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RETURN By Longdog
It had been three abysmally long months for Walter Skinner. Three months of being assailed by memories of his lover, Fox Mulder. Three months of remembering their times together, and knowing that they would never come again. And three months of imagining what Mulder's death had been like. In short, it was three months of absolute Hell. Skinner was haggard, and had visibly lost weight. At best, his
The mandatory meetings with Deputy Director Alvin Kersh only made things
worse. Kersh's arrogant disdain for all things involving Fox Mulder
had been apparent from the first. His ill-concealed joy at the man's
demise had ignited a deep-seated rage in Skinner that he found hard to
conceal. John Doggett's permanent assignment to the X-Files as Scully's
new partner also rubbed the wrong way, as did Doggett's attitude towards
Mulder and the X-Files in general. Skinner would gladly have quit the FBI
save two things: his vow to
Not that Dana Scully had exactly been tolerant of his attempts to watch
over her. She had problems with the pregnancy from the start, and
he had tried to make her take more leave, only to become the recipient
of "the eyebrow" thing she used to bestow on Mulder. It stopped him
in his tracks. But he still called her nearly every night, and occasionally
would stakeout her building, just to see if she was being watched by anyone
(besides himself). He had a gut feeling that Krycek was skulking
around nearby, but so far had seen no sign of him. If it came down
to his own life, or Scully's, his choice had already been made. Scully
carried the last bit of his lover within her, and Walter would protect
her and that baby at all
Today, he had finally decided to have mercy on both himself and his staff, and go home early. As he got into his car and drove out of the parking garage, it seemed the entire building breathed a sigh of utter relief. He drove home slowly though, since he was going home to an empty condo, stopping at the liquor store to procure more of his favorite scotch. He planned to do some serious drinking tonight. Skinner sat on his couch, with the bottle and glass on the coffee table
in front of him, and poured himself a stiff one. Immediately he thought
of the joke Mulder would have made out of that manner of speech….//Ooooooh,
Walter! A stiff one??? All for me??// Until they had become lovers,
he had never realized how quick-witted and playful the man had been.
Being with Fox had given Walter a new lease on
At night, he would dream of lying with Fox. His sweet Fox. No one ever bothered to get to know the real person that lurked under that irritating façade that Mulder threw up to protect himself. Skinner himself had been surprised to find that a sweet, gentle man was hiding beneath the arrogant, difficult exterior. A truly beautiful man, with a beautiful soul to match. When they made love, Fox gave himself totally to Walter….he held nothing back. At once sweet and seductive, he brought out in Walter feelings that Skinner had thought long dead. Now, they were dying again. After three drinks, Skinner fell asleep on the couch, and began to dream
of Fox again. They were upstairs making love in Skinner's huge bed.
He kissed Fox, his tongue thrusting deeply into that lush mouth even has
his cock thrust deep into that tight, exquisite ass. Mulder whimpered
as Skinner drove deep into him, that massive cock banging against his prostate
was pure ecstasy. He yelped, and was answered by one of Walter's
much-loved growls. Skinner picked up the pace and
He woke, a warm stickiness in his underwear, still on the couch.
He was momentarily disoriented, but finally realized where he was, and
that his wonderful interlude was just a dream. He sighed miserably,
shaking his head in sad denial, when something caught his eye. There
was a man, a naked man, standing on the stairs watching him…no, not "a
man"…it was Mulder! He saw him clearly, saw the scars on his
Shaking, he sat back down on the couch, trying to calm himself, and
think about this rationally. God, wouldn't it be just like Fox Mulder
to decide to come back as a ghost and haunt him! Visions of Walter
Skinner starring as Topper came to mind, and he laughed, partly in humor,
and partly hysteria. No, he was a Marine, and they don't get hysterical.
He was tired, that's all. And he had too much to drink. Time
to suck it up, Skinner. You have a mother and baby to protect! He
had just managed to convince himself that it was another dream,
Billy Miles. Billy Miles had been found dead thousands of miles from where he had been abducted. But then, he was alive. Alive, after spending MONTHS in the water. He sat trying to fathom how this could happen, when the significance of the fact finally hit him….alive after months in the water. Alive when he had been dead…Oh, God!!! FFOOOOXXXXX! He had stood at Mulder's graveside when they buried him in North Carolina….but was Fox really dead? He didn't know whether to pray that Mulder was truly dead, or pray that he had been…oh God no…BURIED ALIVE! He was already making the calls necessary to arrange seats for two on
a flight to North Carolina as he ran up the stairs to pack a bag.
Mindful of Scully's delicate condition, though she would no doubt deck
him if she heard him say that, he commandeered John Doggett to accompany
him to Raleigh, to do the nearly unthinkable and exhume Mulder's body.
Listening to Doggett go on and on about how insane this whole thing was,
Skinner wanted to do some decking himself! Of
He held his breath as the casket was opened. Due to the length
of time Mulder had been dead before being found, his body had not been
embalmed. This fact, plus three more months of decomposition meant
this would be a gruesome task. He marshaled his courage, and stepped
up to the open casket, and was shocked to find no change in Mulder's
The days Mulder spent in the hospital were Hell for Skinner. Once
Scully found out about Mulder's "condition," she refused to leave his side.
Walter wanted so badly to hold Fox's hand, to let him know he was no longer
in that damn coffin, that he was alive and that his lover was here, waiting
for him to wake up. He wanted to stroke his face, and run his fingers
through his hair, but it would have to wait until they were alone.
Then Krycek made his grand entrance with his damn palm pilot, and his damn
bargain; to keep Mulder from becoming one of those "things," all Walter
had to do was kill his lover's child. Oh, God! He knew that
if he kept that bargain, Mulder would
He peered out the door, and then locked it. Stepping to Mulder's bedside, he began ripping out leads, wires, tubes….anything he could find that might be keeping the man alive. Alarms were going off, calling for assistance, but Skinner kept going. His heart was breaking, but he knew he couldn't trust Krycek. If it meant that both he and Mulder would die, so be it. At least they would be together. But still, Mulder breathed. Skinner reached for the pillow, intending to smother whatever small spark of life was still flickering, when the door burst open, and John Doggett stopped him. It turned out that by trying to kill Mulder, he had actually pointed
the way to saving him. Bizarre, but then this was Mulder. Nothing
"normal" ever happened to the man. The bizarre was commonplace when
dealing with Fox William Mulder. But how could Skinner face his lover
after trying, really trying, to kill him? Would Fox understand?
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