sept.12.99 if you know me personally, i guarantee youve heard all this before. and you know how much i love to tell it. so read it anyway and tell me how cute i am again. :P ok... first off, i should say that i am a huge huge orgy fan. i consider the obsession crazy and sick, and pathetic at times. theyre just so beautiful... and their music speaks to me. i love them tons.... dont laugh. anyway, ive now been to see them three times. last tuesday was the third. and it blew the first two completely entirely out of the water. it was the *fuckingawesomest* thing and i'll remember it for as long as i remember anything. so ok. we get there (we being me and my bestest friend jenny... and her brother. jenny is the only person i know who shares the crazy obsession. so this is the company for every orgy show - her brother is 2o something and her parents make him escort us.. so yeah... ) so we get there and wriggle our way to the front of the crowd (just me and jenny. her brother.. i dunno, he disappears at this point) and like no other show, there is no barrier between the crowd and the stage. the one kid in front of me is resting with his elbows on top of the stage while we wait for mindless self indulgence to open up the show. this is how close i am to all the action. hehe. so msi comes out, they fucking rawked. tho i coulda done without all their spit all over me, but whatever. i loved them lots and im working on finding their cd as right now i only have 2 promo type tapes each with only 2 songs... no one carries it tho its in all the computers... oh well... anyway... so after they leave, we musta stood around for at least an hour before orgy finally came out... sigh.... they played about two songs when some kid behind me to my left in the audience is yelling insults at jay (i later heard he was calling him gay and stuff...) anyway, jay (the beautiful singer) stops singing and is yelling right back at the kid. they get to spitting right in each others faces. jay goes "come up here. get up here now. you, yeah, you, up on the stage" in this adorable way, all insulted and challenging the kid... upon the kid's refusal jay leaps from the stage at the kid.... my god, never ever expected that one. i was in the area of people all holding up his body, im like o my god im touching him.... and his leg somehow comes to rest on my shoulder where at this point i'm like caressing it, i dunno, craziness on my part, but i had to touch him.. heh... anyway... i dunno whats going on with them but jay's in the crowd standing somewhere behind me, but im watching ryan shuck (the guitarist... he's my favorite guy in the whole world... hehe.... )and he gets all -thats-my-boy- and jumps into the crowd after jay.... i am flipping out inside but i remained calm outwardly at first... i guess everyone gets settled, nothing really happened while they were in there i dont think.... so jay's back up on the stage and ryan is still in the crowd- get this- so right next to me that my left side is pushed against his right.... im like dying.. i try to get his attention but he's all cencentrating on getting back on stage, so im like well screw his attention then, im touching the man. i start out, lol, with my hand just on his shoulder, he was wearing his shirt that has a full sleeve on the left and no sleeve on the right, so i decide to touch his tattoo.. hehe... and then i grabbed the side of his belly... and squeezed it... he was so warm and squishy... lol. i know, im a nut. i dunno what i was thinking, it was impulse... hehe. so eventually he gets back on stage (yeah and i help push him up) and im like totally completely shaking inside, comepletly happy and full like, not knowing what to do with myself - I JUST TOUCHED MY FAVORITE MAN IN THE WORLD... like for a long ass time! ok, so maybe youre like, whoa, this girl is so easily amused.... i guess yer right then... it meant a lot what can i say?! heh. one day i'll meet them and i'll eat chinese food with ryan shuck and this day will mean little to me, but until then... yeah, so they played an awesome show, there was a really cool vibe to it that i dont remember in any other show. later, jon davis (of korn) appeared like completely out of nowhere, and sang revival with them, where the crowd went insane and i got surrounded by sweaty inner elbows as people tried to go over me to touch him.i could barely hear or see. it was kinda funny. it was awesome tho, i love revival and im glad i got to see that live with jon. i reached for him at one point but i was so close that i didnt get a hand or anything sane, i get a handful of his hair...lol, i didnt want that! i made eye contact a bunch with jay and ryan, once with paige, i met james, the singer from m.s.i after the show, he was really sweet, and adorable. i found three big ass bruises the next day, from crazy crowd people... and my hair was so nasty... i scrubbed the filth from me so hard i was a big red cherry coming out of the shower. (i had to- there was this gross sweaty man next to me and that made me feel so dirty)... yeah so maybe this isnt much to you, but im a simple girl with simple joys and it was fucking awesome. so there. la la la.... <3 jacqueline ps-if you were there, email me and tell me how fucking cool it was. maybe we met.. ya never know.
This Velvet Sky Of Mine
