The world brings me up and it brings me down. Knowing there's good people out there fighting and voting and making a difference for minorities is a good thing. Knowing that there's homophobes whose only agenda is to hurt and to kill because they can't understand or accept or even love themselves is a horrible thing. Knowing I'm doing the right things, the only things I can, the things I believe in, makes me feel proud. Knowing that it's ignored, ridiculed, spat on and persecuted makes me feel like shit. Knowing I can love and be loved, trust and be trusted, accept and be accepted, tells me that I've learned so much, and that every moment of it all has been worth it. Feeling unloved, or scared of love, feeling rejected or frightened of loathing, feeling like I'm giving a book report naked, all that makes me wonder if I didn't check out of the Monroe wing a little early, or if it even helped a bit.  Knowing there's a Higher Power at work for me and those I love, making the plan that's for us cos the love is Universal, that makes me smile when I say my prayers at night. And knowing that there's shit going on with me and the people I love, and that there's not a fucking thing I can do about it, that makes me rail and weep and shake my fist at the same Universal Love, begging to be let in on the joke, to be told why, why, why...
___, I only wish I'd known you better, and __, I only wish I knew what was wrong....
 
 

Emotional Rollercoaster--Romanovsky and Phillips
Original lyrics:

Life with you's an endless playground
So many games from which to choose
But it don't fill me with childish joy
It only brings me the blues
I used to think stability would only makes us dull
But your moods are so erratic that I'd welcome such a lull
And I don't know how much more of this my fragile heart can take
I'm not as strong as you may think and one day I could break
Ah...
Because you've got me on an Emotional Rollercoaster
You lift me up, you bring me down
And all the time my heart is spinning round and round and round
But it still feels better than being alone on the ground
Life with you is never boring
It's more like Disneyland
Though the thrills are only momentary
You could never call it bland
One day you say you love me and your passion rings so true
And the next day you ignore me, or you tell me that we're through
Each time I think you're gone for good, but you keep coming back
I cannot take much more of this before I'm gonna crack
Ah...
Because you've got me on an Emotional Rollercoaster
You lift me up, you bring me down
And all because you're drooling over some new boy you've found
But it still feels better than being alone on the ground
Wah-ooh, shoo-bop shoo-bop, shoo-bop shoo-bop, ooh
Wah-ooh, shoo-bop shoo-bop, shoo-bop shoo-bop, ooh
Already it's been going on for way too long a time
If I take any more of this I know I'll lose my mind
Because you've got me on an Emotional Rollercoaster
You lift me up, you bring me down
And all it takes is one kind word to turn my heart around
But it still feels better than being alone on the ground
Life with you can be a funhouse
Other times it frightens me
I never know just what is coming next
My Coney Island fantasy
But I'm hoping there will be a change
One day very soon
And we'll sail into the Tunnel of Love
Beneath a crescent moon
But right now you've got me on an Emotional Rollercoaster
You lift me up, you bring me down
And all the time my heart is spinning round and round and round
But it still feels better than being alone on the ground