girlhomecutcash: Hi Tiara. Great quote lol. I'm alan. Ever thought of shaving your head before? I pay cash upfront to models to get it shaved on vid. $500 upfront. It grows back and it is a great experience. Will come to you for your haircut. You keep the hair
girlhomecutcash: takes about 30 minutes of your time Tiara
tiara665: hey dumbass i'm not a model
girlhomecutcash: don't need to be a model. Just someone who would care to try it for the cash. The vid is only from the shoulders up and you would be wearing a hair cape as well over your clothes
tiara665: you are the biggest retard ever
tiara665: and it doesn't take 30 minutes to shave fucking head
tiara665: my sister shaved hers within 15
girlhomecutcash: our vids take about that, with a brief before and after haircut interview
girlhomecutcash: you would also be taken through a few different clipper styles and then shaved as well. tht is why it takes a bit longer
tiara665: i have better things to do with my time and you need to think of better things to do with your money now fuck off
girlhomecutcash: thanks for your time
tiara665: your not welcome
I want to kill your Monkey looking fucking kid!
Ding Dong the bitch is... well she isn't gone but fuck I don't have to deal with her! The bitch who was one of my boss's is no longer! Well she didn't get fired but she got demoted, as long as she's not trying to get my ass fired anymore I could care less what happens to her. Karma is a bitch!
Well it's 2:20 am and as I'm reflecting over how my day went rage consums me. This child may not make it to see the age of 5. I've never seen such a creature who had desregard to rules! Thank You and Good Night
Latest Update: I'm officially moved! woohoo! for those of you who were lucky enough to not hear me complain I moved because my roomates dead beat boyfriend moved in and wouldn't pay any rent and pay any bills so long story short I moved in with my best friend Jenny and her annoying 4 year old =oD Off to work.
I look like shit because i got off of work and went straight to x-mas.. yeah work sucks
All I want is ONE day off.. just one and not have to do 3 12 hour shifts to get it! I really hate my job, no actually I like my job. I just can't stand my boss and my employee! Now if there is only two of us working in my store and something comes up missing in a lock box don't you think they'd go "hmm.. I think she'd notice if I stole this" fucking dumbass. I need a new job.
OH MY FRIEKEN GAWD! okay well i had to let one of my employees go, my first fire as a manager, because he negleted to open my store a few weeks ago. Lately hes been hanging out in my store while i'm not there for hours.... so he can't manage to show up when hes saposed to but when hes not saposed to be there hes there, you can see how this is annoying me. So tonight I was in the mall to pick up some one to look at my Impala that he wants to buy and i stopped by my store, guess who was there?! yup... the x-employee was. So I decided it's time to put a stop to this and i pulled him aside and politely asked him to not hang out my store all day, i didn't mind him dropping by and saying hey and shopping but not to be there all day. he gets PISSED and starts getting in my face saying i can't tell him where he can hang out at and where he can blah blah blah blah, i state again that i do not want him in my store all day. after more arguing he tells me i'm fat, he almost gets in a fight with my bf and i leave. friday the 13 sucks
The Breast Plate thing may be true, but that does not mean they will ever show the hell up when they say. Song of the night: Goldfinger- My Head
My birthday is monday (memorial day) lets see how many of you jerks forget it this year!
Day After my Birthday: well most of you forgot but it is still an improvement from last year.... Jerks.
This is why my life sucks and why I make references to a roller coaster when talking about it just less fun. Well I got my new messy, un-organized, hell hole of a store. oh and not only is it a hell hole of a store it's in the Ghetto Mall! oh yes the ghetto mall why is it a ghetto mall you say? well I'll tell you! not only is it basically empty but one of the biggest stores in there is Good Will. Any who moving on. My first day at the store it's so gross i'm in shock, that irresponsible bastard (the old manager) did NOTHING. So one of my employees came in that night at 4:30 and told me he didn't want to work here anymore.. ok thats fine. the next day was a 12 hour day and I got to meet the old managers "cousin" who works there also my computer was broke so i had to call the computer people and have them help me fix it while trying to get this she tells me she doesn't want to work here anymore. WELL WHY THE FUCK DID YOU EVEN BOTHER COMING IN, WE DO HAVE A PHONE! Later on that day I get a phone call from the person who was saposed to be my 3rd employee, guess what he told me? you guessed it! he doesn't want to work here anymore. So the Cheese stands alone. I am the one and only employee. so in 3 days i did 54.5 hours. Week 2 rolls around and i hire an employee and i borrow one from another store but still working 61.5 hours that week. week 3 Thursday: i get my check- and it went to the old store i worked at...... so i had my mom pick it up and made her check how much i was making an hour because if it went to the store i used to be working at i wondered if i'm getting paid the same.. my check was waaaaaaay short i put in 130 hours in 2 weeks i find out that i'm not getting paid the correct amount. oOf things they decide to fuck with me about they fuck with my rate of pay.. fuck you sons of bitches. well now today comes.. i'm finally down to 40 hours a week so far the most i put in was 65.5 hours and today is my first day off since January 28th, and i have to get up at 8 mother fucking am to call people about my check because payroll didn't seem to think that it was important to call me back. I call who my boss told me to and they were no help and sent me to yet another voice mail i think i went through about 4 voice mails today and none of them called me back. if my next check will be fucked up too... HEADS WILL ROLL! U can call me Queen of hearts because I'm going to have some ones head.
Well where do I begin... yeah it's one of those days. Ok I think I'm now known as Manager Amanda. oh fricken joy actually I am happy about it but no one else really is. mom sneered while saying congradulations I would of just rather she not say anything most of my friends that know which is only 2 or 3 give me reasons why it's not a good thing. Like I didn't already think about all that, no the most paranoid person you know didn't have all this and more go through her head but thank you anyways. A few other people that I don't feel like naming have been ignoring me. Thank you for that also. So back to the manager thing. The store I'll be working at is 40 minutes away which sucks in the winter and from what I've been told I'll either have no employees or employees that won't cooperate with me I'm not sure which one I would prefer of the two. Well it's time to get ready for work maybe I'll bitch more later when I get home.
I hurt everything I get close to.. I'm sorry..
well all of you assholes out there that made my week worse than what it had to be: FUCK YOU! and if I've snapped at you for no good reason - you probably deserved it just because your annoying son of a bitch! and good god i wanna get drunk and i have no alcohol - maybe tomorrow night. Well it's 10pm and i had to stay a half hour late after work because the computer acted up: which i won't get paid for those extra 30 minutes! Oh! and the place where i work I had an interview a while ago for a management position in another town but didn't get it and they don't like the guy they hired and so they asked me if he doesn't work out of i'd still be interested: well sure! that was a few weeks ago: today my manager had a phone call from another store and i heard her say something about the new guy at our store got interviewed for the job but he didn't want it and then she walked away so i couldn't hear the rest of the convo I LOVE YOU PPL TALKING BEHIND MY BACK! ugh. All of you can kiss my skinny white ass. I don't give a fuck anymore.
Axel: 6 words Axel: too much time on your hands Tiara: lol Tiara: yeah Axel: gawddamn
C: i always thought batman was cool
Tiara batman is still cool
Tiara: wanna know why batman is cool?
C: yeah
Tiara: hes not some super power freak... he wasn't bittin by a spider so has all these spider powers... hes not from another planet hes just a regular guy *other than the fact that hes really fucking rich*
Tiara: rich guy with issues
C: yeah and he is really pissed off at bad guys for good reason
Tiara: thats why batman is best.. he doesn't have to be how he is.. he chooses to be that way
Tiara: and what pisses me off about superman.. how could ppl not see that clark kent and superman are the same guy?!
C: clark kent acts gay thats how
Tiara: thats like sayin.. okay i'm going to take off my glasses.. put on a stupid outfit do something different from my hair and NO ONE will notice
C: you have many different looks
Tiara: yes but if i go outside.. ppl will go "oh hi mandy, whats with the stupid outfit?"
soo boring latest update: my cousin got married saturday i thought he was going to hurl or pass out *i had my camera ready just incase* =oD waaay to stressful! if I'm ever dumb enough to get married I'm running away! otherwise i'd throwing my shoes at ppl ripping off my veil and saying F*CK U ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! while i'm storming out of the building. Yes i know, i have issues!
a few drinks later....
you know what i hate? those damn fwds u get on messenger "if u don't forward you'll have to pay" or "you'll lose your account" "you'll get this or that" ugh ppl.. YOUR MORONS! i hate the e-mails even more BILL GATES IS NEVER GOING TO PAY YOU!!!!!!!!!! AND THERES NO WAY TO TRACE E-MAILS LIKE THAT! you would think they would of learned this years ago from ICQ. Another thing thats been bothering me: we're taking the reality tv shows entirely too far.. today i seen a commercial where they have i think 7? 'sexy single' strangers and if they don't get laid in a week.. they get kicked off and bring new 'sexy single' ppl to replace them.. now we're forcing ppl to be sluts and sleep with total strangers within a week? and have America watch! WOW this is the sort of thing i expect to find on a porn chan not Fox but hey. hey while i'm bitching i might as well throw this in this is gettign on my last nerve - the ppl who decide to stop talking to me because i decide to be with some one whos not over 100 miles away. normally i don't care and i'd say "fuck em" but these ppl i've been talking to FOREVER but i guess i'll still say FUCK EM! I'm done putting effort into just trying to make simple conversation when it never works. i'm sure peoples getting tired of hearing me bitch about these few individuals. why am i so bitchy today? because i havn't seen my 'Mistah J' *harley quinn quote* in 3 fricken weeks and lately hes been the only one whos been capable of calming my happy ass down. not to mention i havn't been able to sleep worth a damn the past 3 weeks.. *grumble* hes such an ass! ah i forgot to share my odd ass computer dream.. two ppl that mean the world to me (one of them my bf and the other a really good friend) were coming over to my moms to hang out - mom was having some sort of get together- and as usual i was avoiding the crowd so i was down by the lake.. but get this i took the fucking computer down to the lake with me, no NOT laptop the whole damn computer this is making me think i have major issues with my computer, ya think?! now how i carried a modem, keyboard, mouse and 19 inch screen down to the lake i don't know.. but i had the net there.. cuz i remember i had to check to see if anyone msgd me.. wow i just got up to get something out of my car and my car is gone.. well it's a good thing i didn't want to go anywhere!xtctiara: WHY is bruce willis the voice for spike on rugrats.. Josh: lol I dunno xtctiara: and the shit spike says i would of never thought that was what spike would say xtctiara: don't they have enough rugrat movies? Josh: yeah I know. I'M FUCKING LOSING IT! earlier i was bitching about my gifs and images i have on this computer that are useless and odd: ie a gif of a woman frying a chicken head, a toe tag, exploding eyeball (used on one of my quotes below)that damn disney thing i have above.. i could go on and on and on and on but i won't.. *your welcome* now i'm going to go again and finish my beer and either write some more or go to bed. I hate you all!
Oh yes i'm back again! The people from the way have been bothering me *grumble* if your not familiar with The Way it's a religiouse cult in New Knoxville, Ohio they've been bugging me since 99/00 when i worked at the video store and they get pissy when u call it a cult and attempt to disagree: okay, i live in your "comunity" where i call everyone 'brother' and 'sister' i work for u and u own all of my belongings.. how is this not a cult? These ppl creep me out and they don't understand the terms "go away" "stop bothering me" "no, i'm not joining" "no, i'm not going to visit" if i wanted to be in a cult i'd have one of my own =oD
HAPPY FUCKING BIRTHDAY TO ME!
okay i guess i'll give the latest update: i got my Impala back last week, had a flat tire already, jons mad at me (as usual) Axel is disapointed in me and josh..well.. hm.. we'll not bring that up haha been a hectic/busy past couple weeks with working 2 jobs but i'm enjoying it. thats all for now
I'm feeling very Torn lately: there are 3 ppl that are constantly on my mind and right now my hell would be stuck in a room alone with the 3 of them and there being no escape I'm not sure what i want I'm not really stressing over it because I don't want any kind of commitment at the moment though, they know tthis but just really don't care one informed me that I'm being selfish.. well maybe I am but forcing me into a relationship isn't going to get them anywhere.
im durnk pissed and i trust no one. fuck u and have a nice day
You should sometimes think on how our actions affect others. You may not care that your hurting yourself but theres others out there that do care. At one point I told you I could never be pissed at you- well I was wrong! Why am i pissed? because you not only decided to end something that is no where near done.. you chose to have me fucking watch! now why on earth would i want to watch one of my closest friends do this to themselves?!?! So after I couldn't take it anymore I attempted to sleep.. trust me it didn't work out well.. and hoping that if you were okay you would let me know some how.. so I sat there for about an hour debating if I should call because I was afraid of what I'd find.. luckily everything was okay.. But i promise you this: if you pull this shit again and put me through this.. if you end up "making it" not to worry i'll kill you myself
I hate relationships I think I've spent most of my life avoiding commitment because it just sucks! the only things that come out of commitments are Lies, mistrust, fights, and pain- oh yay! where do i sign up!! and I think that my fucked up views on relationships ends up hurting those that for some god awful reason wants one with me. Commitment scares the hell out of me.. expecially when it's one of those commitments where they decide "your the one" and start talking about the M word on a few rare occasions it didn't bother me but like i said Commitment scares the hell out of me and I fucked up a good thing: at the moment i'm listening to Frank Sinatra *don't ask.. please* "I won't dance" and on a screwy level I think I relate to that song. Maybe I'll regret this all later in life or maybe I won't but I will get over it and move on like a good friend told me in one of his Drunken Moments: Yesterday is shit Leave it in the past just like today it was then this is now. =o) thanks sweety So what happens from here? i have no clue but it's gotta be better than today.
I was thinking it's amazing all the shit I put up with from people- bfs/guys, friends, family and I’ve just about had enough I’m being pushed into crap that I’m really not sure about but I’m going through with it because "they deserve it" fuck. and why am I given a voice if no one fucking listens to it? half the people I talk to is like talking to a wall! well.. maybe not a wall is easier to talk to at times and whats sad is the people that this is all about.. if they read this they are so ignorant they wouldn’t think it's about them-GET OVER YOURSELVES and the people that it's not about will call me worried I’m mad at them.. ok I’m going to go get more to drink because this pretty much killed by buzz
Tiara665 :lora sucks brooster40 : why brooster40 : ?? Tiara665 : she begged me to stay there last night and i finally said ok then she wanted to drink and every time she does that she gets really mean towards mike so she got drunk and started crying over some crap about her brother and then we got her to stop crying and she started pouting in the chair and i just had enough of her so i said 'i'm going up stairs and going to sleep" it was about 1am Tiara665 : so then next thing i hear is her yelling at mike goin " I HATE YOU I HATE YOU' out of know where so i went down stairs and mike was in the process of dumping out all the beer because she was still trying to drink Tiara665 : and i took my bottle upstairs because she was trying to drink it Tiara665 : then for the next 3 hours they continued their fight upstairs banging shit around and yelling telling him shes going to go fuck every single one of his friends and shes goign to flush his ring he got her down the toilet, and shes leaving him for her x whos in jail for the next year or so Tiara665 : so then i had enough and i got up went in the room and said SHUT THE FUCK UP ITS' 3AM THE NEIGHBORS ARE GOING TO CALL THE COPS IF YOU WAKE UP HER KID, either STFU or take me home! Tiara665 : i looked at mike and hes bleeding everywhere and lora is hitting him and throwing shit at him Tiara665 : so i taped up mikes arm so he'd quit bleeding everywhere and lora said she was going to her moms and i said no your taking me home first I’m not staying here with your boyfriend when you made me leave my car at home because you wanted to drive and she said "FUCK YOU WALK" and she left so i started walking fucking home from her house at 5 fucking AM and mike came and found me and took me home brooster40 : wow Tiara665 : lora can kisss my fucking ass you don't make your friend walk about 7 miles down the fucking highway on a friday night at 5am Tiara665 : when it's cold as fuck brooster40 : she dont need to be drinken sounds like Tiara665 : and she kept on trying to drag me into heir argument saying "I DON'T LOVE YOU I WANT SOME ONE ELSE YOUR ONLY HERE FOR MONEY ASK MANDY" "I HATE THAT RING YOU GOT ME ASK MANDY" Tiara665 : keep mandy out of it she doesn't give a fuck Tiara665 : eat my ass crazy bitch brooster40 : wow Tiara665 : so i woke everyone up at 5am that was fun..... Tiara665 : damn dog brooster40 : i bet Tiara665 : bah Tiara665 : i think i slept maybe a couple hours Tiara665 : i'm grouchy as hell brooster40: awww couldnt tell brooster40 : you know how lora is this isnt the first time she did stuff like that Tiara665 : i know brooster40 : send her over ill treat her like a liitle bitch Tiara665 : i was so close to fucking hitting her.... god i wanted to so bad brooster40 : ive never seen you upset enough to hit any one Tiara665 : i was pissed Tiara665 : if she wasn't drunk i would of Tiara665 : if she fucks with me at all this week i'm layin her ass out Tiara665 : and then when they make her stop she turns into a fucking bitch Tiara665 : she tried to yell at me when i took my bottle upstairs because she tried to drink it brooster40 : i could see her doing that she getts stuck on one thing and wont let it go Tiara665 : i'm her only fucking friend and i told her if she didn't take me home i'm done with her bs i don't need friends like that and she said 'FUCK YOU MANDY I DON'T CARE IF YOU DONT' TALK TO ME AGAIN" so i said ... fuck you huh... ok.... I'm done feeling sorry for you
An odd thing happened last night: I got a phone call from Joe..at first I wanted to just hang up on him but incase it was important I listened and for the first five minutes I said nothing more than "What do you want?!" or one word answers and it appeared that him and his $2.00 Whore aren’t doing to well and he misses me.. and I really don't feel bad about calling her that because I've hated her since High School and everyone knows it, but thats not the issue. he says he DESERVES a second chance and he admits he was wrong and all that other crap and I do believe he was being sincere but I really don't know if I give a damn. I'm not giving him another chance that thought hasn't even crossed my mind- hes fucked me over to many times and hes gone out of his way to try and hurt me.. so why would I? I was supposed to see him today but he never got ahold of me.. I can't say that I’m disappointed but we'll see what happens.
I've come to learn that there are few people in this world I can trust and the people your saposed to count on.. well they let you down every chance they get- and they see nothing wrong with it and if you get mad about it your the "inconsiderate bitch" I'm not going into detail as of now because the person this is about doesn't know that i'm aware of what is going on and I am not saposed to say anything regardless of how fucked up it is and how much they could fuck me over
Why do people insist on fucking with me? Do they think that I don't notice? Lets try something new: THE TRUTH! wow.. bet you never considered that one have you? Do you even know the meaning? If not let me know I’ll read you the definition. - I apologize one of these days I'll have something positive to say- It has just been a very long past few weeks and I think Assholes are just mysteriously drawn to me or I'm just Paranoid! Either way it's all very irritating.
Nothing new is going on other than my friends are driving me crazy and it's getting to the point where I actually avoid leaving my house because I don't want to put up with them, and I feel bad about saying that but it gets REALLY old after a while, it's either avoid them for now or end up saying things I regret later. On a lighter note: I got new glasses so I can see once again!(picture below) and I was told Joe lost his job because he missed too many days, thank god I didn't move in with him or I'd be f*cked! Thats all for now. -later on that night-PEOPLE REALLY PISS ME OFF! I was actually having a damn good day and then all the assholes in my life get together and go "hey.. mandy is in a good mood... we gotta fuck that up! thats what we do best!" so i hear from about 3 different ppl within a few hours all telling me almost the exact same thing.. One of them I hear this sort of thing evertime i speak to them so it didn't really bother me but the other 2? WTF?! So I was saposed to call my friend.. and I didn't.. it's thanksgiving.. I'm tired and I ate ALL damn day.. I'm not in the mood to shoot the shit..I just want to sit on my ass bitch about how full i am and watch Wizard of Oz.. so anyways.. He calls me and gives me this whole "you don't like me.. you didn't call me on purpose because you hate me.. blah blah blah.." so i reasure them that i don't hate them and that I was tired and full.. and watching tv blah blah blah i'm sorry i was going to call you tomorrow when i woke up- so i'm just trying to sit here and enjoy Wizard of Oz thats all i want to do.. Watch Wizard of Oz in peace... so they start giving me shit about watchign Oz WTF?! Whats next? hell lets make fun of my Disney collection too! Walk into my room at dads.. MARVIN THE MARTIAN EVERYWHERE! that should be fun for you! then hes the 2nd person that asks me "is your other bf there or something?" what? other bf? damn I didn't know I had A bf let alone more than one! what a tramp I must be!
The only thing I have to say is FUCK YOU! Those of you that don't know why i put that: it's obviously not meant for you!(and no.. it has nothing to do with Joe)
i'm so f*cking bored! i need my car back! Lora dyed my hair yesterday
I get to move more of my crap tomorrow *yay* and go through joes mail and try to figure out how to give it to him i'm so glad for once i have no assholes in my life!
I haven’t heard from Joe, he still needs to come get his damn pillow, I really don't like the fact that I'm keeping it for him especially if he doesn't trust me, that and the fact that I’m afraid one day I’m just going to get really pissed off and do something to it. Everything’s been really boring- more will be written latter I have things to do.- I've been wanting to talk to my x(i dont' feel like saying names) but everyone but me seems to be running into him- maybe I’d actually have to go some where to run into him huh? I’m some what afraid to see him because I don’t want to get into the conversation of why we broke up and then the conversation about feelings would arise.. all very awkward and uncomfortable. I tried calling Ashley since I haven’t seen him in a year and when he called I wasn't "aloud" to talk to him because of Joe but his phones turned off I'll get ahold of him evenutally
MY LETTER TO JOE: (which I have not been able to give to him because I’m not permited to contact him... long story most of you know it, but he will get it eventually)
When I called you to let you know I still have your mothers pillow from her funeral- you should of been thankful I did not take advice of others and use it as vindication to make sure you pay back my step-father, or to get you to pay for my windshield I replaced when you wrecked my cavalier, or just burning it, one person even wanted me to give it to them so they could take it to your porch set it on fire and then knock on your door and laugh as you freak out seeing the only thing of your mothers you have burn.... but I realize I'm not a vindictive person and unlike you I do not find enjoyment in seeing others in pain.
You labeled me a liar... you said before you left that I will always be known as “the fucking liar” but you couldn’t think of anything I was dishonest about other than what you read in my journal: stating that I did not care if you left when I told you hours before that I didn’t want you to go(which you shoudn't of been reading my journal anyways....) that happened in July, and you would bring it up at least twice a week, even when you were lying to my face you said I was the liar... When Amanda said she seen you and Melissa uptown and your arm was around her I confronted you and what did you do? you yelled, threw a temper tantrum that I didn’t trust you and say that I had allot of nerve to accuse you of cheating.. and come to find out you were dating her? and when I asked what your attentions with your X-GF Amanda when you were staying the night at her house every weekend, you again got mad and said that I should trust you- and come to find out you went on a date with her you told my friend that you got her a coral rose that stood for desire.. but you couldn't find Amanda so you went to my friend Lora’s house and starting hitting on Lora asking if you would ever have a chance with her.. you had the nerve to go to MY fucking friends house and hit on her.. and expect her not to tell me? you put her in an extremely awkward position.. and didn’t care.. and so you gave the rose to Lora, and when she said you should give it to me considering: we were still together, you were living in my fathers house FOR FREE, sleeping in MY bed, and driving MY impala without paying for gas (and not once did I ever hear a thank you, nor did I ever hear you ask my permission to use my car) you told her you did not want to give the rose to me because you did not desire me THEN WHY THE FUCK WERE YOU LIVING WITH ME? why the fuck did you tell me I might be moving in with you when you move? why did you lead me to believe things were going to change, things were going to improve. Lora went to your appt. the night you moved- Melissa was there... you told her you and melissa have been dating- you told her that you went on a date with your XGF Amanda, and you told her not to tell me that you moved yet, and not to tell me where you live and when Lora asks if she can tell me about Melissa: Melissa actually steps up and says “no, don’t’ tell Mandy yet” what the fuck is that? You wanted me to find out by going home and finding ALL your shit gone? and what really pisses me off is when Melissa said Mike S. "raped" her NO ONE believed her but me and jenny NO ONE stood up for her but me and jenny... who did she fuck over? me and Jenny -(shes also fucked Jennys BF Nick when they were still together.) and your reasoning for not telling me anything? you still had some things at my house and you didn’t want me to do anything to them.
I know- I wasn’t exactly a fucking saint- there are always 2 sides to every story, and I admit, I wasn’t exactly faithful, but who would be after being treated like shit for 5 months, you did nothing but ridicule me and try to make me look like a moron whenever some one was around- especially if it was your sister or one of my friends. When we’d go to the mall and I’d go to hold your hand- you said I was trying to show you off as a trophy.. What the fuck kind of Trophy are you? your no one!, your always going to be no one!, and just so you know: I’ve dated better looking... your nothing Spectacular...your no fucking prize believe me.. and then you have the audacity to tell me on the phone that I’ll never get over you.... You gotta be fucking joking! theres nothing to get over!!! you haven’t even kissed me in 3 months unless I MADE you or if you wanted sex, why do you think I was looking for affection from others. Do you honestly think I would of been kissing Josh if things were going well between us? no...actually I probably wouldn’t of even done it if I knew you weren’t staying the night at your Xgfs house for the entire weekend... or if I did do it, I would of at least regretted it. Out of all the regrets i have with you... falling asleep in the arms of some one else was not one of them, although i admit i would of had regrets if it lead to something more, and though I wanted to, I didn’t out of respect for you...
Even though I’m still enraged over the fact That you lied to me, I am over you; I’ve been over you for months.. I’m not sorry your gone, I’m just sorry things had to end the way they did, I may still care for you though I would never allow you back into my life.. and I highly doubt I could forgive you. so this is my farewell although there is much left unsaid.. I'm tired and I just don't give a fuck anymore.
