Linda woke up when the sun looked in through the window. She slowly opened her eyes, man, she was tired. And why was it so hot? She found the answer to that one, next to her was Brian. Brian? What was he doing in her bed. Uh oh. Last night started to come back to her. She closed her eyes and sighed, what the hell had she been thinking? Sleeping with Brian. Damn, he was a married man! She got up from the bed, she tried not to wake up Brian but he woke up.

"uh hey".

Brian got up quickly. "oh my, I am so sorry. I never planned something like this. Are you okay?"

"Yeah, I'm fine. But I am sorry too. I mean, you are married, and I guess I just wasn't thinking".

Linda felt so awkward; she just had to leave the room. „I am just going to the bathroom, be right back".

Brian nodded "yeah", before he sat down on the bed again. Putting his head in his hands.
 
 

Linda closed the door to her room. "Shit, shit, I am so stupid, so damn stupid", she was talking to herself and hitting her hand against her forehead. Just then Trish came out from her room.

"What's up? You look terrible girl"

"Yeah, I know". Linda sighed.

"So, what happened last night, why did you leave?"

"I guess I got to see the real Nick Carter, the one who only is interested in one thing, he was such an ass".

"What? Did he hurt you anyway? Are you okay?"

"Yeah, yeah, I am fine, I just". She was interrupted when Brian opened the door to her room in just his boxers.

"Hey Linda! Have you seen my...". He stopped dead in his track when he saw Trish standing there.

"uh oh! Hey...... Trish right?" I am just going to go back and look some more". He quickly went into the room again before Trish had any time to answer.
 
 

Trish`s jaw dropped. "What? Holy shit girl! Did you and Brian, you know?"

Linda looked down, her cheeks were getting very red, and she just nodded.

"What were you thinking??? He is married for Gods sake!!"

„I know, I know, you don't have to yell at me. It was stupid I know. Can't we talk about it later?"

Trish saw Linda was about to cry so she left it. "Yeah, yeah, BUT we will talk girl!"

Linda was still looking down. She just turned around and went into her room again, without even looking Trish in the eyes. How could she ever look anyone in the eyes again?
 
 

In her room Brian was finished getting dressed. „I think I will go back to the hotel now. You sure you are okay?"

Linda just looked down. "Yeah, I'll be fine" , she mumbled, not sounding very convincing.

"Look me in the eyes and say it, wont you?"

Linda slowly looked up at Brian. "I'm sorry".

"Don't be. Lets just forget it happened, okay? Cant we just keep up being friends? I'll leave my phone number here and you call if its anything you wanna talk about or whatever, okay?"

"Okay". She sat down on the bed.

Brian just looked at her. Sitting there she looked so sad and vulnerable, he wanted to reach out, but after last night he thought that wouldn't be such a good idea.

„I am leaving then, bye".

"Bye"

Linda didn't even look up when he left. She just lay on the bed looking up at the ceiling. She heard the front door close. He was gone.

She spotted her Nick poster on the wall. "You! You made me do this. You made me sleep with a married man!" She stood up and walked over to the poster. How many times hadn't she stood here and looked at it, wishing she could meet him. „I knew meeting you would change my life, but I never imagined it to be like this". She took it down, and ripped it to pieces before throwing it on the floor. „I hate you, damn, I hate you". She broke down in tears.
 
 
 
 

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A couple of hours later Linda walked into the kitchen. Trish was sitting there with a cup of coffee and the newspaper. "You want some coffee?"

"Yes, please". Linda sat down.

"Wanna talk about it?"

"Not really".

"Okay, later then."

They just sat there, both quiet, Trish reading the paper. Linda just looking into her coffee cup.

"So, what did you do last night?"

"Oh, me? Nothing much. That stupid band didn't turn up again!"

"hmm, .and Howie?"

"What about him?" Trish grinned.

"You didn't? Did you?

Trish smiled and nodded.

"No way! Why didn't you say something?? How was it?"

"It was nice, he is so sweet you know".

"Yeah" Linda giggled. "Sweet D"

"Yup. Shit, look at the time, I got go, I have to get to work, gotta find another band you know".

"You're leaving? But I wanna hear about Howie".

"Later, okay, I will tell you everything later".

"Hmm, okay. Hey! How about that tongue thingie? Was that true?"

Trish just grinned. "Wouldn't you like to know?" She laughed and left the room.