Private Emotion

By:  Stephanie Woodworth

© 2000 Chaotic Bliss Fan Fiction

 

{Author’s Note:  I’d like to thank Lara for helping me by writing the sex scene in this story}

 

every endless night has a dawning day/every darkest sky had a shining ray/and it shines on you baby can’t you see/you’re the only one who can shine for me/it’s a private emotion that fills you tonight/and a silence falls between us/as the shadow steals the light/and wherever you may find it/wherever it may lead/let your private emotion come to me/come to me

 

                She tossed and turned in bed.  As she glanced at he the clock she realized that she’d seen every hour go past.  She decided sleep wasn’t an option and got out of bed.

                Stumbling to the kitchen she turned the coffee post on and watched as it brewed.  She glanced out the window and saw the news vans and photographers.  If they only knew, she thought.  They had been camped out in front of her house for days just to get a glance, a perfect picture of the famous movie star.

                Shelby’s life was not her own and she’d grown used to the photo mongers out front of her house and those that followed her around.  Today was worse.  She’d be getting married in just over twelve hours and they all wanted that pre-wedding photo.

                Justin Timberlake was everything she could want and more.  She’d fallen in love with him easily and would be in love with him for the rest of her life.  They understood each other.  He was a pop star, a member of the music group, *NSync.  They’d met on the set of the group’s first movie.  Shelby was cast to play his love interest and real life began to imitate are when they fell head over heals in love with each other.

                The coffee finished and Shelby poured herself a cup.  Today was going to be a long day if it started this early.  She took three sips of the hot liquid, dumped the rest and decided to try going back to sleep.

                Once again she tossed and turned unable to sleep.  She wanted to be elsewhere and nothing she did would change that.  So go, she thought.  She hopped out of bed, ran to her closet, threw on a pair of jeans and a sweatshirt and tried to sneak into the garage.  She put her Jaguar into gear and sped down the driveway.  As the gate opened the flashes began to pop and the reporters approached her car.  She never slowed as she pulled out of the driveway.

                She drove along the back roads that were very familiar to her.  She sang along to the music on the car radio as her auburn hair blew in the early spring’s night air.  She parked her car down the street from his house and hoped that there wouldn’t be press parked outside of his house.  She ran down the sidewalk and snuck through the neighbors yard.  She quietly knocked on the front door and was surprised when he promptly opened it wearing only pajama bottoms.

                Without a word she walked in and was greeted with a kiss.  The kiss grew more passionate and he grabbed her hand and led her to his room.  To her surprise there were candles burning and a slow seductive song echoed through the large room.  The four-poster bed was turned down and he’d changed his normal cotton sheets to the satin ones that now shone in the candlelight.

                 Shelby walked him over to the bed and sat him at the foot.  She held up a finger so he’d know she’d be right back.  She walked over to the stereo and turned it up.  She flipped through the CD’s finally finding the one she wanted and placing it in the player.  Pressing play, “Freak Me” by Silk filled the room.  She walked over to where he sat and began to dance for him.  As she danced she slowly removed her jeans and sweatshirt to reveal that she wore nothing underneath.

                A slight gasp escaped his lips.  He hopped off the bed and walked over to her.  He passionately kissed her pulling her into his arms.  They began to sway to the music.  The dance turned more seductive and before long they were stumbling towards the bed.  Shelby slowly untied his pajamas letting them drop to the floor to reveal that he too wasn’t wearing anything underneath.  She took in the sight of him and grinned at the reactions she was causing him. 

                Shelby gently pushed until he was sitting on the edge of the bed.  She knelt before him; lust flickering in her eyes like the dancing candles.  Her fingernails lightly grazed up and down the insides of his thighs until his hardness was practically throbbing.  She slowly bent her head down and took him into her warm welcoming mouth.  He moaned, running his hands through her hair.  He lightly pushed on her head as she bobbed up and down on his hard cock, letting her tongue lazily run up and down his length.  Just when he thought he couldn't take it anymore, she stopped.  She slowly leaned him back until they were both stretched out on the bed.

As his lips found hers, his hands roamed over her body, teasing her breasts, and then moving to tickle lightly over her stomach, then down to play at her entrance.  Shelby's back arched; her body silently begging for more.  His warm lips bent down to suck on her nipples, and she moaned out loud.  Her hands ran through his curls, lightly tugging as his mouth sent streaks of electricity through her body.  "Please..." she moaned.

"What?"  He asked.  "You seemed to like teasing me..."

"I want you, please..."

He moved his body over her, taking her hands and tangling her fingers in his.  He carefully placed her hands above her head on the bed, and slid inside of her.  They both moaned; he was so hard and ready and she was wet and hot for him.  Her hips arched up to meet him, and the only sound in the room was the music and their heavy breathing.  His mouth found her earlobe and he nibbled on it, whispering such words of love that she felt emotions and sensations wash over her like a waterfall.  He began to thrust harder, biting her tender skin until she shrieked with pleasure.

                "Shelby...oh God!"  He yelled as he came.  She released his hands to clutch his shoulders, moaning his name as she came as well.

                As their breathing returned to normal Shelby realized that she needed to return home soon to get ready for the wedding.  As if reading her mind he said in his sexy southern accent, “I know.  You have to leave.”

                “I’m sorry.  You know that I can’t stay any longer.  We have to be at the church in a few hours.”

                He leaned over and kissed her nose, “I’m going to miss you.”

                “I’ll miss you too.”  Never ‘I love you’, never ‘stay’, always that he’d miss her.  Shelby got out of the bed for what she realized would be the last time ever.  After this afternoon she’d belong to someone else and Lance Bass was going to be nothing more than a friend of her husbands.

                Shelby quickly dressed and left his house.  She returned to her car and went back to her house.  Once again the press was out front.  She quickly made a mental note to tell Justin that she went for a drive if questioned about her whereabouts.  She entered the quiet house and for the first time let the tears fall.  She cried because she loved Justin with all her heart, because she loved Lance too and most of all because she didn’t want to have to decide which one to let go.  But she had decided.  She’d decided the moment she let Justin slide the huge diamond that was now missing from her ring finger and would soon be returned at the wedding.

                She quickly showered and changed.  The limo would arrive soon to sweep her off to the park where they were getting married.  She knew that all her things would be waiting there for her along with Justin.

                Shelby was dressed and ready to walk down the isle.  The wedding march started and she grabbed hold of the arm her father offered her.  She glanced down the isle trying hard not to make eye contact with Lance.  As she neared the alter all she could see was the smile she’d fallen in love with and hoped that this decision was the best for all.  The ceremony went off without a hitch and soon they were leaving the park in a sea of friends and family.  Shelby only looked back once and when she did she saw Lance talking to one of her bridesmaids, Lara and knew that all would end for the best.

 

The End

 

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