MAY 18, 2003

NEGATIVES

-ah the eternal money woes, and how they never end, which of course is what eternal means...
-getting that little spanking at the club for perceived bad behaviour...uh huh, sure, whatever...
-needing those long talks WAY more than is good for me...and not just with one of 'em...
-___ not feeling good. That sucks, in a shared history and this cannot happen way, if ya know what I mean, which I hope you do, cos somedays I'm not really sure what I mean...
-no help on the bankruptcy front, although thanks for the tip, ___.
-my skanky bathroom...
-more o/t winners that won't do the job, and despite my enjoyment of them periodically, not to mention my 'so not my issue' attitude towards the organization, it still ticks me off a little.
-___'s persistent denial of wrongdoing with ___, and how he needs to just step back from the fat boyfriend for a minute, take a look a the trainwreck that he's making of his life, cowboy it up and fix things...there's nothing wrong with him deep down, it's just on the surface that he's a prick!
-dumb ass smoking...
-dealing with issues that aren't even my own, wondering if it's worth the effort, and wondering too if it's going to damage me to do it ie. questioning my own journey and strengths, which of course then turns into a 'is Michele a good enough person to deserve anything beyond crap?' kinda rant, which doesn't lead to hugs and puppies!

POSITIVES:

-my fabulous living room!
-my equally fabulous clean laundry!
-watching ___ lose control of the English language last night. Ah, girl, we've been there and back, haven't we?
-Trixie Pan Am in a bunny suit!
-holy crap is the writing ever going good! I'm terribly excited about it, and not only is my crossover well over half done!!! amazing in itself, but I've already got preliminary notes for the new Vacation story. Yay me!
-Buffy the Vampire Slayer (I will not get sucked in in that xfiley way, though, cos no matter how many tears Spike cries, nor how many times Giles gets bopped in the head, it still can't outdo the 'this part is for our target audience of 18-25 year old males' girls in tight pants highkicking crap...)
-Speed Divas
-oh, hey, I mentioned the couch last week before I got it, and now I have it and it's super comfy!
-downloading music, and finally getting the remix of Move to Move by Kon Kan, after having suffered through the album version lo these many years--just not the same!
-Teen Girl Squad #3!