Years have passed, and I’ve thought about it now for quite some time,
And today, at long last, I bring to you, THIS apology of mine….
I apologize for catching your eye so many years ago,
For it was at that moment that our love began to grow.
I apologize for not listening when you said marriage wasn’t for you,
If only I had listened at that time, this pain I wouldn’t be going through,
I apologize for believing that we would be together all our lives long,
I thought that’s what loving couples did, but I guess that I was wrong.
I apologize for wanting kids, though you weren’t ready for such a thing,
I imagined that our love would welcome the joys that parenthood would bring.
I apologize for having hopes and dreams and needs to be fulfilled,
I never would have dared these things, had I known they would be killed.
I apologize for putting my career aside to follow you around,
Somehow I trusted that where you were, is where my happiness could be found.
I apologize for seeking solace with others, even though your arms were cold,
It was okay for you to do it, but how could I be so bold?
I apologize for assuming that our love could conquer all,
I assumed too much, and now I see that we’re headed for a fall.
I apologize for thinking that you’ll take these words seriously,
For if you were serious about our love, this apology wouldn’t need to be.
I apologize…
Danielle Colette Labelle
(c) August 2000
