I WANT...

I want to be happy. I want to take my time and not rush through life anymore. I want to enjoy the little things in life. I want to live by the ocean. I want to not think. I want to laugh....all the time. I want to cry...and have it be okay to do so. I want to be understood....and understand. I want to love my job...and be appreciated for what I do. I want to be the teacher that every child knows, loves, and remembers as the one teacher that made a difference in his/her life. I want for there to be no pain, hurt, anger, frustration, or disappointment in the world. I want to know my future...in advance so I can plan for it. I want to know that I will always be able to give love...and get it back in return. I want to know that everything is going to be okay. Someday, I want to meet President Clinton, Rosie O'Donnell, Oprah Winfrey, Jim Thome, Omar Vizquel,and Mark McGwire to name a few. I want to be a rebel for once--instead of the perfect lil angel.....I want to dye my hair funky colors, get a tatoo, misbehave, cause a ruckus, get weird piercings, tell some people what I really think-instead of being so nice.....you know...all the stuff your mom would cringe over.

I WISH.....

I wish that I had never hurt anyone in my life and that I would never again hurt anyone in my life. I wish I were a little girl again without a care in the world. I wish there were parts of my life that I could relive. I wish I could call up my old best friend and tell her I have missed her.......and have her care. I wish I could talk to Mom and Kevin again and have her spread her wisdom throughout my life. Sometimes, I wish I wasn't so guarded, cautious, and skeptical of other people. Sometimes, I wish I were not so shy...and other times, I wish I were not so outgoing. I wish, as a teacher, I knew if I were making a difference in the life of a child. Sometimes I wish I had more confidence in myself. I wish I could sit on the beach everyday and hear the waves, feel the wind, play in the sand, watch the sunrise and set, and then look at the stars. I wish I could be closer to my family....or at least see them more often. I wish I could dream all day and have it come true. But mainly............I wish I had all the answers.