“I’m sorry” Justin told him once again, as soon as
Josh had opened the door. He was sick of those words but truth was he was sorry
and he still wanted Josh to like him. Josh looked bored.
“Sure”
Josh said simply, not going into the apology, getting ready to close the door.
But Justin pushed the door open and stepped inside before Josh even had the
chance to react.
“Okay,
you’re obviously not going to believe me” Justin said suddenly, grasping Josh’s
upper arms to make him look him in the eye after closing the front door, Josh
still in shock.
“Tell
me; how can I make it up to you?” he questioned finally, willing to do whatever
it took to get Josh to like him, to forgive him.
“I
mean it, just tell me what I have to do” he added as Josh didn’t answer right
away.
Josh
sighed, not really wanting to answer the question, he looked away wanting to
avoid the question then suddenly an idea popped in his head and he said the
words before he could stop himself.
“Be
my slave” Josh grinned. Josh watched how Justin’s eyes grew in shock and he
took a step back, releasing Josh’s arms. Justin’s seemingly great plan, came
back to bite him in the ass. Josh figured Justin’s response would be ‘Screw
you’. However it was Josh’s turn to open his eyes in shock when he heard
Justin’s next words.
“If
that is what you want, it seems only fair, doesn’t it?” he agreed, ending in a
question, still looking ashamed.
“What?”
Josh gasped.
“You
didn’t think I was serious?” Justin asked.
“No,
I thought… I didn’t think you’d do that… for me” Josh breathed in shock, sure
he wasn’t worth the trouble, sure Justin wouldn’t want to go through so much
trouble to prove he did really like him. What would Justin want with him?
“I
would, I like you Josh and I want to get to know you. I know I handled it wrong
and I want to make it up to you, if you want me to be… your slave fine I’ll do
it”
Josh
had trouble grasping the words. How could Justin agree to this? Did he really
want to get to know him this bad?
“Are
you serious?” Josh asked still astonished.
“I
am, yes. Anything to make it up to you” Justin told him honestly, gently
grasping Josh’s hands. Josh didn’t pull back this time, he stared at their
entwined hands before lifting his eyes slowly to meet Justin’s. He looked
sincere, he seemed to mean it, honestly. If this wasn’t prove that Justin did
indeed mean it, he didn’t know what else was. He was definitely serious about
wanting to be with him and the trust would have to grow just like in any
relationship. Josh smiled finally, for the first time at Justin and it made the
butterflies in his stomach go wild.
“Okay”
Josh nodded once, agreeing.
“Okay
what?” Justin questioned; they were okay or he would be Josh’s slave?
“Just
shut up and kiss me” Josh demanded, smiling at Justin’s confusion.
“Yes
sir” Justin agreed, Josh wouldn’t have to tell him this twice and his first
duty as a slave was easily fulfilled as he brought Josh closer and their lips
met in a gentle kiss.
***
Weeks
went by without anyone noticing about the new relationship that had arisen in
their school. Josh and Justin were pleased with that; they wanted to keep their
relationship a secret it was something they’d decided together. Justin had
reassured Josh that if he wanted to tell the whole world he didn’t mind. He wanted
to make sure Josh realized that he wouldn’t let his reputation come between
them, not again, Josh was more important than his reputation. The last thing
Justin wanted was for Josh to think he didn’t want everybody to know about
their relationship because of his stupid reputation. The only reason he wanted
to keep it a secret was because he just didn’t want to share Josh with anyone
else and Josh’s trust in Justin grew a little bit more with those words.
However he didn’t really need to test Justin’s words and he really didn’t want
everyone to know either nor did they want the attention and so they’d
occasionally seek eye contact in class or talk in the hallways but they never
touched or kissed each other at school. They didn’t want to share it with the whole
world, this was private.
Josh’s
suggestion for Justin to become his slave now was pretty much dropped
instantly. Justin had insisted that if Josh needed prove that he was serious he
would do it, not realizing that by simply saying that he was already proving
his sincerity about their relationship and it was prove enough for Josh. He
really didn’t want a slave, he wanted a boyfriend.
***
“Justin?”
Josh addressed his boyfriend as they hung out at his place.
“Uh-hum?”
Justin acknowledged, sitting up a little as they were sprawled out on the bed,
turning to face his love.
“I
want to tell Chris” Josh said in one go, not looking at Justin.
“About
what, sweetie?” Justin asked gently, seeing Josh was nervous. He wondered what
he was nervous about.
“About
us being together” Josh told him softly, for some reason expecting him to say
no although he’d reasoned with himself that Justin wouldn’t do that, the
thought still wouldn’t go away.
“Oh”
Justin said a little taken aback.
“I
really want to and....” Josh started immediately, but Justin cut him off,
putting a finger to his lips.
“Of
course” he smiled in agreement. “If that’s what you want, do it, tell him”
“But
aren’t you...” Josh started, trailing off.
“Angry?”
Justin filled in for him watching as Josh nodded his head in confirmation.
“Of
course not, I was just surprised you hadn’t told him already” Justin smiled
softly, Josh was so cute.
“Oh,
I thought... I mean... you” Josh stuttered a little, annoyed he couldn’t
explain himself.
“It’s
okay baby, tell him, I don’t mind”
“Can
we do it together?” Josh asked once again a little insecure about Justin’s
reaction but feeling more comfortable asking this question than the first one.
“Sure”
Justin once again agreed easily. He understood Josh was a little hesitant and
he knew it was his own fault but he was determined to make Josh see he’d meant
what he said about his reputation, that he’d meant what he’d said about wanting
to be with Josh; whatever it takes and Josh seemed to realize more and more
everyday that Justin was indeed very serious about this and had meant what he’d
said. Josh smiled leaning in, reassured, kissing him sweetly.
“Thanks”
“You
don’t have to thank me Josh, I really do mean it, I really like you, a lot”
Justin told him, cupping his boyfriend’s face in his hands.
“I
like you too, a lot” Josh said smiling. He’d thought Justin was sexy but he
hadn’t really known him. It had changed though over the last couple of weeks.
They’d gone out a few times and they got to know eachother more and more. Josh
realized that he was beginning to enjoy Justin’s company and not just because
he was gorgeous to look at no because he was very smart and he could make him
laugh like no one else could. Justin in his turn had had a crush on Josh for
quite some time already but it was more than his looks and attitude that had
appealed to him. He hadn’t really known Josh either, not really anyway but he
got to know him more and more and the more he found out the more he liked him.
“And
I believe you” he added. Justin smiled wider, leaning in for another kiss,
grateful Josh was starting to trust him more and more.
“Can
we go to Chris tomorrow?” Josh asked him as they broke away, settling himself
against Justin’s chest.
“Sure”
Justin smiled, kissing the top of his head before whispering reassuringly,
“Whatever
you want baby”
***
“He’s
your what?” Chris exclaimed as if he’d heard it wrong. He’d frowned when his
friend stood on the doorstep with Justin Timberlake but now that they’d settled
on the couch and Josh had revealed the news he couldn’t believe his ears.
“He’s
my boyfriend” Josh repeated although knowing Chris had heard him.
“But…
when did this happen?” Chris started, thinking better of it and starting with
another question.
“A
few weeks ago” Josh answered, studying Chris’ face.
“Have
you completely forgotten what he’s done to you?” Chris asked incredulously. The
last time they’d talked about Justin, Josh had been furious and here he was
holding his hand for crying out loud!
“No”
Josh admitted, he hadn’t forgotten.
“But
I’ve forgiven him” he added.
“What?”
Chris exclaimed once again. He knew Josh was too soft, he should have just
kicked his butt for him.
“What’s
your scam?” Chris asked suddenly, directing his attention towards Justin who
was just sitting by listening to the conversation between the two friends.
“I...
um... what?” he stuttered, shocked Chris’ angry eyes were now on him.
“What
is your scam?” he repeated simply, ignoring Josh’s protests.
“There
isn’t, I’m not…” Justin defended. Chris cut him off.
“Josh
how can you be so stupid? How can you fall for his tricks?” Chris scolded his
friend as he jumped up and started pacing the floor, he didn’t often scold at
anyone and he was just worried, expressing it by being angry.
“I’m
not” Josh told Chris firmly, standing up himself.
“He
tricked you before, how can you simply forgive him for it?”
“He...”
Josh started defending Justin before Justin cut him off himself.
“I
tricked him yes, I treated him like crap but I do really like him” Justin told
him as he stood, looking him straight in the eyes. Chris said nothing, he
waited, staring into the boy’s eyes, wanting to find out if he was serious.
Justin sighed.
“Look.
I know you don’t like me for what I did to Josh and I don’t like me either, I handled
it all wrong but I really meant no harm, I just wanted to get to know him”
Justin explained sincerely. Chris sighed, eyeing the couple in front of him,
seeing how close they were standing together.
“I
really like Josh” Justin told him honestly, proving his words as he came up
behind him and wrapped his arms around his waist. Chris watched how Josh
allowed it, how he even leaned back into his boyfriend’s touch and he came to
only one conclusion.
“You
like him that much huh?” Chris asked knowingly. Josh half turned and looked up
slightly at his love, meeting his eyes with a smile before turning back around
toward his friend.
“Yeah”
he nodded. “I do”
