What I am is what I am...
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What I am is what I am...

SHe's having..err..had a baby!

Okay, to avoid any further questions and confusion, I am DUH DUH DUH...updating this part of my page. For all you kids that keep up with me, I did actually update my poetry, but not where I am now. Anywho, for those who haven't heard yet, I'm a MOTHER. Kieran James was born Jan 26, 2000. He is now 15 months old (shut up..I've been busy) and he is great, the cutest boy in the world(not that I'm biased or anything). I'm raising him by himself because his father has decided he can't be a dad because he is married to someone else. NO he was not married while we were together but he did GET married in the 6 months between when we broke up and when i had my son. ANYWAY, I won't make you ride that bitter train with me. I have moved back to Oklahoma City and i've been working for an ISP since just before I had the baby. I actually like working here tho I do complain a lot about it. Anywho, if you want to know more about that, you are a very strange person *wink*. Anyway, I live in an awesome 2 bedroom house with a Booth in my kitchen! I love my cute little kitsche house..tho he needs some artwork on the walls. I don't really know what to say right now, other than that I just wanted to let people know I'm back in the city and not at blockbuster anymore. I AM actually interested in someone but as per usual, I'm trying not to get too attached til I know, but I'm hoping. Let me know if you have any other questions and I'll either tell you or I will answer here! Love, peace, and SOUL! *gryn* Rayne..

And it keeps going down..down...down

Well kids, it's me again..I know I know..I said I would keep this updated..SUE ME!!. Anywho..things are..things are..well I can still sit upright so I suppose things are alright. New car is fine..(99 Chevy Cavalier black 2 door coupe for those who missed that)..New apartment is fine (well cept it needs to be cleaned, new job is fine (tho I'll probably have to quit ballbuster for it). Me..I am blah. That's the perfect word for it. Not enough to get me angry or depressed AGAIN. Not enough to get me happy and bouncy. Just BLAH. I can't take it anymore. Is there no excitement left in this world. No one is doing anything new..everyone is whining about the stuff they whined about last year..and they seem to think I should CHEER for them. What am I supposed to do..pat the masses on the back for NOT pulling their heads out of the sand. i suppose that would be different from the norm at least. I can't even find any merry distractions..I should know better..thinking that these passionate seconds would nothin to satisfy my need. Hell, I don't even have seconds anymore. Just my blah. And boys I meet not calling me back. And ex's still wearing my rings. Oh yes..LIFE IS GRAND children. Can anyone of you help this poor, dried up Rayne? Anyone...anyone...buellller...

Who needs sleep..no you're never gonna get it

Well my children...another late night..and it REALLy wasn't my fault this time. Damn people loving my company..can't they just go home?? I have a Latin test today so I will probably study again soon..mebbe. Just wanted to update this so people would know I yet live. WOrk is driving me batty as I have my first opening shift alone tomorrow. I hope I don't pass out at my register. Anti-Valentine's day was a muddle this year but it was recovered by my friends who got me eeyore stuff (thanks guys). The boyfriend seems to be lost under a computer somewhere but I'll wait...as if I have anything more pressing to do. The thing is..when does being patient turn into being pathetic..anyone know the line? Oh well, life can only go up from here. Funny how I keep hitting these low points. More to come...me.

Get theee to a nunnery...or not

Well my loyal followers..I am updating this for you. News new news from the world of Rayne. Some lost soldier wandered into my life and saved me from the nunhood. I know he reads this a lot so SURPRISE darling I am updating just for you. His name is James and he is an amazing person altogether *scottish accent*. I don't know which star actually listened to my wishes for once but BOY did they deliver. Life is treating me nicely in '99. Speaking of..HAPPY NEW YEAR yah wee bastards. Some of you are still behind on the birthday presents but I shalt not be bitter. As James says, I need to learn patience. About to start school again..last semester again..won't do the speal again. Anywho..graduation is in May and you are all invited..well except you with the stench..you know who you are. HUGE party to follow in my tiny loft. Be ready for the 4 flights of stairs. Other than falling in love and haveing a nervous breakdown during the holidays (not necessarily in that order)..I have been spending well over 40 hours a week at Ballbuster. Let me tell you..working as an assistant to the man is even MORE stressful. It will all pay off when they start paying me off. Maybe I should look into black mail or something (just kidding). New poetry to come..I promise. Who has time to sit here and type it all out. I need a secretary for that business. Hopefully a pooter is forth coming and I can do all this business at home. Who knows..I might finish the links *snicker*. I should fly off now..have to be at work in an hour and guess what..I haven't slept. Take care all..and look for more steady updates. Same bat time..same bat channel.. Cheers from Xanadu and the hill people and to the new King.

*msg from the management* All other applications have been burned to a crisp in a mass bonfire which the owner of this page did not start*msg from the management*

Hurm..what the hell am I still doing in OKLAFRIGGINHOMA???

Okay..here I am again...still here..still waiting. Who knows if I am still going to Seattle? I sure as hell don't. Screw the states..I'm going to Disneyland..oh wait..I am going to En-ga-lind. I am going to get me a nice Brit boy and show him that American women know how to make men scream. Well okay, maybe I'll just make him raise his voice..well hopefully he will at least make some kind of noise. Still working for the man at Ballbuster waiting for something to fall on my head. Oh well, money in the hand is better than money in the..hmm..money in someone else's hand. There..that's that. Finally heard from the old jerk..6 months later to tell me he was doing me a favor. Boys, really now, let's be more inventive. Say you lost your spleen or something..don't do me any favors!! Still waiting for the new set of applications for king of the hill people. Any takes, anyone...anyone.. Bueller?? Come on..don't make a grown woman cry. Speaking of..my birthday was 3 days ago..December 10th for those of you who can't do that quick math. You ALL know where to send presents. I will start returning your emails again when I start getting packages *gryn*.

Is that enough bs for now..I hope so..catch you on the flip side

WOOHOO ..3 MONTHS TIL SEATTLE!!!

Okay..for those of you who actually come here on a somewhat consistant basis..i am going to update this damn thing so people will stop asking me to :P What's going on with me now? WELL, I am still working at Ballbuster..err Blockbuster. Guess what kids, I sold the most copies of Titanic in our store so I won a tv..with no vcr..tell me how much sense THAT makes.

WOOHOO..I am updating this!!

You know..i think I am becoming more Rayne and less Marshia everyday. Still 22...still an English Major..still sitting on my rump..but AHHA..I have a job now. Say hello to the newest CSR at Blockbuster Video. Don't worry for all of you that know me..I am still going to be working a bit at the Mystic Forest but I finally found a job with a consistent paycheck *throws confetti* I still live in Norman, Oklahoma BUT I moved into a great house about a month ago. I love the place, it's HUGE. All hard wood floors, an actual dining room that isn't part of the den, and of course Rayne's Asylum which is all mine. It's really like living in a tree house. All I need to do now is decorate the ceiling of my bedroom and put up some xmas lights *gryn*. Fortunately I only have 6 classes left and I have my degree...and a ticket out of this state. Oklahoma isn't so bad depending on your interests and mine happen to lie across the sea.

Don't get me wrong even tho my head IS always in a book...I am by no means a "nerd". During the day light hours I would classify myself as some sort of misplaced hippy/nature girl person. When it's warm, I love laying in the grass and listening to it grow(yes you can really hear it). Walking barefoot, sitting on my roof with my handy camel cigarette and a book, sitting by the duck pond and contemplating the water...these are a few of my favorite things. Sorry about the Sound of Music moment.

At night however, well that is just a different story. It seems most people around town think me to be a vampire. I haven't tasted anyone's blood in the last few hours but who knows what might happen before I go to sleep *gryn*. I am a child of the moon, it seems to be the only thing constant in my life. I love looking up in the stars and I still do my nightly ritual of wishing on the first one I see, call me nutty if you must. I do like to wear black sometimes but it is by no means a daily habit. I just get in a mood and I have to put on my Death shirt and well, harass people in the street. Things are just more beatiful at night, the contrast of black and white...and all the grays inbetween. I adore it.

Interests: Well if that little intro didn't say enough, you are awfully nosey...just kidding. Music, since I play 4 instruments myself, is very close to my heart. I have ecclectic tastes ranging from Tori Amos to Beethoven. The only genres I haven't takin a liking to yet are country and rap. Sue me. I am also in love with words, yes I meant that. I think my favorite poets are Coleridge, Blake, Neruda, and Charles Bukowski. Literature wise my favorite is Richard Bach, he writes about my life. You can find more about my Literature side in the link from my main page. What else? I love art, black and white photography being the closest to my heart. I still miss my old Pentax K-100, to whoever has it, I hope you are enjoying it. Other than the big ones, I love rainy days, full moon nights, and the man of my dreams...whoever he is.

Disinterests: I don't really dislike many things, but I do have a few items on my list that turn me off rather quickly. People who blind themselves purposly from reality, I don't get those people. You can only hide behind walls for so long before they all fall down, and it's usually on top of you. Hmm..oh yes, religious fanatics. Really now, is there any reason why you need to chase my down the sidewalk asking me if I have found Jesus at 9am..honestly I didn't know he was lost. People who pick their nose while they are driving, you ALL know we can see you so be kind. People who dont' read...I think that's a biggy. I don't think the earth could keep spining without words. Lastly, people that hurt, unless it is mutual and in bed, I don't think pain is really necessary, the truth is ALWAYS easier in the end. Take my word for it.

Hobbies: Most of my free time (I have free time?) is spent reading books that my professors haven't thrown at me, writing poetry when a muse chooses to inspire my, listening for the one love song that might surpass "In Your Eyes", playing my piano to work off stress, playing on IRC...I am on EfNet under Rayne^, drop me a message if you so desire, I am usually sitting in #Oklahoma if I am on since I am an OP. Hmm..I am also still looking for the perfect coffee shop but I haven't been successful yet. As far as my "religion" is concerned, just call me ecclectic religious. I used to be a faithful catholic but college just knocked that out of me. I still hold on to some of the morals of christianity, but I think I have become more pagan in my old age. I also follow a bit of Zen (including my Zen tarot), a bit of Tao, and once in a while I am even existential...who knew? I suppose that's enough for now.

Future Plans: After I get my degree in December I am planning a trip to Europe with my friend Kat. We are hoping to stay for atleast 6 months but we aren't sure if we can pull that off. You can email me for where to send donations *wink*. After that...well right now that is oblivion. I have no idea where I am going and I am starting to lose track of where I have been. Hopefully I will end up somewhere in the middle and it WILL NOT be in Oklahoma. No, I am not bitter. Oh, I will of course still be taking applications for Mr. Rayne. *update*I found a Mr. Rayne but he put me on layway so I took myself off his shelf. What should I do loyal Rayne fans, the convent or another search? Maybe I'll start an email poll!

I hope that is enough to satisfy you right now. If it isn't, I just don't know what to tell you. Email me and I might actually get back to you. Feel free to peruse the rest of my page and tell me what you think. I will try my best to email promptly.

Be well and all that..
Rayne