carry
a part of you with me always
It keeps me
going through the day
It brings
a smile to my face and tears to my eyes
It is part
of my dreams that I live for and cherish
That part
is my wish, my only one, to see you again soon
I know that
wish will someday come true
But for now
I will hold in my heart the memory of you
And never
let you go.
~78~
~NEVER ALONE~
~Author Unknown~
Don't think
you're alone Mom, because that's not true
Most of my
time, is spent beside you.
I know how
you feel and I do understand
But I'm near
you, so near you, I could touch your hand.
Try to be
happy Mom, try to be glad
I'm always
with you, no need to be sad.
The curtain
between us is so very thin,
On this side,
there's peace and joy here within.
So when you
are low, and you're feeling down
Remember my
message, don't want a frown.
Please feel
my presence, I'm willing you to be
Content and
happy, just like me.
~79~
~I'M EVERYPLACE~
~Author Unknown~
Mom & Dad
don't mourn for me;
I'm still
here, though you don't see.
I'm right
by your side each night and day
And within
your heart I long to stay.
My body is
gone but I'm always near
I'm everything
you feel, see or hear.
My spirit
is free, but I'll never depart
As long as
you keep me alive in your heart.
I'll never
wander out of your sight,
I'm the brightest
star on a summer night.
I'll never
be beyond your reach,
I'm the warm
moist sand when you're at the beach.
I'm the colorful
leaves when fall comes around
And the pure
white snow that blankets the ground.
I'm the beautiful
flowers of which you're so fond
The clear
cool water in a quiet pond.
I'm the first
bright blossom you'll see in the spring;
The first
warm raindrop that April will bring.
I'm the first
ray of light when the sun starts to shine,
And you'll
see that the face in the moon is mine.
When you start
thinking there's no one to love you,
You can talk
to me through the Lord above you.
I'll whisper
my answer through the leaves on the trees,
And you'll
feel my presence in the soft summer breeze.
I'm the hot
salty tears that flow when you weep
And the beautiful
dreams that come when you sleep.
I'm the smile
you see on a baby's face
Just look
for me, I'm everyplace!
~80~
~WHAT MAKES
A MOTHER~
~Jennifer
Wasik~
I thought of
you and closed my eyes
And prayed
to God today
I asked what
makes a Mother
And I know
I heard Him say
A Mother has
a baby
This we know
is true
But God can
you be a Mother
When your
baby's not with you
Yes, you can
he replied
With confidence
in His voice
I give many
woman babies
When they
leave is not their choice
Some I send
for a lifetime
And others
for a day
And some I
send to feel your womb
But there's
no need to stay.
I just don't
understand this God
I want my
baby here
He took a
breath and cleared his throat
And then I
saw a tear
I wish I could
show you
What your
child is doing today
If you could
see your child smile
With other
children and say
We go to earth
and learn our lessons
Of love and
life and fear
My Mommy loved
me oh so much
I got to come
straight here.
I feel so
lucky to have a Mom
Who had so
much love for me
I learned
my lesson very quickly
My Mommy set
me free
I miss my
Mommy oh so much
But I visit
her each day
When she goes
to sleep
on her pillow's
where I lay
I stroke her
hair and kiss her cheek
And whisper
in her ear
Mommy don't
be sad today
I'm your baby
and I'm here
So you see
my dear sweet one
Your children
are ok
Your babies
are here in My home
And this is
where they'll stay
They'll wait
for you with Me
Until your
lesson is through
And on the
day that you come home
They'll be
at the gates for you
So now you
see what makes a Mother
It's the feeling
in your heart
It's the love
you had so much of
Right from
the very start
