Angel Of Mine

By: CC

Drew's POV

Is it all right to love someone you shouldn't love? I mean, you can love someone, but I'm talking about really love them? I have that problem and I'm confused about it. I have the foggiest idea on what to do about it. I try so hard not to love her, but some things you have no control over. But there's something about her, that I love and I can't help it.

I want to tell her so bad, how I feel, but I'm afraid that it will ruin our friendship. I've been bestfriends with her for almost 15 years. And I'm not sure if I'm willing to risk those wonderful 15 years over something that I might be going through.

Ashlie, is her name. Beautiful Ashlie. Just saying her name gives me butterflies in my stomach. Ever since I started feeling this way about her, I've been distant. I try so hard not to let her know that I like her more then friends. I sometimes catch myself staring at her for hours. To my surprise she doesn't notice.

I sit up for hours at night, writing her letters explaining how I feel about her, but it seems like there aren't no words in this world that could explain how I feel about her. It's like whenever I see her, the time stops and everyone that is around, stands still. That it's only me and her. No one else on this earth.

I sometimes wonder what is about her, that made me fall in love with her. Maybe her crazy wacky personality or her sweet caring thoughts. Or maybe it's all of her. I can't decide. Everything about her is perfect. She's perfect.

I was sitting around the living room, flipping through the channels when the phone rang. I looked at the caller ID and noticed that it was Ashlie. I picked up the phone with butterflies in my stomach.

"Hello?" I asked.
"Hello, Is Drew there?" She asked, sweetly. Her voice was like angels singing.
"This is him," I said.
"Hey Drew, it's Ashlie. What's up?"
"Oh hey Ash, not much, just being a couch potato. You?"
"Yeah sure. Is something wrong?" I asked, concerned.
"Oh no, nothing wrong. I need some advice on something," She said.
"Well, then you came to the right place."
"I'll be over in 5 minutes," She said.
"Okay Bye," I said and hung up the phone.

I wonder what she needs advice on. Hum.

5 minutes later her car pulled up. She got out of the car and headed up to the house. She didn't bother knocking, just walked right in.

"Drew, I'm here," She called out.
"I'm in the living room Ash," I yelled to her.

I looked up as she walked in the living room. Those butterflies were in my stomach again. She walked over to the couch and took a sit next to me. I turned off the TV and turned my attention to her.

"What can I do for you?" I asked her. She sat there without saying anything for a minute, before she finally spoke.
"Drew, I've noticed for the last couple of weeks, that you've been avoiding me. Why's that?" She asked. Oh boy. I'm in trouble now. And I don't even have an excuse on why. God, what do I do?
"I haven't been avoiding you. What makes you think that?" I asked her.
"Well, everytime I want to do something with you, you always say that you are busy and we'll do something another time. I'm beginning to feel I did something wrong here. If I did, please let me know," She said. I looked up into her beautiful brown eyes.
"No. No. You didn't do anything wrong. I've just been thinking a lot lately and I needed the time to be to myself," I told her. I could see the hurt in her eyes. "I'm sorry Ash."
"There's something else Drew. You can't lie to me. I known you practically my whole life. I know when you're lying." I'm in for it now. I can't tell her now. I haven't even gotten the words on what I want to tell her. I can't do this right now. I got up from the couch and walked to the window.
"I wish I could tell you Ashlie, but I wouldn't know how to explain it," I whispered.
"What Drew? You know you can tell me anything. Maybe I can help. I mean that's what bestfriends are for. To help." She said, getting up from the couch and walked over by me.

My heart started pounding really fast. I swear she could hear it too. I felt very uneasy here. I mean, how do I tell my bestfriend that I love her. That I really love her. I know it's not no puppy love either. God this is hard.

"Drew, please tell me what's going on. You're scaring me," She said.
"I can't," I told her. "I wish I could, but I can't."
"Why?" I turned around and saw a few tears fall from her eyes. I hated when she would cry. It breaks my heart.

Something inside told me to go up to her. I slowly walked up to her. I brought a shaky hand up to her face and lightly brushed the tears away. And the next thing I knew I kissed her.

Ashlie was taken away by what Drew did. At first she hesitated for a moment but wrapped her arms around his neck.

I was surprised by her reaction. I pulled her closer to me. Kissing her passionately. Then something hit me. Why am I kissing my bestfriend. I pulled away from her, leaving her stunned, turning and heading back to the couch.

"I'm sorry Ash, I shouldn't have done that," I told her.
"Done what?" She asked.
"Kissed you. I can't believe I did that. I'm so stupid."
"No. I like it. I've waited years for you to do that," She said. I turned my head and looked at her.
"What?" I asked her, not quite sure what she meant.
"I've waited 5 years for you to do that. To kiss me," She said. "I'm going to come clean here. For many years now, not sure how many, but I've been having different feelings for you." That caught my attention. I turned to face her.
"For so many months I wanted to tell you how I feel about you. But I couldn't think of anything to say or there weren't words in the world to explain how I felt about you."
"Wow! I didn't know you felt that way. God, where have I've been," I told her. She laughed.
"I told you my secret, now you tell me yours," She said.
"Okay." I took a deep breath and just spilled it all.

"I'm in love with you Ashlie. There, I said." I looked up at her, trying to read her face expression.
"How come you didn't tell me?" She said, breaking the silence.
"Probably the same reason why you didn't tell me," I told her.
"Not to ruin the friendship," She said. She came and sat down next to me.
The next thing I knew, I told every little thing. All my feelings for her came out.
"Ever since I was little, I've loved you. But back then, I didn't know what love was. And I pushed those feelings towards you, at the bottom of my heart. The last couple months was when I realized that I couldn't hide from them anymore. I tried so hard not to love you cause I don't want to ruin our friendship. Your friendship means so much to me. It's priceless. And nothing in this world could compare to that. I wanted to tell you so many times but I could never find the words to explain what I felt. I tried writing you unless letters, but I would tear them up cause they weren't good enough. So I will tell you this now and hope it doesn't ruin our friendship. I mean, I don't see why anyone could not love you. You're beautiful, like an Angel sent down from up above. Your personality is one of a kind. You're a wonderful person to be around and anyone would be lucky to have you to call their own." I stopped and took a deep breath.
"I love you Ashlie. And I want you to be mine. Forever and ever. Till the day that we die. Would you be my girl?" I asked. I looked up at her, she was crying. I guess girls really do go for that sappy stuff.

She looked down at her hands. Sweaty and nerves. She never thought that Drew would feel that way about her. She knew in her heart that she loved him deeply and always wanted to be his girl. It was always a dream of hers. To have someone like him to love her. To bring her happiness. What he told her tonight, touched her heart. No one said such sweet, loving words about her. No one told her that she was beautiful like an angel. She looked up at him. That moment on she knew she wanted to be with him. Together forever. Until the day they die. She smiled.

I sat there on the couch, wondering what she was thinking. Maybe she thought I was a dork or something. Man, I can't believe I just told her everything, but it felt so good to get that off my chest. I just wish I knew what she was thinking. Maybe I scared her. Maybe I shouldn't have told her everything. Now she won't even look at me the same. I probably just ruined our friendship. "Way to go. Smart one. You probably just lost the most important person in your life. How could I be so stupid?" I told myself.

"I love you too Drew," She said. I looked up at her. Our eyes met and it felt like everything in my body just melted.
"I love you too Andrew Lachey," She said again.

I leaned forward and kissed her sweetly on the lips. I couldn't believe it. Maybe my doubts were all wrong. Maybe I shouldn't have waited this long to tell her how I felt about her. But there was nothing I could do about the past. But I can do something about the future.

We pulled apart and she wrapped her arms around me.
"And yes, I'd love to be your girl," She whispered in my ear.

A love I never felt before filled my heart.

A year later after Drew told Ashlie how he felt about her, he asked her to marry him. Of course she said yes. Shortly after they got married, Ashlie had their first baby. A boy. She named him after his daddy, Andrew John Lachey.

2 years after their first baby was born, Ashlie had their first daughter, naming her Isabelle Anastasia, Belle for short. Drew loved is daughter. He says that she looks so much like Ashlie.

Now she was expecting their 3 child. Another girl, Fiona Rae. He's proud of his children. He couldn't ask for anyone else to have his baby. And he was more excited for the waiting of their 3 child, daughter, Fiona. He tells Ashlie that she's an angel sent down from up above.

"I love you Drew," Ashlie told him one night as they were out on the porch of their house that they bought together. He came up behind her and wrapped his arms around her, placing them on her swollen stomach. She placed her hands over his.
"I love you too Angel," He said and kissed her neck.

"Angel of mine," He whispered. She turned her head. He bent down and kissed her lightly on the lips.

The End

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