Just When You CAN Go On......

July 13, 1999

You know recently I realized my life could go on without my ex in it. We had officially been broken up for about 7 months. Now don’t get me wrong I didn’t sit at home and mope for those 7 months. I went out I had great times, but deep down I still missed him. I used to talk about him at least once a day, lately I haven’t at all. Then like magic I hear from him again. He says nothing about getting back together, and I don’t even expect him to. It’s just that now I remember again what it is like to talk to him, to know he is ok. To have hope maybe we will meet again. And that kills me. I try not to get my hopes up and just realize this for what it is. Him and I being friends.....going on with our lives with minimal contact. But then again that is better then not talking to him for the past 6 months like I have. All I am saying is that just when I realized I could go on, not forget but let it go, I remember because I hear from him. And no I wouldn’t give up this newfound friendship of ours for the world. I just miss him, I miss his voice. I miss this silly impression he used to do of Bobby from Bobby’s World for me, I miss it all. Just when I thought I could go on..........he is back.