The letter below is a letter I wrote so people can read my dream and my point of helping othres and believing in dreams and Karma. Please read it and if you could possibly post in on your webpage or in a newsletter or anywhere really. If you do please, please, email me so I can put you on my page of helpers. Thank you sSSSOOOo much!
When I was a child I wanted to be something...I didn't know quite what it was though. But I knew somehow I needed, I mean needed to perform. I remember when I was about 3 or 4 that I was sitting outside at a daycare and I was talking to my first best friends, Jessica & Lauren. Anyways, I remember that we were talking and all of a sudden I made this glamour speech (as much as a 3 year old could anyway) and I made it very dramatic and heres what I said: "Lauren, Jessica...when I can I want to make a big stage and have a whole lot of people come see me and clap for me and I want to be doing something on it. Like singing or something." That's what I remember saying. Well, it is rephrased to sounds older but its the main idea. And they just laughed at me and said "Fine! When you do, well be up front clapping for you." All my life I've wanted to perform somehow. And when I was in the first semester of my 3rd grade year, in Higgins, TX. I was in the advanced spelling group so we had a recorder that we would use for our spelling tests and one day I told my teacher, Mrs. Tennison, that I wanted to record me singing so people could hear me. I mean I was, literally, the only 3rd grader coming in from recess singing to myself and others. All the other girls were making cheerleading towers and I was busy singing over with my little group of friends who would listen to me. And so taking that information I stayed after school and would sit there and record me singing on Mrs. Tennison's recorder while she graded papers. To this day I still don't know what happened to those tapes. But I know that in 4th grade I would put on shows for friends and anyone that would listen to me. I always sung a cappella so everyone always heard me sing that way. I never sung with musical accompaniment so I'm still used to singing that way. Well, in 5th grade when I was living in Corsicana, TX that I remember singing for my music teacher one day after class and her eyes sparkled and she asked me if I had written the song I had just sang. Of course I said yes...I always write my own song lyrics. And she was amazed. I was delighted that she loved it. That year I kept a song-journal and I wrote little song lyrics down in it. I never really let anyone read it except the people I trusted. But I would always sing if anyone asked. That's about the time I remembered the conversation with Jessica and Lauren that I had had in Tucson, AZ. I made it a point to remember that. And I did. Then my 6th grade year my mother moved me to Amarillo, TX after living with my father in Tucson, AZ for the first semester of school. I was with my mother for the 2nd semester. I sung for friends and started a small singing group. We renamed it many times and lots and regained members. But finally we ended up with three people. Tomi Kaye, Denise Rene, and Taryn Evelyn. I'm only using our first and middle names here. But we kept our little singing group and tried to book gigs but no one would take us because we sung a cappella or because we were so unprofessional. Our parents really didn't want to help out that much because they didn't want to spend any money. We kept on chugging. My 7th grade year we find out that I might be moving concerning my mother. My friends and I were still trying to get it together but it just wasn't working. No one wanted an a cappella act with 3 teenage girls. It just wasn't in our cards. I wish it was but it wasn't. I knew that I ha to become a solo singer because no one else had the determination that I had. People would help me out but as soon as it came to money they were like, "Ummm...I can't. Sorry." I've stayed up last at night watching the story's of people who became singers and the only difference between me and them is that they are now pros and they had people behind them all the way. I don't. And I'm not pro...yet. My lifetime dream of being a singer is going to come true. And Im not going to be one of those teenybopper singers like Britney Spears. I mean she may sing great and have worked hard to get there but obviously that all she wants. Maybe not. Maybe all those teenybopper singers do want a deeper career. I hope so. When I become a professional singer I will do everything in my will to make myself real. I don't want to be some stereotyped snobbish singer who people look up to because I look good and have halfway good music. Even if you suck at music really bad, or singing for that matter, and you have a great promoter then you'll have people saying, "Oh yea! She/he's great! They're the best!" I don't want that. I want to be recognized for my talent. In my whole life I've only partially learned how to play piano , keyboard, and clarinet. I know a few tunes on guitar, drums, and violin. But I know I definitely know how to sing. My voice is the best instrument I have. I just hope and pray that someday my dream, my wish of being a singer will eventually come true. Even if it happens when Im like 60 or something. As long as I can perform in front of millions one day and have all of them love my music and love my singing because I deserve it. There's a saying that goes, "Everyone gets what they deserve." I hope that one day I will get my reward. I have been through lots of things in my life and I know that one day receive my dues. I hope people read this letter and paste it on their webpages, newletters, etc. I want to help support peoples dreams that deserve to get them. And by passing this around maybe one day in the future that we can all look back and say, "My dreams are accomplished because of one little thought." This thought is to take what happens and take what comes...then to dish it right out again. but only using our dreams, imaginations, and our strengths. Thank you for reading this and thank you for listening to my story. I hope you will pass this around as much as you can. Thank you so much. By the way. Im 13 years old and my birthday is on October 24, 1986. Just so you know.
