Okay-what now?

A storm fluctuates inside me-

intense, burning, hot.

Did the past few days' events merely fabricate themselves?

Is my subconcious to blame?

Or is it my heart?

i don't know how to act...

Am i simply eluding myself into thinking this is real?

But what if i'm right?

A million thoughts swarm in my mind,

bunching and unbunching,

diffusing and effusing.

Why is it that i always become infatuated with the unlikely?

i will not always be able to rely on my peers to help me.

But how does one approach the unapproachable?

So quiet, brooding, unthreatening,

And yet strangely intimidating...

i can see a thousand thoughts,

or analyze countless expressions and glances in my direction.

but none will provide me with a concrete answer.

i suppose i just have to take a leap of faith??

please, Lord, don't let me fall...

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