The next few days were just miserable. I couldn't bear the thought of
loosing him, and I honestly believed I might be falling in love with him. He
and I never spoke once all this time. I felt dead inside even though I talked
and joked with the rest of the guys and the crew like usual. I left it up to
him as to when we would talk again. Because I had missed the last few
concerts, Donna let me grab a chair and sit in front of the barrier to watch
the show that night. The first part of the show was great, I was always
suprised as to how entertaining they really were. After the wardrobe change
they came back out on stage and looked like they were getting to launch a
couple of ballads. But before they sang anything, A.J. started to speak.
"I 'd like to sing this next song for someone very special to me whom I hurt
very badly, and well...I guess I'll just let the words of the song say what I
need to say. Nikki would you come up here please?"
I was in shock, a couple of security guys came and got me and led me up to
the stage. A.J. walked over, grabbed my hand, and led me over to a chair they
had set up on stage. He sat on his knees in front of me. The beginning notes
of "Everytime I Close My Eyes" poured through the sound system and I felt the
tears start as every word seemed the exact thing I wanted to hear...
Listen girl, I don't know where to start,
But every word I say, Comes straight from the heart,
I've been so wrong, never meant to hurt you,
Oh girl, I'm sorry for what I've put you through,
Girl I'd do anything for one more chance,
'Cause I want you, I want you back again...
Chorus: Everytime I close my eyes, I see your face and I wonder,
When you close your eyes, do you think about me,
Now that I realize I want you girl and no other,
Everytime I close my eyes, you're all that I see
You and I, shared it all together,
Each other all we'd ever need,
I thought that you would stay forever,
But I took for granted, The love you gave to me,
No I keep on trying, Until the end,
Baby I need you back with me...
(Chorus)
Spoken: I think about you girl every day and night, I'm in love and it feels
so right. I never meant to hurt you, or cause you pain. I just caught up in
that lying game. But now those days are over, I've changed my ways, and now
I'm counting the minutes, I'm counting the days. Until you let me come, until
you let me start, to find a new way to get back into your heart...
As the other guys finished up the song, he said, "Nicole, I meant every word
of that. Please can you forgive me and learn to trust me again?"
I could only nod I was crying so much.
He smiled, with his eyes pleading, "In that case, will you be my girlfriend?
I want something real with you...please?"
I just gasped and threw my arms around his neck and gave him a huge hug. I
couldn't even speak. We kissed, sweetly and the crowd cheered. I had to
laugh through my tears. He pulled me into another hug and whispered in my
ear, "It will always be you, baby, from this moment on."
The show had to go on and so Nick cut in and said jokingly, "Okay enough of
the mush you two, let's party!!!"
"Let's Have a Party" started and A.J. walked me back over to the side of the
stage and then ran back over to jump into the song with the guys.
I watched the rest of the show from the side of the stage. When the show was
over and the guys came running off A.J. ran straight to me, picked me up and
twirled me around a couple of times. When he put me down he we just stood
there holding each other for a few minutes.
"Thank you for forgiving me," he said, in my ear.
"All is forgotten, I need you to much to be without you." I pushed him away
finally and said, "Now go get a shower, your all sweaty."
He just laughed, stripped of his shirt smoothly and then started to come
towards me. "You know you love me sweaty, baby, " he said, grabbing me and
rubbing his body against mine.
I burst out laughing and pulled away, "Ugh! Boy, don't make me drag you into
that shower..."
He said, "Hmmmm...would you?? That would be fun, wanna join me?"
I just gave him a shove in the direction of the showers, and said, "In your
dreams!"
He looked at me with puppy dog eyes and I just grabbed him, gave him a quick
kiss, and whispered, breathily in his ear, "At least for the moment..."
"Oooo...you bad girl," he said kissing my ear.
"Okay enough, go shower already!"
He laughed and turned to walk away, "Okay, okay, you win! I'll see you
later?"
"Of course!" I said as he walked away.