He is so special to me.  Maybe even more so because he is my one brush with a real relationship and, as Dionne Warwick says, "I know I'll never Love this way again." And at the same time, he is the embodiment of all the things I love about gay men. And so, a dilemma--how to let go when the time comes. As Straight Lines say: "The Hardest Part of Love is Letting Go."