Chatted with ___ tonight. Very free and easy conversation. It's all about trust. Oh, and registering your china pattern, as it were, at Gay Dreams R Us...I think you had to be there, but suffice to say it was a fabulous conversation.

My mouth feels better.

I hope tomorrow goes okay. I could have done more, there's no doubt about that, but then I think things like, hell they're just lucky I bring myself back into this world long enough to sell a few cds and sling a few cocktails. The more I'm here, the more I think I don't want to be.

Don't know where ___'s head is at these days, but it makes me to sad to think about for long.

___ is a loser.

___'s birthday was great fun. Coaster toss shooters, and I think everyone won! I love him, and miss him bunches. Don't know what's happening there, either, but at this point, I've pretty much given up trying. I can't understand, neither can they, fuck it. I'll have to make do, and they will to. I won't live my life to suit the expectations of others.

I WILL eat the blue ones first...

Later...not brunch this time, it's Sat. night--I'm just wiped out...