The Sentinel Season Four Episode
65
The Sentinel by Blair Sandburg
I'm taking a last look around.
I'm so weary. Not tired--jeez no, I slept near about all day yesterday.
Just feeling it all, you know. The years and the mileage *L* The good news
is after five weeks I'm not bleeding anymore, so there's a bonus. Granted,
not much exciting about that except I can masturbate again *L* I have no
money, no smokes, no coffee and no life. Everything makes me weepy--hallmark
cards, burned out lightbulbs, every movie I seem to turn on. (I think I
have to watch Dawn of the Dead or something happy like that). Bone weary.
Can't catch up weary. Feeling left out, lost and sad weary.
Okay, that's the whiny part, and it's just, I dunno, whatever it is
in me that makes me whine. The whine-anator, or whatever. Work is really
good. I don't like the idea that I'm no longer flying under the radar,
but it's going well just the same. My new class is terrific. Couple little
girls, but they'll either quit or get over themselves, just like the last
batch. Some rehires who think they know it all and a bunch of bright boys,
which is a bonus. I'm behind in almost everything in my life but work,
and work is going terrific. I guess I just have to keep my priorities str8
and go from there. It's not a bad thing, and God willing, the other shoe
won't drop.
I saw a movie that said nothing is impossible with God. I've been telling
myself that alot last few days. Helps.
I hope to get some letter writing done as well as housework, and then
there are tests to grade tonight, as we have to review them Monday morning.
Long weekend next week. Yay.
I didn't mention that I got a new computer (hence the brokeness) and
found an FTP program to get my webpage back. I lost alot of stuff, bookmarks,
pics and so on, but I've got quite a bit of it still, and I will just have
to work hard to get this machine up to what the old one was. But this guy
is fast and shiny and I have a new black monitor to match my keyboard.
(It's the little things)
Take care, I'm back to work :)