Straight up, what did you hope to learn about here
If I were someone else, would this all fall apart
Strange, where were you, when we started this gig,
I wish the real world, would just stop hassling me
Straight up, what did you hope to learn about here
If I were someone else, would this all fall apart
Strange, where were you, when we started this gig,
I wish the real world, would just stop hassling me
[february 2, 2000]
aight, my peeps. after this got neglected for so long, i decided that i should start writing in it again sometime this millenium. and why not today i asked myself. so here we are. there's not a whole lot for me to go off about these days, i go to class, sit on my cheetah couch and sleep. that's what i do man. in any case, i spend mucho quality time with my roommates and my boyfriend. speaking of my boyfriend, he let me fix his hair how i wanted it...finally after i begged to forever. so sunday night after the superbowl (tennessee got robbed by the way), he let my roommate highlight it, and then i spiked it for him. he's well on his way to good guy hair. his roommates teased him though and said i was trying to make him into a boyband pretty boy. retards. in order to be a boyband you have to have much more than good hair. you also have to have earth shattering pelvic thrusts, a sexy laugh used before running thru a warehouse, and bad outfits. duh. don't they know these things? guess not. speaking of my boyfriend and boybands, i have got him singing bye bye bye on occasion, and he even watches their performances with me (just cuz he knows it makes me happy), however...he decided to go against my good judgement and choose a favorite that i do not approve of. you guessed it. FAT one. yes, i'm talking bout joey...not the cute fatone who runs the cameras (ahem..stever), but the large one that crunks into the wall during the bye bye bye video (which by the way is my boyfriend's "favorite part"...*gag*), and waddles around with his pants down. good lord, what kind of person do you think i am? yes i fixed his hair, but i cannot rewire his obviously retarded mentality on boyband favorites. lol. anyhow that's it. peace.
[march 21, 2000]
Life's a Biatch . That's all.
[july 4, 2000]
aight, i decided to finally start writing in here after needing to vent almost as much as stever needs a piece of ASS. lmao. anyways, can i just say that i'm normally a pretty tolerant person. well at least to people's faces. hehe. here's the sitch. work has been a big bitch lately, bein all busy and shit and i'm totally stressed out for no reason at all. so i arrive at work monday afternoon and we're SO busy. then travis, the hottie i work with, is being a bitchy old woman. i say something with just a hint of annoyance in my voice and he gets all pissy and won't talk to me!! how rude! but anyhoo, i figure whatever right? then he walks by and mumbles about how he's just going to quit. so i turn around and say, "well why don't you then? cuz frankly i'm really sick of hearing about it every single time you work." he just looked at me open mouthed, and didn't say anything else. one thing you people must understand is that he's just one of those whiners. he bitches bout the DUMBEST things and then expects sympathy when any normal functioning human being with half a brain can see that all he has to do is either change things or suck it up and deal with it and stop the complaining and the feel sorry for me mentality cuz it gets you NO WHERE. plus then people get annoyed with your bad attitude and don't want to be around you, which makes you even more of a sour ass cranky old biznitch. but i digress.
anyhow i'm waiting to hear from my ex boyfriend about whether he wants to accept the invitation i extended him at the prodding of my family for a party we're having this weekend. i doubt he'll come but maybe he will...who knows. sometimes i really miss that guy...but then again sometimes i don't. lol. speaking of...i think that everything with my great gran dying and my boyfriend breaking up with me is finally getting to me. i have an awful habit of not dealing with situations when they occur, but kinda pushing them out of my head and moving on. well, unfortunately for me, those things have a way of catching up with you even when you keep your mind occupied with work or what have you, and that's not always cool. cuz then you tend to get super stressed and that's no fun either. word of advice? always deal with things the best you can at the time they are prevelant because if you don't, you very possibly will end up a bitter old piece of shit like stever. anyways it's been fun, sorry i'm boring. peace.
[july 7, 2000]
i love the show 'making the band'. yes i am an idiot, and frankly i don't care. jacob is the biggest cutie EVER. i just think he's a doll. plus he kind of reminds me of a less famous justin timberlake, you know, kinda all cute and stuff...the way i imagine justin to have been back in the day before he got a big head and even bigger hair. yup. he's a cutie. but anyways i was watching tonight and that ikeika dude (i forget his name but oh well)..his brother gave him some good advice. i guess he wasn't happy there, and his bro said, "happiness comes from within. places, jobs, people, etc...don't make you happy." so i figured that was a good piece of advice, and sat and reflected on it just a little. then i was like, yep, good advice. cuz that's really the truth. i hated school, so i'm not going back to that particular college. that decision helped to make me slightly happier. then my boyfriend and i broke up. that really sucked. but...i've learned that he wasn't the person that made me happy. even not being in school and being home doesn't make me happy. so like that guy said, it's not location, it's not the people in your life...it has to come from within. i bet ya'll are like huh? lol. i ramble and tend to not make much sense. but it's the truth. happiness is something that comes from a sort of inner peace with yourself. now if i could only find that. lol. i honestly must say though, after making the decision to rid myself of something i hated (the college i was at), and removing myself from the situation, i loved life a lot more. and although i miss my ex, i feel really ...free right now without him. cuz frankly the last few weeks of our relationship SUCKED. so i guess with the exception of the stress that i have because of my job (it's a high stress job some days lol), and figuring out what i want to do in the fall school-wise...i'm a pretty content person right now. anyways i just thought i'd share, i know i probably made absolutely no sense at all. lol.
but yeah, making the band is good. i think it's the whole wanting to find out if they actually make it or just end up being huge screw ups...so of course i have to tune in next week. lmao. maybe it's the reality based tv thing cuz real world and road rules are like my fave two shows, and like the only tv i used to watch besides trl. but i'm not into survivor. i don't wanna watch people on an island eat rats, sorry. but that big brother show looks rather interesting...might have to check that out. anyways sorry for rambling but guess what, it's my page and i can if i want. lol. peace.
I hate the REAL World! Get me outta here!