Songs
Proud of you…
(ignorance is your state of mind)
For now for ever We twist we play An endless game, A heartfelt key Twisting and turning
The pins and grooves Of a system unknown… you’re something you’re something ….like me
you’re nothing you’re nothing…..like me stop and listen… to me and maybe you… you could see me
If it helps clear your mind I’m fine I’m proud of me being proud of you I’m proud of you
and our pride carries us (just go) to a new coherent level and our pride destroys us it takes you away from what you love (go away)
our pride can destroy us (say hello to me to help me breathe…. Decisions never helped me they kill me)
Your existence shit and pointless, your eyes see nothing
I’ll watch you degenerate, integrate with the filth seeking comfort chemical escape lacking substance
…contradict yourself falling in it reeking of it losing to it …. Cornered once again mind rape
strength above strength means nothing anymore in this fucking hell which you’ve created for me(a)
self destructive subculture taking the best from me fermented breath bloodshot eyes
X on my hand-social demise But when you're around I get so bored You say you hate me because I uphold
And covet what I believe you say I'm different Well you don’t know me and you never took the time
And when I look at you I see through you And when I look in you I see your chains Fuck all the bullshit
I've abstained you’ve been chained Freedom through purity reign
No control<tired>There is nothing (to see)Your lies are like teeth (in time)They grip in me Tear apart at me(inside)
Will she miss me? In time? Inside of me Inside this sick disease Devour me One more time
Eyes filled with blood I cant see Fingers bleed As I crawl One more time
Nothing For now
Tight fist and you go and you slip Into the floor Tight fist you go and I go into the floor.
This is your life, and you come back to die. This is your life, routine dries the color from your eye.
Was it yours easy? Was it? Mine explodes, this is my eye. Not yours but mine, these are mine.
Twice you go away from hear, to hear Nothing, into, something irreplaceable
Like an ear that listens to what you fear and I drive this rock like a heart into you.
Like a heart that has pumped its last drop of red rock. So now its cold and I say things.
To make it seem okay. To make everything seem okay. When you laugh at things I really mean you. Think im laughing I really mean
You can't understand what I've lost.
January 23rd
Always reaching never grasping. Realize failure once again. Walk away. From this melancholic state of mind,
different thoughts are intertwined running wild. Mass confusion forces me to think in nonsense terms as you slip away without me being aware. I couldn’t even see it cause I’m so fucking blind. Like an overcast day clouds concealed what was really there, my judgement clouded just the same nothing makes sense anymore. I cling to your image over hundred miles everyday because I still care and that’s why it hurts. Heart grows cold. When I walk down this path alone I think of the times that were spent. Were they wasted? Never. Close my eyes and think of the place where all this running in circles stops and I can finally fucking breathe. You soiled this in his bed, he wouldn’t know at least I know. And I will never forget what it felt like when you said you didn’t love me.
