something new to say
always the same old thing
just letting it all flow out
it's the natural thing to do
can't scrape against the grain for eternity
gotta give in some day
break down 
and collapse
slapped by a wrecking ball
and the refugee can't see right no more..
"it's only words, wots the big deal?" aug03


i can't feel my toes
and you seem to know every single thing about me
but you didn't know i was cold
where did you think you were all this while?
reading me like a book
sometimes it's appreciated, sometimes it's not
but i'm just entertaining you
and you're making me laugh
is there only way to rise above
to push him beneath the surface
drown him so that only you might live?
subconcious
unintended
nothing was meant to be this way
"insecticon" aug04


where're you going with all this
that sound in your head
when're you going to let it out
someday, somewhere, sometime, somewhere
we'll find a place
just the two of us
and perhaps i'll tell you everything there is to know about us
and maybe you'll leave
i guess i'll stay sorry
for the way things turned out
and should have been
well it's pouding me in
breaking us up
settling for the warm blaze that burns
brighter each and everyday day
and each minute,
i dissect everything that's escaped my lips
every second, on the hour
oh this hour is ours
and it's gasoline on the floor
kerosene in the eye
light your whites on fire
and watching burn into the ground
seeping into the lifeless soil
a goddess of fertility and death
are you certain 
will you stay right
close your eye to the night
dream about the day
no one can harm you in your play
shelfless, lifeless shell-less
nothing to hide beneath
i'm scraping the insides of my brain
bits and pieces
silver and gold
may they never rust
may they never lose their meaning
may our stories never end
"hey, chant up the leper's anthem" aug06


i say that love is in the air
and you can warm my heart again
but i just want to tell you
that i still don't know what love is
spring is the season
and just feeling so inadequate
planting dreams in the mind's field
our seeds that might live or die
but still we're giving them a chance 
because can i hope at least
hoping again if we're given the chance
for something that we don't know how it'll end
into the great unknown
towards better or for worse
won't you share?
won't we be vulnerable
and say stupid things that should not
we'll let our songs fill the air
and gaze into each other
to find a piece of ourselves that we swept under
and we'll swim to shore
only to swim back out
let's find something together, in that ocean of chaos
perhaps we'll find our piece
and others might be the ones singing our song
i won't read our future
it hasn't been written yet
and i'll leave you as you are now
"floating and washed upon" aug07


i've put my head in a sock
revitalise this bleeding soul of mine
it's been leaking onto the carpet
so won't they come gnawing on my head?
plugging my brains back in
shoot to kill, shoot to yield
hold a hand, tightly
i'll never let you go
these could be our final days
and to love you forever and far aways
breathe heavily, softly and lightly
creeping up beside you, touching
carressing and leading to a song
whispers of life, won't you listen..
touch me there
"o cried out" aug10


walkin' home with you
breeds a feeling from afar
so far away
nothing you can do
can make you love me
"unnoticed" aug11


knowing, believing
i'm not really speaking my mind
can't find the words 
they don't roll off the tongue like they used to
how it all used to be
no, i can't seem to recall
there's a square in my larynx
linking me from there to here
i do wish someone could hear me out
do i really have to choose?
cant it just fall onto my lap
i'd be pleasantly suprised
pleasant dreams
"not the best of things to come" aug23 


who will listen?
who is kind?
i'm looking at someone in particular
and won't she mind
warmed my heart twice
little man locked out thrice
evenflow and vicious tunes
locked furiously between the ears
jumping at the chance
to say sweetness the least
because when she's near
i skip a beat
so come round more often
and we'll see wot we find
"silly rhymes such silly times" aug23


and you asked for lifted hands
i asked you to scrape the insides of my heart
so that i might have been filled again
everything fell into place
you knew it was gonna turn out this way
and still i doubt
i doubted
and you always knew
how could i not obey
and have faith?
"a new white morning" aug30




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