Howie’s Birthday
By: Kat
Morgan
He woke slowly. Hovering
in that gray area between sleep and wake, his mind taking on several quick
trips of fancy before bringing him back to reality. He stretched first, long
arms pulling against the air, his neck twisting, straightening, and his legs
kicking at the covers. Finally he let his eyelids slide open to reveal his milk
chocolate dark eyes.
The sun streamed in,
slightly diffused by the off-white sheer curtains that were flowing in the
subtle breeze from coming in from the open windows. He could hear the call of
the seagulls, and the answering crash of waves.
All in all, it looked
and sounded like a great day.
But not for him.
It was his birthday.
Not that there was
anything wrong with that really. It’s just that things always seemed to go
wrong on his birthday. Some years it was little things: a flat tire, a missed
appointment, or a spill on his new shirt. Other years it was much worse: broken
relationships, fights with the record company that ruled his life or major
illnesses.
It may not be his
birthday that caused all that; it may just be that he is in a heightened state
of attention because it is his birthday. Whatever the cause, all he really
wanted to do was hide under the covers and pretend the day wasn’t happening.
But he couldn’t do that.
Not only would his
family never let him forget, his “job” made it impossible. Being a member of
the most popular group on the planet meant that even if he wanted to forget,
millions of fans didn’t. They wanted to see him happy-go-lucky and celebrating.
He loved his fans, really he did. He just wished that they would leave him
alone on this day. Let him suffer in peace.
“What a grump,” he
muttered to himself as he got up. “Old age is getting to me.”
He looked at himself in
the mirror. Didn’t feel any older. No sudden wrinkles. Hair was still its usual
mass of twisted curls. No receding hairline. Was that a gray hair?! No, it was
just the light. Phew. Body was still its well-kept self. Sure, his abs were a
little slacker now because he’d been enjoying Mama’s cooking and not constantly
performing. It would tighten up fast once the next tour started. He wasn’t
worried: he’d done is push-ups and sit-ups last night, as always. And he was
heading over to the gym later.
The phone rang: a
discordant rattle. He picked it up and was immediately greeted by an x-rated
rendition of the happy birthday song.
“Morning, Bone.”
“Hey, old man. How’s it
hanging this morning?”
He chuckled. “A little
to the left.”
“Yuck! Too much
information. Man, you never answer that one honestly, why you starting now?”
“You know us old-timers.
No need to be shy anymore.”
AJ snorted. “So I‘ll see
you later at the party? I have this way cool present to give you.”
“Just remember my Mom is
going to be there. Nothing too outrageous, okay?” Howie warned.
“Would I do that to you?”
AJ cackled then hung up.
“Oh God,” Howie
whispered to the dial tone, suddenly very afraid.
Other than the bird poop
that landed directly in his sightline as he was driving to the gym, the day had
been uneventful. He had smiled amiably through all the birthday wishes (phoned
in or otherwise), waving at the few fans who had managed to crack his daily
schedule code and had lain in wait for him at various points along his route.
He’d had to wait a while to get on some of the weight machines, but that was
nothing to be nervous about: it always got busier in the gym a few weeks before
September started. It was an exclusive gym, but everyone suddenly seemed to
remember that they had been lax over the summer and needed to look tighter and
firmer for the Fall rush, whether it was at the office or university or
wherever.
The long shower had made
him feel better. Though he had dropped the soap. He’d giggled a little at the
idea, and then bent over provocatively to pick it up. Fortunately he was in an
enclosed shower and all alone. Still, it felt good snubbing his nose at the
belief.
He glanced at his watch
and swore. He was late. Damn. He still had to get back to the house and grab a
few things before he headed over to the restaurant where he would be subjected
to the indignity of his birthday party. He hopped into his Corvette, revved the
engine and peeled out of the parking lot.
And came so close to
hitting a woman cycling by that his sudden swerve away unnerved her and she
fell off the bike.
“What the fuck do you
think you are doing?” She wore at him as she got up, dusting herself off.
“I’m sorry. I didn’t see
you,” he explained as he hopped out of his car, wide-eyed at his near miss.
She seemed similarly
shaken. He could tell by the way her hands shook as she tried to right her
bike. But shock usually presents itself with aggression, once the scare is
over. “What? The reflective suit not bright enough for you?” she asked snidely.
She finally got her bike upright, then realized that her jacket was torn and
her elbows bloody. “Oh great. Just great. I just bought that.”
“Look, I said I was
sorry. Are you okay?”
She loosened her helmet,
shaking out her long auburn hair. She wiped a hand across her face, leaving a
small track of dusty blood from the cut on her hand. “Just peachy. Can’t you
tell? Christ, what is it with little men and their goddamned muscle cars? Penis
not big enough so they have to drive one?”
Howie had heard more
than enough jokes about his height recently and was not in the mood for more.
It was his birthday, dammit. People should be nice to him.
“There is nothing wrong
with my penis. I just happen to like the car. You always such a bitch?” he shot
back.
“Only when I almost get
killed by some idiot with more money than sense.”
“What the hell’s that
supposed to mean?”
She pointed to her bike
and then to his car. “Hello? Me: riding a bike because it’s all I can afford
right now. You: driving some souped-up sports car. I may not be brilliant when
it comes to cars, but I know that those ones cost a pretty penny.” She finally
finished cataloguing her assortment of cuts and bruises and looked up at him.
“Oh shit!” she whispered as recognition spread across her face.
Great. Just what he
needed. A fan.
“You have some…” he pointed
at her chin. She wiped quickly at it, swearing softly when she say the streak
of dried blood. “I really am sorry. I admit I wasn’t looking. And I didn’t
actually hit you. Just swerved too close.”
“True,” she replied a
little more evenly. “It could have been worse. Happy birthday, by the way.”
Yeah, turning into a
real happy one. Yet again. “Thanks,” he replied brusquely, eager to be on his
way. “Is there any way I can apologize? An autograph or something?”
She looked at him,
taking in his anxious demeanor. And was suddenly angry all over again. “No, I
do not want an autograph. What I want is for you to really be sorry for almost
killing me. I want you to be gracious when someone wishes you happy birthday. I
want you to be a little less self-involved. And I want you to keep trying to be
those things until you get it right.” She slapped her helmet back on, climbed
on her bike and started cycling away.
“Bitch,” he muttered
angrily. He glanced down at his watch seeing that this incident had cost him
valuable time, and climbed back into his car. He started the engine, glancing
carefully for any obstacles this time, then headed off. But not before give
that woman the finger as he drove past her.
The rest of the day when
pretty much according to plan. The party was nice; everyone there more to see
and be seen than to be around him. AJ embarrassed him in public again. Same as
every year. Only this time, Nick got in on the game, and Howie wasn’t sure if
his mother was ever going to stop blushing. Jesus, couldn’t they wait until
later in the evening, after Mama had left to go home before they pulled those
stupid stunts? He never embarrassed them like that in public. Okay, so a few
times, but not like that.
It was late, very late
when he finally got to bed. His birthday was thankfully over, he thought as he
staggered drunkenly to his lonely bed. And tomorrow would just be another day.
Woohoo.
He woke slowly. Hovering
in that gray area between sleep and wake, his mind taking on several quick
trips of fancy before bringing him back to reality. He stretched first, long
arms pulling against the air, his neck twisting, straightening, and his legs
kicking at the covers. Finally he let his eyelids slide open to reveal his milk
chocolate dark eyes.
The sun streamed in,
slightly diffused by the off-white sheer curtains that were flowing in the
subtle breeze from coming in from the open windows. He could hear the call of
the seagulls, and the answering crash of waves.
All in all, it looked
and sounded like a great day.
But not for him.
It was his birthday.
Again.
He didn’t notice at
first. Just went about his day with that little niggling feeling of déjà vu.
But that was probably because this birthday, so far, had been remarkably
similar to all of the ones in his past.
Usual check to ensure
that he hadn’t mysteriously aged over night: All systems okay.
Obligatory obscene
birthday threats from AJ: check.
Assorted greetings from
friends and family, eager to remind him how much they cared (if only so they
can be remembered kindly in his will, he thought sarcastically as he replaced
the receiver in the phone handset): Right on schedule.
The regular car chase by
some of his more outrageous fans who waved signs, or breasts: Yep.
It wasn’t until his
windshield was hit, dead centre, by some pigeon dropping that his complacent,
and jaded, demeanor was shaken. Just looking at it, as it dripped down the
glass, in front of his face, blocking his view somewhat… It was as if he’d been
through all of this before. It was something more than the déjà vu feeling he
had: it was as if he could predict exactly what was going to happen next.
“Man on hip adductor
machine will drop his water bottle…. Now!”
It happened.
“Phone on reception desk
will ring when that lady walks past that point right… there….”
Ring.
It was like a game for a
little while. But when he was taking his shower, and dropped the soap in the
exact position and at the exact time he’d just finished predicting in his mind…
“Just an urban legend,”
he reminded himself as he checked the lock on the shower stall door. “No real
need to fear.”
And nothing happened
when he bent over and picked up the slippery bar. “Told you,” he chuckled to
himself as he started to work up a lather with his hands, then spread the
creamy bubbles across his firm body.
When he got to his
Corvette, he carefully wiped the grey streak off his windshield, and then
climbed into the car. He glanced at the clock on the dashboard, and then swore
as he realized that he was behind schedule. Very behind schedule. He shoved the
key in the ignition; turning on the engine with a loud rev, then popped the car
in gear and streaked for the exit.
He knew as soon as he
turned the corner that something was about to happen. And it did. His front
bumper came so close to hitting a woman on her bike that for all intents and
purposes her had hit her. It did, after all, have the same effect: she fell
over.
Shit! Okay, he hadn’t
meant to do that.
“Are you okay?” he asked
worriedly as he jumped out of the car. She was so busy swearing and dusting the
dirt off her clothes that she didn’t hear him.
“What the fuck do you
think you are doing?” she finally asked angrily.
“I’m sorry. I didn’t see
you.”
She reached down to pick
up her bike, shaking as her body tried to deal with the near-death shock it had
just had. “I suppose this bright reflective suit didn’t catch your eye,” she
said snidely.
“It did. But too late.
I’m really sorry. Umm... I think...,” he pointed to the jacket she wore. There
was a huge rip along the arm, and he could see scraped and bloody skin
underneath.
“Oh great. Just great. I
just bought that,” she replied faintly.
“Hey! Are you okay?” Her
sudden switch from angry to quiet worried him. “You didn’t hit anything when
you fell did you?”
She removed the bike
helmet she wore, and her long auburn hair fell out. She wiped a hand across her chin, then looked at it and realized
that her knuckles were bleeding and that she’d just spread it across her face.
“I’m fine. Jesus, what is it with men and their damn sports cars? Is it that
penis thing? Or is it just a testosterone thing?”
Okay, he had been having
a bad day, a typical birthday. He didn’t need this.
“No, I just liked the
car. You always such a grouch?”
“Only when some mutant
tries to kill me with his car,” she shot back.
“What were you cycling
for anyway? This isn’t a bike path,” he pointed out angrily.
“Not all of us can
afford cars, okay? Not all of us…” she looked at him. Actually looked at him.
And he could see the recognition cross her face. “Are rich famous singers who…”
her voice drifted off.
“Who what? You going to
make some more cracks about my penis or my car?”
She looked down then
back up at him. “Actually I was going to say, happy birthday Howie, but
something tells me I better not.”
“Yeah, happy birthday,
me! Whoopie,” he replied mockingly. Yep, typical birthday. He meets an
attractive woman -- by almost killing her. Lord knows what else could happen
today.
“Look, I am honestly
very sorry about almost hitting you. Is there something I can do to help? I
admit I wasn’t paying enough attention. Is your bike okay? Should I take you to
a hospital?”
She glanced down at the
bike, noting that the front tire was slowly, but surely, deflating. “Oh fuck.
Just what I need!” She knelt down to try and see if she could find the hole.
“Umm… Miss? I am really
sorry, but I am in a big hurry. Do you want some help?”
She looked up at him.
“Can you give my bike and I a ride to Orange Avenue? There is a bike shop I
know there that can get this fixed up quickly.”
He frowned quickly. “A
little out of my way, but I did almost hit you. I’m just not sure how we’ll…”
he gestured from the bike to the car. A Corvette was not really build for
lugging things.
“Does that roof pop
off?”
He nodded, then smiled.
“I hope you don’t mind wind in your hair. Not to mention bugs and stuff like
that.”
She laughed. “You really
do say ‘stuff like that.’ And I figure if I was afraid of wind or bugs I
wouldn’t be cycling, would I?”
“Guess not.”
They managed, with a
little twisting to get the bike into the car. Howie was wincing throughout the
entire process, worried about his precious car, but other than a few derisive
snorts at his behaviour the woman ignored him. She finally settled in the front
seat, holding onto her bike frame, as he started the engine.
“Umm. Quick question.
You know who I am. Who are you?” he asked as he pulled back onto the road.
“Kat. Nice to meet you.
I’d shake your hand but I’m afraid the bike’d go flying. Probably scratch your
finish as it went.” She said the last part teasingly and he laughed weakly.
“With the kind of day
I’m having, it probably would.”
He was uncommunicative
the entire drive. Except for when the tie on his hair snapped and his long
curls flew wildly in the breeze. Then he had a lot to say, and none of it good.
It was a relief for both of them when he pulled up in front of the bike shop that
Kat frequented. The wincing and flinching process of removing her bike was
undergone, and then finally she stood on the sidewalk, a little worse for wear,
but a lot better than she had been before.
“Thanks for the ride.”
“Least I could do. I am
really sorry about almost hitting you.”
“S’okay. I can get this
fixed up and all will be okay.”
“There anything else I
can do? An autograph or something?”
She shook her head. “How
‘bout I do something for you? A piece of advice. I know we didn’t meet under
the best of circumstances, but the next time someone wishes you happy birthday,
at least try to be gracious. And you might want to be a little less
self-involved. Those damn “I’m gonna be late” asides the whole drive through
weren’t a lot of fun.”
“Look…”
“I know, I know. I have
no idea of the pressures you are under in your position, blah, blah, blah.
That’s a two-way street, Howie. Try and get it right next time.” Then she
turned and rolled her bike into the shop, shutting the door after her.
“But…” He honestly
didn’t know what to say to that. And was saved from trying to formulate an
answer by the chirping of his watch.
“Oh shit, really late
now!” He hopped back into the car, checking very, very carefully before pulling
away from the curb and headed home.
He was a mess once he
got there: he hadn’t taken the time to pull the top back up and his hair had
danced several dervishes in the wind. He stopped for another shower, not
dropping any soap this time. As he brushed his rebellious, damp curls back into
a ponytail he realized that that feeling of déjà vu was, well, not gone, but
certainly lessened. As though something subtle had changed. He shrugged it off
as his imagination and headed to the restaurant for his “I better act surprised
because everyone expects me to” party.
As always AJ embarrassed
him in public, though not as badly as the year before. Mama D was still
chuckling as she waved goodbye, ‘leaving the children to their fun.’ Nick,
however, was a dead man. Hiring a stripper was ha-ha funny. At least he had
waited until after Mama had left before bringing “her” out. The fact that it
was a she-male….
It was late, very late
when he finally got to bed. His birthday was thankfully over. Not quiet as bad
as some in the past, but still somewhat aggravating. He climbed into his large,
empty bed, thankful that at least he hadn’t drunk enough to make the room spin.
Tomorrow when he woke up at least all he’d have to deal with was the memory of
his birthday. Not a hangover too.
He woke slowly. Hovering
in that gray area between sleep and wake, his mind taking on several quick
trips of fancy before bringing him back to reality. He stretched first, long
arms pulling against the air, his neck twisting, straightening, and his legs
kicking at the covers. Finally he let his eyelids slide open to reveal his milk
chocolate dark eyes.
The sun streamed in,
slightly diffused by the off-white sheer curtains that were flowing in the
subtle breeze from coming in from the open windows. He could hear the call of
the seagulls, and the answering crash of waves.
All in all, it looked
and sounded like a great day.
But not for him.
It was his birthday.
“What the fuck?!”
Okay, this was getting
ridiculous.
He clearly remembered
going to bed last night. AFTER his birthday party. Yet here he was again.
Waking up in the same way, to the same visual and auditory clues. And to a
calendar that clearly stated that today was August 22.
Again.
Now, if it had been a
paper calendar he could understand it. But it was a top-of-the-line electronic
personal organizer. And it just couldn’t be broken yet.
Could it have just been
a vivid dream? I mean he’d had those before. Ones where you wake up and feel
like you spent the whole night working rather than sleeping. But he usually only got those in the middle
of a really long and busy tour. He hadn’t had one on the last tour: the Boys
had finally gotten to a place in their career where THEY could make some
decisions about how many concerts they did. No more doing two concerts in one
day and then on to the next city to do it again and again and again. Compared
to some of their previous tours the last one had been a cakewalk.
But it didn’t feel like
a dream. It felt real. Really real.
He looked at his face in
the mirror. “What have you been smoking, Howie?” he asked the familiar visage.
“And when the hell did you smoke it, ‘cos I don’t remember doing something like
that at all.”
Then again, it was his
birthday. Maybe this was a sign of aging… Forget about wrinkles, gray hair and
a drooping body: the real killer was thinking that you’d been through it all
already.
The phone rang and he
reached to answer it.
AJ.
He’d known it would be.
He stood there, looking at himself in the mirror, trying to figure out if he
was going nuts, listening to AJ sing his rendition of a birthday song. Then,
once the caterwauling had stopped, said, “get some new material,” and hung up.
He was too young to be
going crazy. Wasn’t he?
The phone rang again. He
thought quickly to the list of people who were going to call him this morning
(according to what he was sure had happened the day before). So he picked up
and the receiver and answered it with a “Hi, Brian.”
“I’m not B-rok, and why
the hell did you hang up on me?” an angry voice asked.
Okay, this was a
deviation from what he expected. Maybe there was hope!
“Sorry, Bone. Just had a
very weird dream, I think. Its kind of spooking me out.”
“Well, they say at your
age the brain goes fast,” AJ joked.
“Ha ha.”
“Look at it this way:
all your hair could have fallen out.”
Howie inspected his head
surreptiously. Nope, hair line was at the same spot it had been the day before
(or whenever he’d checked it last).
“Or you could have
shrunk, you know, where it counts.”
Nope, quick pajama
bottom check shows that everything is A-Ok.
“Or you could have
turned into Nick.”
“Ouch! Things will never
get that bad,” Howie chuckled.
He could hear AJ
grinning even through the phone. “Yeah, that’s what I always tell myself when
I’m having a bad day. At least I’m not Nick.”
“Really? And what colour
is your hair today?”
AJ snorted. “Lay off,
man. Its not blond ‘cos I want to be Nick. Its blond ‘cos that was the mood I
was in when I coloured it.”
“Omigod! So you must
have totally been in a surfer-dude, white trash, Eminem-head mood then.
Totally.” Howie gave his best Valley-girl impression.
“As if!”
Howie laughed. A good
deep, hard, belly laugh. “Thanks bro, I needed that.”
“Yeah, well you always
get grouchy on your b’day. So I’ll see you later?”
“Yeah.”
He hung up in a much
better mood. It was going to be okay. Whatever weird notions he’d had when he
woke up… they were obviously not real. He was not living this day over. It had
just been a dream. He chuckled at himself for believing something like that.
Wasn’t that some sort of bad Bill Murray movie or something? Not something that was going to happen to
him.
He reached over to the
phone as it rang again.
“Hey, D. How’s the
birthday boy?” Brian’s voice came through loud and clear.
Alright, so he’d written
down exactly who was supposed to call him, and in what order. And for the most
part it had been right. A change here and there. Not enough to totally put his
mind at ease, but enough that he felt he had some control over what was
happening to him.
Time to take charge.
First things first: he couldn’t change his appointment at the gym, but he could
alter his route to get there. That should throw off any of the strange twists
of fate that were screwing with his day.
He still got the waves
from fans (and a few flashes): how did they always seem to know where he was?
Did they have radar or something? A homing device on his car? Maybe he should
check… Okay, Dorough, that is one step too far into the world of paranoia.
The gym was busy, but to
his mind seemed a little less so than he had expected. Where was the guy on the
adductor machine? And wasn’t that lady supposed to be on the Stairmaster and not
on the rowing machine?
He hopped in the shower
after his workout, sweaty though strangely sated. It was birthday jitters. Lord
knows, he had enough reason to hate his birthday. It had not been a good day
for him in the past. So this year he’d just let it get to him a little much.
That was all.
He moved under the spray
of the shower, letting the water glide over him, caressing every taut muscle in
his chest, and run over the ripples of his stomach. He’d needed that workout.
Just to get his head back on straight.
His hand closed over the
bar of soap and he scrubbed the sweat off of him vigourously. “You know,’ he
said, addressing the soap, “if I was to suddenly drop you I’d feel a little
weirded out. But that is not going to happen, so I’m okay with it.”
The soap didn’t answer.
He grinned at his own
thoughts, then went to replace the soap in the dish. But it started to slip out
of his hand. He tried to catch it. Honest he did. He almost had it a few times.
But no: it fell to the floor of the shower stall with a thud.
He just stared at it.
“On that note, I think
its time to go.” He retreated from the stall, leaving the traitorous soap where
it lay.
He climbed into his car
and sat behind the steering wheel, his hands shaking a little. “So things are a
little weird. So you are feeling some very major déjà vu. That’s it. That is
all that is happening. Now start the car and let’s get home and changed and off
to the party,” he said, giving himself a pep talk.
He drove slowly out of
the parking lot, looking cautiously both ways before moving onto the street.
“There’s supposed to be a woman on a bike,” he mumbled to himself. Nope. No
woman on a bike. No one on a bike at all. He gave a sigh of relief. Things were
going to be okay.
The drive home was
slower than usual, because he had gone out of his way to avoid any bicyclist he
saw. One can never be too careful.
It wasn’t until he was
almost home that he started to speed up. And that is when, as he was turning
into his condo, he almost knocked over a woman on a pair of rollerblades.
“Are you okay?” he asked
worriedly as he jumped out of the car. She was sitting on the ground, swearing
up a storm.
“Yeah, I always like
being knocked on my ass when I’m blading. What’s the matter with you? Roads not
big enough? You have to take over even the little space on the side?” she asked
sarcastically.
“Sorry. Really I am. I
just…”
“I know, I know. Didn’t
see me. Well, try and keep your eyes open.” She tried to get up, but her feet
kept rolling out from underneath her.
“Look, can I…?” He
stepped forward, coming round to help her up. Only that didn’t work either. He
ended up on the ground in a pile with her.
“I don’t think this is
working,” she said sardonically. Then turned to look at him. He could see
recognition spread across her face. “You’re…”
“Yeah, I know. Howie D
of the Backstreet Boys. Let’s try this standing up thing again.” He pulled
himself up, then braced one of her feet against his. Her other leg tried to
roll out again, but he held her steady.
”Much better,” he said
with a smile as he looked up at her. She started to slip, and grabbed onto him
again.
“Easy for you to say.”
She gingerly started to sit down again, then unbuckled the blades. “Sorry I
barked at you. I’m a little new on these. I have the going forward, and the
slowing down and the upright stops and starts down okay. I just haven’t
perfected the falling.”
He chuckled. “Having my
car swerve close to you probably didn’t help.”
“Not really,” she agreed
as she pulled some sandals from her backpack, tied her blades together and held
them up. “Somehow I get the impression that this is the way I should be wearing
them for a while.”
“You’ll get the hang of
it. Just like I’ll get the hang of driving.”
She laughed. It was a
nice sound.
It did. But too late.
I’m really sorry. Umm... I think...,” he pointed to the jacket she wore. There
was a huge rip along the arm, and he could see scraped and bloody skin
underneath.
“Oh great. Just great. I
just bought that,” she replied faintly.
“Hey! Are you okay?” Her
sudden switch from angry to quiet worried him. “You didn’t hit anything when
you fell did you?”
She removed the bike
helmet she wore, and her long auburn hair fell out. She wiped a hand across her chin, then looked at it and realized
that her knuckles were bleeding and that she’d just spread it across her face.
“I’m fine. Jesus, what is it with men and their damn sports cars? Is it that
penis thing? Or is it just a testosterone thing?”
Okay, he had been having
a bad day, a typical birthday. He didn’t need this.
“No, I just liked the
car. You always such a grouch?”
“Only when some mutant
tries to kill me with his car,” she shot back.
“What were you cycling
for anyway? This isn’t a bike path,” he pointed out angrily.
“Not all of us can
afford cars, okay? Not all of us…” she looked at him. Actually looked at him.
And he could see the recognition cross her face. “Are rich famous singers who…”
her voice drifted off.
“Who what? You going to
make some more cracks about my penis or my car?”
She looked down then
back up at him. “Actually I was going to say, happy birthday Howie, but
something tells me I better not.”
“Yeah, happy birthday,
me! Whoopie,” he replied mockingly. Yep, typical birthday. He meets an
attractive woman -- by almost killing her. Lord knows what else could happen
today.
“Look, I am honestly
very sorry about almost hitting you. Is there something I can do to help? I
admit I wasn’t paying enough attention. Is your bike okay? Should I take you to
a hospital?”
She glanced down at the
bike, noting that the front tire was slowly, but surely, deflating. “Oh fuck.
Just what I need!” She knelt down to try and see if she could find the hole.
“Umm… Miss? I am really
sorry, but I am in a big hurry. Do you want some help?”
She looked up at him.
“Can you give my bike and I a ride to Orange Avenue? There is a bike shop I
know there that can get this fixed up quickly.”
He frowned quickly. “A
little out of my way, but I did almost hit you. I’m just not sure how we’ll…”
he gestured from the bike to the car. A Corvette was not really build for
lugging things.
“Does that roof pop
off?”
He nodded, then smiled.
“I hope you don’t mind wind in your hair. Not to mention bugs and stuff like
that.”
She laughed. “You really
do say ‘stuff like that.’ And I figure if I was afraid of wind or bugs I
wouldn’t be cycling, would I?”
“Guess not.”
They managed, with a
little twisting to get the bike into the car. Howie was wincing throughout the
entire process, worried about his precious car, but other than a few derisive
snorts at his behaviour the woman ignored him. She finally settled in the front
seat, holding onto her bike frame, as he started the engine.
“Umm. Quick question.
You know who I am. Who are you?” he asked as he pulled back onto the road.
“Kat. Nice to meet you.
I’d shake your hand but I’m afraid the bike’d go flying. Probably scratch your
finish as it went.” She said the last part teasingly and he laughed weakly.
“With the kind of day
I’m having, it probably would.”
He was uncommunicative
the entire drive. Except for when the tie on his hair snapped and his long
curls flew wildly in the breeze. Then he had a lot to say, and none of it good.
It was a relief for both of them when he pulled up in front of the bike shop
that Kat frequented. The wincing and flinching process of removing her bike was
undergone, and then finally she stood on the sidewalk, a little worse for wear,
but a lot better than she had been before.
“Thanks for the ride.”
“Least I could do. I am
really sorry about almost hitting you.”
“S’okay. I can get this
fixed up and all will be okay.”
“There anything else I
can do? An autograph or something?”
She shook her head. “How
‘bout I do something for you? A piece of advice. I know we didn’t meet under
the best of circumstances, but the next time someone wishes you happy birthday,
at least try to be gracious. And you might want to be a little less
self-involved. Those damn “I’m gonna be late” asides the whole drive through
weren’t a lot of fun.”
“Look…”
“I know, I know. I have
no idea of the pressures you are under in your position, blah, blah, blah.
That’s a two-way street, Howie. Try and get it right next time.” Then she
turned and rolled her bike into the shop, shutting the door after her.
He woke slowly. Hovering
in that gray area between sleep and wake, his mind taking on several quick
trips of fancy before bringing him back to reality. He stretched first, long
arms pulling against the air, his neck twisting, straightening, and his legs
kicking at the covers. Finally he let his eyelids slide open to reveal his milk
chocolate dark eyes.
The sun streamed in, slightly
diffused by the off-white sheer curtains that were flowing in the subtle breeze
from coming in from the open windows. He could hear the call of the seagulls,
and the answering crash of waves.
“Well. Look what day it
is. Again.”
He lay back in the bed,
hands clasped behind his head, reviewing the last few “days” in his head. It
defied logic, but he had never been so sure of anything in his life. He’d been
through it three times now, and it looked like today was the fourth.
He probably should be
really fazed by this. But strangely he wasn’t. Not this time at least. “Look at
it this way, Howie. More birthday presents.” He chuckled at the thought.
As “enjoyable” as all
this was, he had to find a way out of it. No one else seemed to have noticed
it, but it was starting to get annoying. He’d always been a bit of a follower;
letting the others take center. He’d preferred to be the peacemaker, the voice
of reason. But he was really starting to chomp at the bit. He wanted to move
things forward! Get out of this loop he seemed to be in. It was nice that he
wasn’t getting any older, but this constant repetition was starting to age him.
The phone rang and he
picked it up, snuggling deeper into the pillows as AJ’s, or should he say
Johnny No-Name’s, version of the birthday song echoed through the phone lines.
“And good morning to you
too, Bone.”
“Someone is awfully calm
today. What happened to ‘omigod it’s that hellish day again Howie?’ I figured
you’d be deep in despair by this time.”
“Its just a birthday.
Things could be worse.”
“Yeah, you could be
Nick.”
Howie laughed. “How did
I know that comparison was coming? Nope, I think being you would be worse than
being Nick.”
“What!? It’s cool to be
me!”
“Let’s see: scrawny ass,
receding hairline, wacky hair – and you can’t tell me that all that hair dye
isn’t seeping into your brain, weird beard that needs mascara to make it look
good, strange tattoos that are gonna look really strange when you’re 50 and
fat…”
“What is this? Make fun
of AJ day? Damn, man, I called to make YOU feel bad, not the other way around.
And I am never gonna be fat. And never 50 either.”
“How you going to avoid
it?”
“Creative date keeping,”
AJ replied with a smug chuckle. “Sort of like my finances…”
“Funny guy. You still
owe me money from the other night.”
“See? Creative book
keeping. It’s what keeps me in hats.”
Howie laughed again. It
was good to laugh; made him forget about all the things that had been getting
him down. All the things that had been making his birthdays feel like some sort
of burden.
“I can’t believe this.
You are actually being relaxed about this. Usually you are so uptight about
your birthday. What gives?”
Howie shrugged, then
realized AJ couldn’t see that. “I just came to the conclusion that today was
just another day. Good things will happen. Bad things will happen. Same as any
other day. It’s no big conspiracy on the part of God to make me miserable. Just
life. So why sweat it?”
“Maybe because you are
so OLD,” AJ tried again to get a rise out of his friend.
“At least I’m not losing
my hair.”
“Who can tell? You keep
it tied up all the time,” AJ shot back. “I’ve had enough of you. I can’t get
you to even flinch. To hell with this. I’ll see you tonight?”
“Yep. Oh, and AJ? Make
sure that the strippers are women, okay?”
He could hear AJ gulp
through the phone line. Then replied just a little too innocently, “strippers?
Would I do that to you? I don’t know where you would get such an idea.”
Brian called and he
chatted amiably with him. He was still in Georgia getting ready for the
wedding. And the jitters were starting to show. Howie had to laugh. The man had
been performing all over the world for years, and he was getting really nervous
about just standing in front of a bunch of friends and family, and saying a few
words. Pledging himself to the woman he loved for the rest of his life. Then
again… if you put it that way, he wasn’t surprised that Brian was edgy.
It was funny: he was
older than Brian (even more so in the past few days), but he wasn’t ready for
the kind of commitment that his friend was making. It wasn’t just that he
hadn’t met anyone he wanted to marry: he wasn’t prepared to get married. He’d
thought about it a little when Kevin got married, but now it really seemed to
be on his mind. “Birthday stuff, probably,” he thought. So he wasn’t in a hurry
to get married. He could live with that. One more pressure off his mind.
He reached over and
picked up the phone, calling the gym. “Hi, it’s Howie Dorough. Yeah, thanks.
Look, I am not going to come in today after all. Yeah, just going to take it
easy. Okay, great. Thanks. I’ll see you then.”
There. He’d taken
charge. No stop at the gym. If that was the thing that was constantly setting
the repetitions off then he’d managed to sidestep it. Of course that left him
with a huge space in his day, but that could be fun. When was the last time
he’d done completely nothing? Just lolled in bed until he felt like getting up?
Took it easy for no other reason than that he could?
“The first day of the
rest of your life, Howie. That’s what a birthday is after all. A day for your
friends and family to let you know they care. No ulterior motives. Just saying,
hey, we’re glad you’re around. Save the jaded and bitter feelings for another
day. Just enjoy this one,” he thought as he slid out of bed.
He gazed out the window
at the beach below him. It was lightly populated, despite the beautiful
weather. Of course it being a Tuesday meant that it was usually this empty. So
he didn’t have a bodyguard around. Big deal. It had been a while since he went
for a walk along the beach and he was going to do it. Heck, it had been a while
since he’d looked his life as anything other than a celebrity treadmill. He
wasn’t all that; time to get over himself.
He hopped in the shower,
just to get the sleep out of his eyes. Okay, so he also did a quick inventory
to see that nothing had changed over night. Nope, no ear hair. And the few
wrinkles he could find were more laugh lines than anything. Yes, there were a
few frown furrows on his forehead. He’d have to be a little careful about
those, but they were nothing he couldn’t handle.
And no, he hadn’t shrunk
where it counts.
He chortled at himself
for checking that. What is it with guys and their penises?
He rinsed the shampoo
out of his hair and started to spread lather over his torso. He scrubbed his
underarms, and moved down his chest, enjoying the feel of the soap against his
body. He took special care around his groin. Not bigger, not smaller, but at
least it’d be clean.
He was just finishing up
when the soap slipped from his hand and plunked on the floor of the tub.
He was sure that they
could hear his laughter even as far as the gym.
The beach had been
great. Sure, he’d been recognized a few times, but it had been pleasant, and
not at all overwhelming. The fans he’d met had been genuinely happy to see him,
and to offer birthday greetings. He’d even exchanged phone numbers with one
elderly couple who were big fans. He was certain that his parents and they
would really hit it off. Ever since their move from the ancestral Dorough home
they had found it a little hard to start new friendships. He’d see what he
could do to help out.
It actually felt like a
huge weight had been taken off his shoulders. A weight that he hadn’t even
noticed was there, he thought as he walked into the local Starbucks. He ordered
a grande tea, and waited, lost in his own thoughts. Maybe that had been his
problem. He EXPECTED his birthday to be this huge deal. Sort of like it had
been when he was a child. And now that he was older it was a bit of a
disappointment. It lacked that surprise and fervor it had had back then. It
never measured up. So he’d started looking for the bad things, not seeing the
good. Maybe if he…
He turned quickly, and
bumped into the person standing behind him, splashing hot water all over them.
The woman gave a short scream then jumped back, trying to hold her now hot and
soaked clothes away from her skin.
“Omigod, I am so sorry.
I wasn’t watching. I… Don’t I know you?”
She stopped shaking her
shirt, and swearing quietly under her breath, and looked at him. A smile came
over her face. “Yeah. You do, but I am surprised you remember. Hi, Howie.”
How could he not
recollect her face? He’s seen it over and over again on each of his
‘birthdays.’ Same dark brown eyes, wide smile and long dark auburn hair.
“Toronto, right? We met after the concert there?”
“Yeah,” she nodded, eyes
betraying her surprise that he remembered. “I didn’t expect to bump into you
down here. Though it is your home state and all.”
He grinned. “Actually I
think it was me bumping into you, not the other way around.”
She grimaced, looking
down at her white t-shirt. It now had a brown stripe down the front from where
the tea had stained it. “Damn, I just bought this too,” she muttered. Then
shrugged. “Oh well, white attracts dirt.”
“Or tea. I am really
sorry I soaked you,” he said politely, though he had to admit he wasn’t minding
the way the shirt now hugged her breasts. Or the slight reaction she was
showing as the hot water was rapidly turning chill. “Can I get you something to
drink?”
“I was actually about to
order a tea. Though I think I just got one,” she replied wryly. He laughed,
then order a tea for her, and some more water for his. He handed her the cup,
carefully, and steered her to a table outside in the sun.
“So if you are from
Toronto what are you doing here?”
“Getting splashed by
Backstreet Boys. Kidding, though not really. Actually I am on a week’s
vacation. It has been a crappy summer up north. Not bad, just inconsistent. And
I wanted sun! Even if I had to go far afield to get it. Besides, the beaches
here are real beaches. Not lake ones.”
He turned his head,
soaking up more of the sun. “I know what you mean. It’s been a pretty good
summer here. Busy, but great.”
“So can I descend into
the realm of rabid fan for a moment and ask: when IS the new album coming out?”
He laughed. “Soon. Very
soon.”
“Right. Like that helps.
I want DATES, Howie,” she said mock-sternly. “Hey, talking about dates… Isn’t
it your birthday?”
That made him chuckle.
“Yeah. My birthday. Again.”
She frowned at his tone
of voice. “Well, happy birthday. And if it helps you don’t look older.”
“Thanks. This is one of
the few that actually doesn’t make me feel older too.”
She sighed. “I know what
you mean. I hate my birthday.”
“Really? I thought I was
the only one.” He paused. “Sorry, what is your name again?”
“Kat.” She held out her
hand. “Pleased to meet you not-so-old Birthday boy.” He smiled and shook her
hand. “No, I can’t stand my birthday. Something always goes wrong. And my mother
calls me every year to tell me how long and arduous labour with me was. I
swear, according to her it took longer and longer each year.”
“I know what you mean
about things going wrong. At least my Mama doesn’t do that.”
“It’s been worse ever
since I passed her date. You know, the age she was when she had me? I think its
her oh-so-subtle way of telling me she wants grandkids. Though how I am
supposed to get that from ‘oh the pain, the pain,’ I don’t know.”
That really did make him
laugh. They had been chatting affably for a while when the alarm on Howie’s
watch chimed.
“Damn. I better go. I’m
going to be late for the party.” He looked over at Kat. “You wouldn’t be
interested in coming to a birthday party with me, would you? As my guest?”
Kat blushed. “Umm. I’d
love to. But…” she gestured at her stained shirt.
“You look fine. Okay,
the shirt isn’t so great, but I am sure I have a white one that you can borrow.
I live just over there. Please? Say you’ll come with me?”
“It’d take a stronger
woman than me to say no to her favourite Backstreet Boy,” Kat smiled, and this
time it was Howie who blushed.
Kat’s jaw dropped as he
walked into Howie’s condo. “This place is incredible!”
“It did turn out pretty
good, didn’t it?” he replied with some pride. He gave her a quick tour, ending
with this huge walk-in closet where they found a top that worked with the skirt
that Kat was wearing. He changed quickly too, and a short while later they were
pulling up in front of the restaurant in Howie’s purple Corvette.
Not that he’d been
worried, but Kat seemed to settle in with the people at the party quite
quickly. She discussed recipes with his mother, and even managed to get his
father to tell some of his old police stories. She’d to put AJ in his place
when he pulled out his flirtatious side. Heck, she’d even managed to make
“Johnny” blush with some comment, that Howie really wished he’d been close
enough to hear. He needed all the material he could get; when Johnny came out
to play he usually seemed to make the most fun of Howie.
She was still discussing
the relative merits of the Backstreet Project with Nick when his parents left.
And AJ’s not-so-unexpected surprise appeared. And so did Nick’s. Those two
really did need to talk to each other more: what the hell was he supposed to do
with two strippers?
He was trying to figure
that out, as both performed their show in front of him, each trying to outdo
each other with their shakes and shimmies. The thoughtful expression must have
shown on his face, because Kat tapped him on the shoulder and offered him
another Corona with a grin on her face.
Then leaned close to his
face, glanced at the two women (thankful they were women), then back at him and
said quietly, but confidently, “I can do much better than that.”
His mouth went dry at
the thought.
And she did too. Once
they returned to his condo, barely able to keep their hands off each other, she
gave him his birthday present. The only one she had time to prepare, she said
with a mischievous grin. When she finally came into his arms his body was
shaking so hard with anticipation he was afraid it was going to be over as soon
as it started.
It wasn’t.
If he thought her striptease
was seductive, Kat treated him to a slow tease that really had his head
reeling. Slowly, delicately, she covered his body with light kisses and a few
nibbles. Her hands, and then her mouth, pinched and caressed his nipples, then
moved down his chest to his taut stomach. Then lower.
He thought he was never
going to catch his breath again. But with lightning speed, he twisted her over
onto her back and returned the favour. Soon they were both in that same
deliriously agitated state, and when he finally slid into her both of them
cried out their pleasure at the sensation.
It was late, or rather
very early when they both finally slid into sleep.
And when he woke the
next day, it was to the knowledge that, finally, his birthday was over. Past.
Done. Yesterday.
He sighed happily as he
burrowed under the covers, pulling Kat’s warm body next to his. She murmured
drowsily, then snuggled close to him, her hands slowly wandering across his
body. They found his hard, long shaft and started to stroke it to greater
attention. His hands moved over her, cupping her firm breasts, then rubbing her
back. He started to nibble on her neck, quickly moving to that spot he’d
discovered the night before. The spot that made her whole body moan.
A long while later Kat
stretched languorously and murmured “good morning.”
“Very good so far,” he
replied huskily as his hand continued to stroke her stomach.
“Too true,” she smiled,
her hand doing a similar movement. Then she sat up and looked at him as her
hand moved down his body. “Howie?”
“Hmm?”
“Okay, weird question,
but… Why do you drive that souped-up muscle car? I mean it is not as if you
have to compensate for anything.”
The End
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