If wishes were horses beggars would ride,
That's an old adage that never has died.

It seems that wishes are dreams in our hearts,
And it is dreams that set us apart.

For where would we be if dreams didn't exist,
Think of all the happiness dreamers would miss.

So I'll take the wishes, dreams and happiness combine,
And I'll be a dreamer until the end of my time.

For it is dreamers who make wishes come true,
And I am a dreamer who wishes happiness for you.

And the wishes and dreams I have for mankind,
Will always be, my state of mind.

So my prayer to God, is set me apart,
And keep dreams and wishes here in my heart.

And the happiness this brings will live after I'm gone,
It will be the legecy, I leave everyone.

Friends? Many friends and family we have lost, it isn't easy to know that someone is sick or dying and there isn't anything that you can do for them ~ except to be there for that person. How do we get through this period? First don't think of yourself, think of that person first. Don't feel sorry or pity them ~ for most people that is the last thing that they would want. They want you to treat them as normally as possible under the circumstances, all they want from you is the love, caring and understanding that you have shown them in the past. Be there and listen to their needs, wants, wishes, hopes and dreams. Just a simple gesture like a kiss, holding their hand, a hug, a wink or even singing a song or playing music for them can mean so much to that person.

I have a friend who is suffering from pain in her back. They told her by the age of 35 that the doctors predict she would be in a wheelchair. She continues on and makes the best of her situation and continues to be there for other people. She will help anyone at any time and not complain even when I know that she is suffering greatly from her pain. Circumstances took us apart from each other for a little while, God and OUR ANGELS brought us back together and now our relationship is stronger than ever. I come from a large family, however, Pam and I are closer than I am to any of my sisters or brothers. We have been through so much together ~ we both lost a daughter and can understand what each other is going through. All I can say is I love you Sis and will never let you go again. You are one in a million, no make that a trillion sis...lol.

I have another friend now is ill ~ her kidneys are damaged ~ the doctor is hoping to jump start them, however, if that doesn't happen I am praying that she can have a kidney transplant. God brought us together for a reason as he does everyone, and I am hoping and praying that if she needs a transplant that one of my kidneys will be of use to her. I owe her a lot, she was there for me when others gave up and didn't believe in me anymore. She stood by me through thick and thin. She is about to give up and that I cannot let her do now or ever. She has finally found the person of her dreams and that is very special ~ they are truly meant for each other. God brings each one of us together for a reason ~ and theirs is a very special reason. I am hoping to make it to their wedding ~ when is it again sis? Jo and Brian were meant for each other and with the greatness of God they will spend many, many years together. I love you both very much Jo and Brian and wish you only happiness and a very longgggggggggggg life together.

I have another friend that I met on the internet and he had cancer. Right now he is doing fine except for the pains that he still gets, unless he hasn't told me everything. He has two very fine young children and it hurts me greatly whenever I talk to him and know that he is in pain and there isn't anything I can do for him except be there for him to talk to. He is very special to me and I hope and pray that he continues to get well. I know OUR ANGELS are with him everyday giving him a helping hand.

I have another friend whom I have known before I even got on the internet. She had a miscarriage and things right now are strained between us. I am not sure what has happened, I have tried to be there for her for her to talk to, but she has changed. I don't even think she realizes how much she has changed, but my prayers are with her and I know OUR ANGELS are trying to help her through this period of time in her life. It hurts me to see what has happened to her, but with God's help I am praying that she will become her old self again. I miss her very much and want the person back that I once knew. You know who you are ~ just come back to us...k?

I met another person on the internet whom I love very much. I grieve every day for our relationship because I didn't learn how to trust until it was too late. I am hoping that things will work out, but I also have enough faith in God that no matter what he chooses to do in this situation it will be the right one. He was there for me when my dad was sick and then when my dad passed away. Without him and my grandson during this time I don't think that I would have made it. He knew how much my dad meant to me and still does and for his understanding and strength in just talking to him I want to say ~ thank you. It isn't easy to accept what you don't want to hear or know, but hopefully with the grace of God I will get through this period if that is what it was meant to be. No, I know that I will get through this period because all I want for this person ~ is for him to be happy ~ that would be the greatest gift that I could receive. He will always have my heart, because he brought so much happiness into my life, but if he can find the person that will truly make his life complete ~ then that is what I wish for him.

Grief? Yes, I am never without it every day in my life. I grieve for my friends because I can't always be there to help them or take their pain away and I also grieve for the love that hopefully I didn't lose, but may have.

I have learned that you need to fight for what you believe in and know that God will hear your prayers. Right now I am crying and praying so hard for my "special" friends and I am praying that OUR ANGELS along with God is listening to me and will answer my prayers.

Yes, it hurts and it hurts bad when you know that there is the possibility that maybe nothing can be done to help someone you love, but I also know that you need to continue the fight. I have met some very valuable friends on the internet and I don't want to lose any of them. Some of them are grieving in their own way ~ nearly everyone grieves on a daily basis and if I can help them in anyway I want to, even if it is just to listen to them. Just lending an ear in their time of need is what most people would like for someone to do. Yes this internet is a funny thing at times, however, with God's help and the understanding that I am receiving from Him, I pray things will work out as they should. If I can help just one person, then I will be very happy. If I can make a difference in someone's life ~ that would be FANTABULOUS and bring me great joy. On the internet you get to know the person who is on the inside ~ just as you should in real life situations ~ you should read the book from the inside out and not judge it by its cover. As a matter of fact you shouldn't judge at all, but I am not here to preach about judging ~ to me there is only one person who is judge and jury and He isn't here on earth.

I am not perfect nor even claiming to be close to perfect ~ far from it folks ~ but I do know the difference between right and wrong and if there is something that I feel is worth fighting for I will ~ I must. I will not give up and this is one thing that I truly believe is worth fighting for ~ a life. Yes, this is a grief that I am going through right now, but it is also my faith in God that He can hear and answer prayers ~ they may not be what we would want to hear, but I do know that He does answer prayers. Dear God in Heaven, please help heal my friends. Please let them be healed ~ their work on earth is not yet done ~ they have so many things that they can teach us all ~ just like Jenny taught me how to love ~ unconditionally. Dad taught me to give freely of myself and to help other people, I am trying to live up to his expectations of me. I know I have taken a few steps back in that regard, but now I am hoping that I can follow in his footsteps and I know that he gives me a nudge every now and then to keep me going forward and not fall back. Dad you were #1 when you were with us and you will always be the #1 dad any girl (at least this girl) could ever have ~ thank you for being there when I needed someone to talk to and thank you for all the times that you listened. You are missed greatly, but I know one day that we will be together again. I love you Dad and I love you too Jenny.

I hope I remember to thank God every day,
For every good deed and smile directed my way,

I want to thank Him for each kind word spoken to me,
And always recognize the good that I see,

Sometimes, we grow bitter and only see gloom,
Then we become bitter bearers of doom,

But, keep satan out, and God in your heart,
See the good in the world, and know your part,

For each has a purpose and for each life there's a plan,
And, by thanking God, see the good in our fellowman,

We'll see all the beauty that God does control,
The universe and what's in it and each human soul.