you dont know
i dont know
acrylic lies liken my word
liquids
just say schillings and it'll be alright
everything's gonna be alright
but you just wanna take it all upon yourself
i havent enjoyed myself
and screw who wants to be a millionaire
i couldve been $64 000 richer
but screw that

"the flying ducthman and his pat kow(gettit?)" aug01


i want to forget
would rather it just left
without a trace
murder me and leave no stains
clean
wash it
bleach it
they'll never know of my existence
the governments most secret project
don't promise me
cuz i cant walk 
when i'm dead
yeh, could sleep forever
felt its hands on me
could feel them closing in
if only i tried
more or less
rakeing my skin
so, i adore the beauty in your palms
bury me in yours

"the whole" 020801


fools are we
ageless in eternity
bouncing babies
sleeping beside the raging beast
its a calm
like no other
when you finally know wot can
and cannot
touch me 
five by five 
touchless, faithless invisible
mascara over your eyes
hiding the evil inside
how i wish i loved you

"wonton destruction makes this world go around" aug03


close to tears
the swan song of all that is emancipated
epics 
mountains stare, waiting reaching and holding
your suchness, inspiration 
dissonant notes, imperfection that will only bring us
a step closer 
evolve no more
it is finished. all the more to cringe
deep frozen roots. shiver
thirst... the heat, the convulsions... 
its all around
pound me in heavy and heavier
look up! the sky is falling
falling
i'll fall
fall low
and follow

"SCREAM... ..." aug05


it's blind fury that eats us within
heads and eyes
all that i can see
everything you wernt meant to see
never needed the sacarsm, cynism
but cherishing the moments of blind revalation
when nothing else mattered
for that briefest split second
you won't know it
when you stare too hard
in the end
it's not knowing
the end

"not thinking" aug09


the reflection upon the shattered surface
its a freedom from the hatred
and i'd choose it all wrong
all over again
your smile i'll frown
standing up, the stage
naked and covering, the cowerdice
embracing the scars.. the void
watch over me. i can only watch

"basics" 130801


how can it all be over?

"when sometimes infinty isnt enough and you can only say one word to save the world" aug14


halt, too fast
a sweet, kindness from within
a trilogy, eyeball on you
let earth, raise the ground
raze, a burning oilfield
outcaste
cast in iron leather, the hide
jihads cuddle, together within their holliness
run, away, far, away

"pulse" aug16


could never make it work
stuck in a dimension of our own
a lil paranoid sometimes
the natives would kill me someday
gonna make it happen
its already weighed down
sunken in
when there's nothing left
no words left to scream
no thoughts, left to entertain
somehow, its all there
we've all been there
sometime or another?
wisdom, to the man who knows nothing
thinking aboot it
sometimes, all the time
its broken, disjointed...
senseless, pointless.. sustain i
to feel, know the void
when i dont say anything
dosent it mean im ignorant...
but mebbe its better than knowing the trivial things
crying out under the blanket of stars!
keeping me safe under this bed of earth
can hear you calling me
soothing these gushing blood vessels

"but maybe" aug20


it's as blank as solitude
one day, in a few short hours
these times of worrying would be lost
forever
never to resurface again
come the breaking
the splitting of new dawn
new found joy
the freshness of the open wounds
daily, it scarred
tuned in to be so scared
and when i look into his eyes
see not a man
see thru the soul
a spirit is really solid
for we dont see thru it all
and blindly, i try looking
hoping to feel it
but its not there
not me, not in me you'll find
no peace, not rest
but founded, dead upon wastelands of blood soaked stems

"a funeral for the waking" aug21


once upon
an endless perfection
built against the strongest of our fears
the strangest vapour surrounds
much less a usuall punk lass
but overture
as the cacaphony rises from the ruins
our song
surging once again, once upon a time
its a queer sensation
grimacing as the skin sticks on end
and the chilling notes which chime
deep within her soul
my hold
maybe forever
maybe tomorrow
could you strain the neck to its side
yeh. once again

"just once" aug22


don't work it out
dont say something is beautiful
dont condemn the random
and make it all that you are
reaching out, hold in
onto the seats 
to blame the shame
dont cry
please die
can i beg thee... 
supressed under the weight of hope
weigh me down
can i find a better place
but somewhere..?

"balance" aug24


weigh me left, size me up right
i'll write it all down
everything i couldve thought off
mention it to me once
and once and again
stay agitated
stuck in this dream, a sparkling tuesday
and the killing of silence
forever, awaken.. out of time
in this place, and however i'll be found
evermore there's a beat to play on
crowded the silence, raised itself
resurrected and live forever 
an ounce of death weighs upon a mind
but your breath, as you breathe upon my shoulders
and i can feel my head
so somehow i know
materialism will never be met
can i say something to you
only to mention the other?
only to realise i dont know wotever i meant
could you forgive, and love
no matter wot?
but why is everything looking so bleak
and dont tell me to try opening my eyes
don't try
and open my eyes
look inside to see the whites
from the gaze to the locking
to the swimming within' an ocean of blood
sound the end of the world
its a whirlpool of dread, horror 
and revalation
let it go... do not fear
and we'll see you behind the scenes
just let go
let go
and release

"final greetings" aug29



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