After about two minutes of silence, I spoke up.
"Tay, I really enjoyed what we did last night. It felt right with you. But
now..."
"Now what?"
"I feel used."
"I wasn't using you! I SWEAR I wasn't!!" He looked me right in the eye.
"Well then what do you call it?"
"An accident..." He whispered.
"What was an accident? Everything that happened last night didn't mean anything
to you??"
"NO! Not that!! I didn't mean to push you. It was an accident...."
"That's what Kait said was prolly why you did it..."
"It was." Tay looked me in the eye. I almost had to look away, but he leaned in to
kiss me and closed his eyes. I pulled back.
"No Tay!" He stopped.
"Sorry." His eyes didn't meet mine again. "I really don't wanna lose you. You're my
life. I NEED you Air..." I ignored the fact that he called me Air. I was beginning to forgive
him, but still didn't know if I could completely trust him. How did I know that he wouldn't
do it again, and hurt me physically, not just emotionally.
"I don't want to lose you either, but I can't trust you anymore."
"You know what? We're only kids. This shouldn't HAPPEN to us!!"
"You're the one who did it..."
"I know! But I'm only a kid. I shouldn't be ABLE to do that!!!"
"But you are.."
"I know." Tay looked at the ground. His foot slipped somehow and he tripped,
almost falling. I caught him. "That was embarrassing..." We kept walking. "Air? I need
you there. I need you there to catch me when I trip. You keep me from falling."
"I need you too. But I don't know if I can trust you to catch me when I fall."
"It's kind of hard when I'm the one doing the 'tripping'."
"Yeah it is, isn't it?"
"Will you give me another chance to catch you? Chicken?" I smiled. Tay turned me
to him and we stopped walking.
"I need more time to think about it. I need to know that you're really sorry."
"When will you know?"
"I don't know."
"How can I show you?"
"Keep doing what you're already doing." Tears were slowly running down my face.
Tay rose his hand to my cheek and wiped away my tears. "Thanks." He smiled and leaned
closer to me. Our lips softly met and pressed against each other. Tay timidly put his
tongue into my mouth. His arms slid around my body, and his hands rested on my ass. I
put my arms around his neck. Our kiss lasted four minutes. Afterwards we resumed our
walking. Tay was smiling the whole time. His tears had stopped. We went back to our
bunk and went inside. Zac and Jordan were playing pool, and Kait and Gia were sitting on
the windowsill watching them and talking. They looked at us smiling. Kait winked at me. I
smiled and Tay and I continued down the hall. We stopped in front of my room. "I have to
think alone, Tay."
"Of course."
"I was beginning to love you...but now it might be a little different." Tay wasn't
smiling anymore. He nodded and went into his room. Instead of going into my room like I
told Tay I was going to do, I went into the main entrance and sat by Kait on the
windowsill.
"Hey Airi! How's everything GOING?" Kait gave me a look. (*We do this in real
life, you know, reading one another's minds...*)
"Pretty good." I returned her look, kind of explaining what had happened to her.
"That's good."
"YES!!!" Zac screeched. We looked up. "I BEAT you!!! You're older than me,
and I BEAT you!!!" They had OBVIOUSLY finished their game of 8-Ball. Zac set his cue
down and ran up to Kait. "I won! What's my prize?"
"You already GOT your prize!" Kait smiled and kissed him, giving him a TINY
taste of her tongue. I looked at her with wide eyes. "NOT what you're thinkin' Airi!! You
sicko!" Kait kidded.
"What ELSE am I supposed to think?" I forced a smile, hoping I looked normal.
Zac wrapped Kait's legs around him and picked her up.
"Zac! Put me down! I'm talking to my friends!" He carried her away.
"Are you saying I'm not your FRIEND??"
"You're more than that, Baby!" Kait giggled.
"So Airi," Gia turned to me, "Where's Tay?"
"He's...laying down...he had a headache."
"Oh. How was LA?"
"An experience."
"Ooh, THAT sounds good!" We smiled.
"I got my bellybutton pierced." I showed her the hoop in my navel. I lightly
touched the 'T', remembering.
"'T' for Tay?"
"Yep.." Tears were starting to form in my eyes.
"Boy, I'M having fun!!" Jordan exclaimed. Gia hopped down and walked over to
him.
"I'll give you some fun." She started to kiss him, and their arms went around each
other. I glanced over and Kait and Zac. They were across the room at the other window.
Kait was seated on the windowsill, and they were going at it like mad cows. I could see
Zac's hands up the back of her shirt, and possibly the front too. Kait's hands were on his
ass. I sighed. Tay stepped into the area, with bright red eyes. He looked at Kait and Zac,
then over to Jordan and Gia, then to me.