His cheek stung as he was pushed on the couch.
“You
betrayed my trust Josh” Louisa scolded him.
She’d
slapped him, he was so shocked, so shocked she even had it in her to slap him.
Dan always took care of him when he’d done something that went against their
agreements but this time obviously Louisa felt he’d gone against their
agreement.
“I
allowed you time for yourself because I thought you needed it and now you do
something like this? You defy Matt?” Louisa ranted, she didn’t seem to be a big
a threat as Dan was. Matt had filled her in and guided him upstairs to face
Louisa who was obviously not happy.
“Louisa
I’m sorry I just…” Josh tried.
“You
blew it Josh and I’ll think again before I let you out of the house”
Josh
hung his head, she was talking as if she would lock him up in a golden cage.
Too late, he was already locked up.
“Now
there is the little problem that I’ll have to tell my brother about this”
“No
don’t” Josh jumped up suddenly. Louisa startled a little but recovered quickly.
“Why
wouldn’t I?” she challenged.
“Because
I didn’t mean to. I’m sorry it just… slipped out”
“Hmm”
she hummed as she contemplated whether or not she should accept his apology.
“Okay
I’ll give you a chance to make me… forget this ever happened” she said
seductively, pulling him closer by the shirt. He knew what she wanted him to do
as they destined for the king sized bed in the middle of the bedroom.
“Make
love to me” she whispered. “And you better mean it” she added still in hushed
tones but with a little more edge to it.
He
knew what she wanted; they’d made love quite a few times since he’d moved in
but they both knew he did anything but enjoy it. She seemed oblivious to it
most of the times but a few times she wanted to see a smile on his face. He could
barely form it and he now knew that if he would satisfy Louisa, make sure she
saw he was enjoying it, she wouldn’t tell her brother about what had happened
and that would save Justin. He knew exactly what she wanted and if that would
save Justin that was exactly what he was going to give to her. He pulled her
closer, brought his lips to hers, kissing her deeply and passionately before he
lowered her on the bed…
***
Louisa
was friendlier after he’d pleased her. She’d obviously enjoyed herself and she’d
rewarded him with the fact that she hadn’t told her brother about the incident.
Or actually she had told him, only she had convinced him to not do anything
about it. She’d taken care of it and he’d believed her and Dan hadn’t done
anything to Josh or his brother, reluctantly but he hadn’t; he’d do anything
for Louisa.
Louisa
was pleased with Josh and she touched and caressed him often. Josh could stand
it for a few days, he was still afraid Dan would hurt Justin but after those
few days Josh had enough. They were sitting on the bed and Louisa scooted
closer, gently cupping his cheek in her hand. He turned his head away from her
as soon as her hand made contact with his cheek. She reached out touching the
right side of his face but he pulled away instantly. She pulled both hands away
in shock. He was still avoiding eye contact. She grasped his chin forcing him
to look at her.
“You
better not make me mad” she warned. And this time when she planted a kiss on
him, he didn’t pull away.
“Please”
he whispered the moment they came up for air. Louisa was kissing him
thoroughly, he’d tried to stop it before it started by being defiant but it
hadn’t worked, he was going to try again. He was going for a different approach
though; begging.
“Please
Louisa” he repeated when he caught her eyes.
“Please
what?” she asked a little annoyed but curious too.
“Please
let me go” he started. Her eyes clouded but Josh continued.
“Please.
I don’t love you anymore and you know it. You can’t hold me here against my
will and expect me to love you again. I don’t love you anymore” he said, he
kept his tone soft. He wouldn’t accomplish anything by yelling. Louisa would
just get angry and he wanted her to be reasonable.
“We’re
not holding you here. You’re free to go…” she said calmly, ignoring how he’d
said he didn’t love her anymore. He eyed her suspiciously, she was being
reasonable but was it the truth? He was missing something, overlooking
something.
“Okay,
then I’m leaving” he said softly, almost afraid to hope as he got off the bed
and headed for the door.
“Just
think about your little brother before you do walk out on me” she called after
him, evil in her voice. He froze and turned slowly. I knew it!
Reasonable?
What
a joke!
He
knew there was a catch, something that he was missing. Loosing all control over
his anger. This was it he had enough. He moved quickly to where she was
standing and grabbed her by the arms roughly.
“Listen”
he hissed.
“I
do not love you anymore! Except it and get over it. I’ll never love you again
no matter how hard you try or force me. I DON’T LOVE YOU” he shouted. She
hardly seemed affected by his rant and responded calmly.
“You
don’t have a fucking choice! You dumbass”
Josh’s
eyes darkened, fury building inside of him and he released her suddenly, but
instead of giving into his urges of punching her he turned quickly and walked
away.
***
Josh
dashed through the hallways, going down the stairs and turning right
immediately. He flew inside the umpteenth room he passed and relaxed when it
seemed to be a storage room. Clothes thrown on one side, there were a few
paintings standing against the walls and a lot of stuff was scattered around
the room; lamps, a dresser and a lot of boxes. Josh sat behind the stack of
boxes. Hugging his knees to his chest, resting his head on top of his knees and
breathing heavily.
He
was so sick of this. So sick of Louisa and her games, so sick of Dan and his
threats. He didn’t want to do it anymore. For a moment he’d believed Louisa
would really take pity on him and let him go; just like that and he’d had hope
for a split second. He realized there was no hope, Louisa knew no mercy and she
would not let him go. His hope had been shattered many times since he got
involved with Louisa and he’d felt defeated many times as well. He didn’t know
what to do anymore. He just didn’t know. He suddenly felt exhausted and he let
himself rest against the boxes, slipping into oblivion; he fell asleep.
***
“What’s
wrong sis?” Dan asked his sister as she came in his room with a pout on her
face. Louisa sighed dramatically.
“Is
it Josh?” Louisa nodded miserably.
“He’s
angry and he’s unkind to me. He doesn’t want to love me” she complained as if
it was strange he wouldn’t. As if it was ridiculous he was fighting this.
“I
should have punished him after the mall incident” Dan said regretful.
“But
it was fun” she smirked.
“I
know but you can’t let him get away with things like that. You see he’ll
continue to try you out”
“He’s
not trying me out he’s just angry and disobedient almost the whole time” she
whined.
“Do
you think he needs a lesson?” Dan asked with a smirk.
Louisa
nodded, still pouting.
“Consider
it done” he told her. She got up smiling, walking over to her brother to give
him a peck on the cheek.
“Thank
you”
