Three weeks later:~
"I haven't been on a solid date with Zac in like, what...4 weeks? I mean c'mon Amanda, do something." Kerri whined into the phone. I sighed, glancing at Matt. He was over my house for the fourth time today. I would send him home, call him, bring him back, send him home, call him, bring him back, and I'm just starting to feel good about my decision. If Taylor thinks we are better off alone, then good, I hope he realizes I'm happy here....with Matt.
"Listen Kerri, it's not my fault Tay is still moping okay? It was his idea to break up, and I've moved on...." I paused, hearing a click and then some static. I figured it was the phone.
*~*~*~*~*
Kerri pressed record on her recorder, and silently apologized to me for what she was about to do. "What were you saying?" she asked. I sighed.
"It's not my fault. He was the one who broke up with me to make his parents happy, remember? He was the one who did this, remember? I'm just realizing that if he was willing to do that, then he doesn't love me as much as I use to love him. I'm movin' on," I glanced at Matt. He was in the other room, making himself some lunch. "Matt is everything I've wanted and more. He's helped me realize that Taylor isn't the one for me...especially not now," I paused again, starting to feel sad, but then I pushed the thought away. "Look I'm gonna go. It's looks to me like Matt is done making lunch." I hung up.
"Who was that?" Matt asked, instinctivily. Like I said, he's basically living with me now, seeing the fact that Patricia hasn't called me in a few days, and I'm no longer with Taylor..I need someone to keep me company. Two seconds later, I sneezed, and then sneezed again.
"I think I'm getting sick." I stated. He instantly handed me his cocoa. Mines was still in the microwave. "That's alright, I'll wait for mine."
"Are you sure?" he asked, raising his eyebrow.
"Your to good to me you know that?", I laughed as I handed him his mug, "I'm fine, take it." I said.
*~*~*~*~*
Kerri dialed Zac's number. "C'mon...pick up.." she prayed, hoping Taylor would pick up.
"Hello?" Isaac picked up. He was hoping it was Ilana. They were suppose to go on a date today, but he hasn't been able to get in touch with her for two weeks,...maybe she was on vacation.
"Hey Ike." Kerri smiled, "Can I speak to Taylor?"
"Taylor?" he asked, almost confused.
"Yeah, its about Amanda."
"Please don't piss him off." Isaac begged, not wanting to deal with his pissy brother.
"Listen Ike, don't tell him who it is, all I'm going to do is play something for him and hang up. When he's gone, tell Zac to call me back okay?" Kerri begged. She fingered the recording in her hand.
"Sure.," he turned his head so he wasn't directly yelling into the phone. "TAYLOR! TELEPHONE!" he yelled upstairs. Kerri laughed. Taylor picked up the phone, and Isaac hung up.
"Hello?" he asked. Kerri pressed play.
" 'It's not my fault. He was the one who broke up with me to make his parents happy, remember? He was the one who did this, remember? I'm just realizing that if he was willing to do that, then he doesn't love me as much as I use to love him. I'm movin' on,' " then a pause, " 'Matt is everything I've wanted and more. He's helped me realize that Taylor isn't the one for me...especially not now,' " another pause.. " 'Look I'm gonna go. It's looks to me like Matt is done making lunch.' "
*~*~*~*~*
Taylor's heart fell. Kerri sighed, and whispered "I'm sorry" after hanging up the phone.
"Who was that?" Isaac asked, walking into the room purposely.
"It was a recording of Amanda. Who was it when you picked up?"
"I dunno." Ike lied.
"It was Kerri wasn't it?" Taylor asked. Isaac shrugged. Zac entered the room, gazing at Taylor and then turning away.
"Isaac please tell Taylor to kindly hand me the phone, I need to call my girlfriend." he said. Taylor rolled his eyes, feeling himself getting very upset.
"Want the phone? Fine, but tell Kristi never to do that again!" he threw the phone at his brother, and ran upstairs. He slammed the bathroom door behind him, his hands gripping the sink, as if saving him from loosing his balance. "Did she really mean that?" he asked himself. He looked up and into the bathroom mirror. "It really is my fault. If it weren't for me, I'd be the one over at her house, holding and kissing her, laughing with her, making her lunch. It wouldn't be Matt!" he then got an idea. Quietly he tip-toed of the bathroom, into his room, grabbing his laptop and then back into the bathroom. He plugged his laptop into a secret phone jack hidden in the left side of the room. He signed on-line., his own screen name (not a real screenname) Blader214314, and quickly checked his buddy-list. No one.
*~*~*~*~*
Matt glanced at me, before he leaned forward and kissed me. I replied, and then pulled away, knowing I was going to sneeze.
"I'm gonna get you sick if you keep doing that." I told him.
"That's alright," he smiled. I giggled, shaking my head at him, bringing my cocoa up to my lips.
"I want to go check my mail, come up and join me when lunch is finished." I told him, pecking his cheek and walking upstairs to my bedroom. I haven't been online in months, and now all of a sudden I was going on. It was an urge, and I decided I really did need to clean my mail-box out. I placed my cocoa down by my keyboard, and signed onto one of my three screen-names: PrincessRockr17,..no mail, so I signed off and under my oldest sn, DrminWrtrChik. Mail! I smiled to myself. Checking my buddy-list. Blader214314. My heart stopped. Within to seconds, an IM was on my screen.
Blader214314: Will you forgive me for being a fool?
PrincessRockr17: why? when were you a fool? Taylor, what you did wasn't bad, it was...out of line...
What am I suppose to do? Especially if Matt comes up and see me talking to Taylor..what will he think?
Blader214314: Do you forgive me?
PrincessRockr17: yes
Blader214314: i have to talk to you
PrincessRockr17: I'm listening
Blader214314: I just got a very distrubing phone call. It was a recording of you..talking to someone about me...who did you talk to today?
KERRI! I almost screamed, but controlled myself.
PrincessRockr17: no one but Kerri....oh!...Tay,...I'm so sorry.
Blader214314: was it true?
*~*~*~*~*
A tear feel from Taylor's eye, he knew what I was about to say.
*~*~*~*~*
PrincessRockr17: I'm not really sure how I feel right now, Taylor. You left me, you dropped me, you don't love me anymore...Matt does. He's willing to take everything I throw at him and throw it back, he's not giving up what he loves because someone told him too..he's his own man.
Blader214314: but I didn't think you were going to leave me. It was only for a little while, remember?
PrincessRockr17: Of course I remember, but how long is a little while Tay? how long? obviously you see how I've gone out, met people, and enjoyed myself, because of you and your plan. I owe you thanks.
Blader214314: but we weren't suppose to go out and fall in love with other people.
PrincessRockr17: I'm sorry. It's not my fault.
Blade214314: I guess not
PrincessRockr17: Guess not what?
Blade214314: I guess it's not your fault you fell in love with Matt...
I started to cry. I heard a thump, and turned around. I saw Matt's shadow against the hallway walls. I wiped my tears away, and faced the computer. I fought the urge to cancel the IM..but I didn't...I responded.
PrincessRockr17: No Taylor..its not my fault. It's yours and its his. He practically saved me.
Blader214314: so you do love him?
PrincessRockr17: .......yes.... I believe I do.
Matt entered the room. I faced him. He came over to me, a smile on his adorable face. His perfect teeth shinying up the room. His blue eyed sparkle faded as he saw a tear stream down my cheek. Matt didn't say a word, and I turned toward the computer. He placed his hands on my shoulders, and looked at the IM. I didn't say anything to him. He read it, and a small smile crossed his face. He pushed it away.
"Are you okay?" he whispered, his lips brushing against my hair. I nodded.
Blader214314: you do?
PrincessRockr17: yes Taylor...Id better go now...
Blader214314: I still love you Amanda...I want you to know that
PrincessRockr17: I do know that Taylor..and I still love you to..but to me your more like a brother..now..
Blader214314: I'm sorry.
I then signed off. What was I to say? I turned toward Matt, my eyes gazing up into his. "I want to talk to you." he said. I nodded, standing up.
"Is everything alright?" I asked, my heart beating hard against my chest. He pushed his hair behind his ear, and looked at me.
"I got a call last night, from my job in Switzerland." he stated. I blinked. My pulse starting to race, and my blood felt as if it were boiling. "They want me to report there early, to find an apartment."
"Your only 16, you can't live in an apartment by yourself." I told him. His blue eyes connected to mine.
"Exactly. I talked to Patricia last night." he said.
"Why?" I asked him, confused on how he got the number.
"Last night when you were sleeping, she called. And we talked."
"Really?"
"She's not coming back." he told me. I shook my head.
"What do you mean?"
"Patricia besided to stay in her line of work. She's going to sell your house and send you the money."
"What makes her think I want to sell the house? I can sell it myself...." he placed two fingers over my lips, stopping me.
"Amanda...," he whispered, "...will you come with me to Switzerland?" he asked. I closed my eyes, and started to cry softly. I'm so confused right now..what am I going to do? He brought me into his arms, and held me close. I looked up at him, a smile cracking on my lips.
"When?" I asked.
"Three days. Is that enough?"
"Perfect." I whispered. He smiled, and he brought his lips to mine.
We shared our last french kiss in Tulsa then.
::walk your way to paradise::
ever lonely
**-* Hand In Hand *-**