NEGATIVES:
--being left out of the loop, no matter the rationale behind it
--secret agent man crap, whether it's the Board, or the job, or just any ol' 'need to know' basis...makes me feel like shit.
--living in low grade mortal terror pretty much 24/7, and actually asking myself if eating glass wouldn't be easier some days.
--the impotence of seeing good friends in pain and not being able to do a damned thing about it.
--still trying to find a busser to be my psychic friend on Saturdays
--coronation in two weeks, and I don't have a thing to wear *L* Never mind getting a ball ticket *L*
--stupid bank messing with my paycheque and having my rent cheque bounce--what the fuck is that?
--summer's last hurrah, and having to be the sweaty fat broad for another week. Bleah!
--finding myself in a funny place spiritually when I need to be in a much more secure place. So whacked.
--my storage room--uh, bedroom. Right. There's a bed in there...somewhere...

POSITIVES:
--drinks and Divaing and tv with ___, reconnecting and feeling good about it.
--being asked to do protocol at the Owl show, and taking it as a sign that they think I'm clever and organized, not that I'm too old and fat to be on stage.
--making some political statements with PTCS.
--Friday night chat, and the simple reconnection.
--___'s smiles and ___'s wit and ___'s new satellite service *L* I'd add ___ here, but there's no joy there, just the flu, and I ran out of room in the negatives.
--parental units coming to visit on Wednesday
--no big thing, but I got this adorable picture frame at the dollar store. It's small, with a space for the pic underneath a stylized coffee cup raised on the frame, which is all a brushed silver. And I had the perfect picture for it. *And* it matches the one I have with the stars on it that I put the pic of ___ in. Little things, but powerful for me.
--___'s sense of humour--he made me laugh last night when all I wanted to do was cry
--being a better bartender than ___, and also being the bigger person (no, not literally)--I could have totally fucked him up if I wanted to, but I didn't.
--One week of notice down, just four shifts to go!!!!!!!!!!!!