October 5, 1984

Life sucks.  I skip just too many classes.  But I don't care.  I just want to go home and go to bed.  Like, I feel so-o-o low! I know, I know, you're saying you think you got problems? Ha ha!! Well, fuck you.  I wonder if ___ has left yet. I shouldn't worry, but I do.  It's just how I am. And how am I, you ask? Well, how does 'hopeless, just fucking hopeless,' sound?
I would kill to see ___ or ___, really, I would. Well, I'm gonna cruise.
Do you really want to hurt me? Do you really want to make me cry? Obviously, yes. I was gonna leave, but I didn't. Give me strength. The razor blades and bleach are looking mighty tempting.  But I'm gonna die of cancer, anyway, so who gives a shit? It just doesn't matter, it just doesn't matter! But nobody really cares...