NEGATIVES:
-not enough hours in the day
-being unable to make all my writing commitments, be they beta, to the list, or to personal stuff, and wondering just how long the human body can go without sleep
-missing ___ more than I should, and wishing I could talk more with ___, and hating myself for wondering if that's some reflection on me when I know it's just a baseball game.
-lies about things that don't need to be lied about
-no money, and almost making the bills, although almost doesn't really count when they cut off the power, now does it ;)
-my computer getting older and twitchier, and living in fear of it up and dying abruptly, and then what the fuck would I do?
-wanting ___ more than he wants me
-still itchy, and facing eight or nine more weeks of it, and don't even get me started on scratching in my sleep--my chest looks like hamburger, and isn't that just too hot. Yeesh!!
-getting stuff ready to mail out, and then not being able to afford the damned postage
-borrowing guilt over the staff meeting, when I don't do anything wrong, but thinking that I do just cos it comes up in a meeting.

POSITIVES
-the teddy bear that mom and dad sent me
-knowing that ___ loves me.
-knowing that ___ is akickin and live, as he says, and the warm feeling that gives me.
-the first real snow, and how I get that warm Christmas feeling just seeing it, and a craving for country music and coffee with friends
-parental visits
-___ being very considerate of my financial state right now, and keeping those barshifts a comin'
-Ben and Jerry's Half Baked ice cream
-___, who's been a great pal lately, and don't even get me started on those glasses!
-___ from Milwaukee, who provided just the right Yankee relief last night.
-___ and ___, who have proved, if only briefly, that lesbians are not all man-hating, stupid, lazy, self pitying cows *L*