The club was fun last night, even though I'm ovulating. Not sketchy at all, although some of the more seasoned neurotic alcoholics were out of town. Not a bad thing. Fun folks last night. Some out of towners. Some hottie guys. Some dumb women, but all par for the course. ___ did an awesome job for me--knew that he would. They wanted to stick me with ___, but I requested a real busser. ___ was not particularly helpful, and ___ just has too much "I'll just do it myself" in her.

The show on Friday kicked ass! Country, well, small town themed (and all I keep thinking is "we shouldn't laugh when someone says they're going to Climax, but we do anyway!") ___ is amazing. I hope she never stops smiling, and she'll make one hell of an Empress!! ___ hosted, and you had to see that cow outfit--too funny!

___ and ___ accidentally became roomates while they weren't looking. Seems to be okay, I think. Talked to ___ briefly, but not sure how to broach it with ___. We're getting better, but there's still a nervousness on my part. He raked me over the coals after XF ended pretty badly, and I think I still have the scars.

Got to talk to ___ twice this weekend. Oi, don't get me started. Yeah, yeah, I know, I'm a delusional, optimistic, head in the clouds, get a life, big time loser, what the hell are you thinking goof, but there it is nevertheless. And hey, if it's all for naught, I've still memories, right? Besides, no one is ever going to get closer than ___ and ___, cos they're safe. Completely. In that "they don't really exist" way *L* But you know what I mean. I have all the control there, and nothing can hurt me. Oi, I sound so bitter, which was not my intent. I mean, I'm in love, that means that I should be burping rainbows and farting stardust, right? *L* Okay, I know, I know, I'm analyzing too much. I'm just going to go with it, hope for the best, but get the paintings out of the way--you know what I mean, and not try to make it more than it is, or, more my MO, less than it is. And it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks.

___ had some surgery this week. Well, not some--someprettyserious, actually. Is that a word? *L* Hey, if usedacould is a word, so can that be. I've been praying for him. ___ has introduced me to the power of prayer, and that has been an interesting journey, but I'm liking the results--in life, and in myself. Don't think I'm quite at the "let go and let God" phase of life, and I've no desire to get up for mass every Sunday, but hey, it's something new, which is impressive enough for me as it is, and it's something that's working for me :) Okay, I keep getting off on these tangents, but I wanted to say that I think ___ is brave and wonderful, and he means a lot to me. Oh, and ___ and ___ got him flowers, and not only are they gorgeous, but so are they for doing that! Isn't that right, ___?

Okay, you are invited to a party. A kitchen party!! It's going to be next Sunday, I think. It's a Kitchen Party at my place. Music, snacks, entertainment and silly hats. Your hosts at large are ___ and ___ and it's BYOCC--bring your own coffee cup. Lets see--there'll be music to make you dance, sing, laugh and cry, with a beautiful cover on the cd. There's going to be rice krispie squares, in theory, although I suspect that's almost like cooking, so you never know...*L* ___, you may have to come make them. With M and Ms, since apparently they make all the difference. Making microwave popcorn is also almost like cooking, but since it's special popcorn, I can probably swing it--

I kid--I'm actually a pretty fair cook

--I don't have to cook the blueberries--just eat em! :) The coffee may not last til the party--yum yum--oh, and the hats, the hats, don't let me get away without mentioning the hats. Bloody brilliant and sweeter than maple syrup, those two. Oh, and we can watch a movie. On DVD...

Yeah, I cried. Again. But again, not those bad 'ew, don't I suck I don't deserve this' tears, more the 'oh my Lord, what miracles have you brought me in the shape of these friends?' way. I know, that probably sounds goofy, but really. I am so blessed with some of the most wonderful people on earth, both here and on the dark side of the moon *L* and I am thankful daily to have them in my life.

We might have two parties, cos I'd love to do it next week, and get my dear friend ___ over here, since little wifey is out of town that day. But ___ is off to visit the homefolks next week as well, so could only be around for an hour or so. Also, I want to get a response back to the boys asap, so yeah, I think 2 parties it is! :)

Wish I could just put 'em all on a plane--___, ___,  ___ and ___. And have 'em right here. Sitting on the couch, okay in the hole on the couch. ___ could have the rocker--easiest out for him. We'd give ___ a kitchen chair--for his back. I think everyone would fit. We could watch old drag shows or sumthin *L* I know, I know, see the paragraph above for my "im a dreamer' rant.

Okay, gotta bunch of shit to do today, and brunch too, so gotta fly.

Thanks again, boys. Much love to you all...