To Give You More

By: Amanda Di

Ali,

       I’m so sorry. You know that I would never do anything to hurt you intentionally. I screwed up and I don’t deserve your forgiveness. You have given me the world, and when you needed my understanding most, I let you down. I hope that someday you will forgive me for my actions. I’ll see you soon.
            My Love,
               JC

    Allina stared at the words on the paper again and a tear dropped from her eye. She didn’t want him to think that she wouldn’t forgive him. She already had. Allina knew that she had been throwing out vibes, and he just misread one of them. Ali was a virgin and she wanted her first time to be perfect.

    The letter came about because a week earlier she and JC were at the hotel after one of the concerts. Things started out sweet and innocent, but after awhile they got pretty hot and heavy. Allina wanted more than anything to share herself with him right then, but she didn’t want it to be at some random hotel after a show. She wanted something more.
    She asked him to stop and he slowed down, but was still caught up in the moment. He said that it was going to be perfect and that he loved her. Ali got frightened about the whole thing and got up and left. The next morning she found the letter on her front door, and JC had already left for the next show out of state.

    Ali sat on the floor of her living room with her arms wrapped around her knees. He was supposed to come back to her place when he got in. JC had called her the day before and asked if it was safe for him to come over. She only said yes and then didn’t bother to tell him that she wasn’t mad at him. JC had been so understanding throughout their whole relationship. They had been dating for well over six months and he didn’t ever pressure her to sleep with him.
    The fire threw off bright sparks and crackled in the silent room. Allina looked at the clock and saw that it was already 9:30pm. She started to worry that maybe he had changed his mind, and that he didn’t want to be with her after all. She gave herself a mental slap and said that she knew he wouldn’t betray her that way.
    Ali rocked back and forth in front of the fire. The glow from the fireplace was the only existing light in the room. It made her hair shine and the heat made her skin feel warm. Allina reached up and ran her delicate hands through her soft ash brown hair. Just as she was about to go into the kitchen to get something to drink, she heard the door handle jiggle. She knew right then that it was JC. She had given him a key the month before because she wanted him to be able to rest or hide out at her place whenever he needed to.
    JC shut the door and ran his hands up and down his arms. It was freezing outside and he was too stubborn to wear a jacket. “I’m sorry I’m late Ali,” he said in a soft voice. He was almost afraid to talk to her.
    “It’s alright,” she said and started to get up.
    “You don’t have to get up. I’m coming over there,” he said and looked at her to make sure that she didn’t object to his proposal.
    “Alright,” she said as she watched him walk towards her.
    “Baby, I am so sorry,” he started.
    “JC don’t. I put out the wrong vibes. I wanted it, I did... Just not there.”
    “But I tried to push the issue with you, and I shouldn’t have done that. I’ll never do that to you again,” he said as he rubbed his hands together.
    Ali reached over and touched her hands to his. “Sweetie, you are like ice,” she said as she brought his hands to her mouth and blew on them. “Here, let’s move closer to the fire.”
    The two of them scooted forward. JC almost melted by the warm touch of Allina’s hands. He had missed her so much, and it killed him to had to have left on such bad terms with her. He took his hands out from within her grasp and placed them both around hers. He looked deep into her soft brown eyes and said, “I love you so much Allina, forgive me?”
    Ali licked her lip and looked down at their hands. She knew that he meant it. “I love you too, and you know you’re forgiven.” Ali leaned in and placed her pouty pink lips on JC’s. The simple touch of his lips sent chills down her spine. She moved closer to him and started to lean back and brought him with her.
    They both lay on their sides and looked at each other. Ali rolled onto her back and just looked at the ceiling then towards the fire, which was off to her left. JC did the same. He placed his hands under his head and looked at Ali. He pulled one hand out from under his head and ran it through her hair. He knew that she loved it when he played with her hair.
    He moved her hair off of her neck small sections at a time until it all was behind his hand on the tip of her shoulder. He lowered his lips to her and brushed them ever so lightly over her neck. Ali flinched at the mere touch of him. She could feel his warm breath on her skin and his gentle touch above her shoulder. She let out a soft moan as he trailed his lips closer to her right ear.
    Ali closed her eyes then slowly opened them and licked her lips. Slowly she began to turn her body back towards JC’s. He ran the pad of his thumb down her cheek and passed glances from her eyes to her lips, back and forth, back and forth. He wanted so badly to just devour her with his sweet kisses, but he wanted to know that she was going to be okay with it.
    Ali batted her eyes and then leaned in toward JC again. She knew that he wasn’t going to be making the first move anytime soon. She pressed her lips on his and left them there for a moment before she backed away a little and did it again. She moved from sucking lightly on the top lip, to doing it on the bottom. JC ran his hands down the side of her body and placed them at her waist.
    She cupped his face with her hands and then slowly moved one of them down his chest. She pressed firmly against it as she made her way to the bottom of his shirt. She placed her hand on his stomach. “You’re warming up,” she managed to say between the kisses he gladly returned.
    “I’m getting there,” he said back in a shaky voice. “Allina...” he started to say.
    “Shhh,” she whispered and then kissed him again. She pulled his shirt up and eventually got it over his head. She could feel his heart beating. It was going a mile a minute. “I’m not going to hurt you,” she teased.
    JC let out a soft chuckle and said, “I know.”
    Allina allowed her lips to trail down his cheek and to the top of his neck. She felt his Adam’s Apple move as he gulped and took a deep breath. The sensation of her tongue tailing over his neck gave him a prickly feeling all over, a feeling of pure joy.
    Her tongue and lips surpassed the rest of his neck and went right to the left side of his collarbone. She sucked on portions of his collarbone until she covered the whole thing. Ali ran her hands across the rest of his chest and listened to the soft moans, which escaped from JC‘s sweet lips. Allina made her way to JC’s favorite spot. Her lips lingered along in the center of his chest, right between his pecks where it slightly indented. JC rubbed his hand up the length of her arm. She was driving him wild. Allina pulled herself back up to JC so that their lips met.
    JC rolled slightly and pulled his own body on top of hers. He stroked the side of her face and got lost within her eyes. He looked at her and tried to think of the words to say. JC was getting those vibes all over again and he wanted to be with her so much. “Are you sure?” he whispered.
    “More than ever,” she whispered back.
    “I want to give you more than this Ali.”
    “JC, you’re giving me everything I have ever dreamed of,” she said back and raised her head so that their lips met yet once again.
    JC let his hands wander the whole length of his girlfriend’s body. He caressed each and every spot. With slow and easy moves, he rid Ali of all her clothing. She lay beneath him with only the light from the fireplace bouncing off of her silky skin. He kissed her belly and then returned his lips to hers.
    Ali managed to remove JC’s belt, and soon his jeans and boxers. She rested her hands on the lower part of JC’s back and kissed his lips passionately. She moved her hands back up and cupped his face then ran her hands through his hair. JC reached up and took her hands within his. He locked their fingers and placed their hands on each side of her head.
    Slowly JC moved his weight over more so that it was directly above her, but not smothering her. Then ever so gently he pushed his hips toward her and watched her bite her lip as he got closer. Her fingers tightened around his and she in return moved her hips in hope that they would fit together better if she did the same as he did. JC created a slow steady pace that Ali could handle and yet kept yearning for more.
    Soft moans escaped both of their mouths and they worked together at the hips. Ali moaned in pain, yet it was a pain that she didn’t want to give up right then, and it was a pain that gave her a wonderful feeling at the same time. JC’s chest hovered over Allina’s bare breasts and his lips caressed the sides of her neck.
    The fire blazing beside them only added to the heat that they felt. A thin layer of sweat covered JC’s and Ali’s front sides. They both breathed heavily and moaned soft-spoken words. Their last moan was accented by the cracking of the wood in the fireplace. JC rolled off of her, but held her close.
    Both of them caught up on their normal breathing pattern and then JC said, “you are so wonderful. Are you alright?”
    “I’m great,” she said back with a happy sigh. “Wonderful,” she laughed and pulled herself closer to JC’s chest. The two of them laid there together by the fire until they drifted off to sleep, and the fire died out causing the room to be pitch black. All pitch black except for the sparkle in JC’s blue eyes as he opened them to gaze once again at the girl he shared his world with.

The End

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