Wow.  Soft focus aside, my thoughts have never been more skewed.  Not to mention sketchy and dysfunctional...I put the fun in there, I suppose...R.L. hasn't seemed so much of a threat since high school.  Think I know why, but there are some thoughts that are better left off the page, methinks. Like to give them print would be to make them too real, like someone would walk up out of nowhere and say yes, you're right, there is nothing there, never was, and the sooner you let go and get over it the better.  And how much would that suck ass...
Am so all about ___ and ___ right now.  Another ___ and ___ dynamic going on where I am enjoying one for the ___ thing and the other for the ___ thing.  It's different now, since before I never looked for the ___ thing, and it probably wouldn't have done it for me at all.  Of course, this could be just another one of those ill-fitting suits that I tend to try and cram people into, make it fit no matter what, and then feel all sorry for myself when they complain that the tie is choking them.  Or is the wrong colour for that matter.
I'm worried about ___. I hope he and ___ are all right.  I can't even talk about my relationship with ___ right now, but thanks for asking.  Not that anyone did, except maybe ___, and that was just in my head, right?  Right?  Backing away slowly...
Am looking forward to Friday, it should be loads o fun, I hope.  It's all about getting ___ drunk, cuz it's funny.  It is not all about getting ___ drunk, cos that just depresses me.  And, it is all about the darts.  Talk to you again some other life.