Dead to Pain

I stayed quiet, keeping it all inside
Just as I always have
Not complaining when I was pushed around at school
Dead to all feeling
Never crying when I was humiliated before dozens
Refusing to let them win
I never showed how much I really hurt inside
If they only knew
As he yells at me, once again I say nothing at all
But this time I don't feel the tightness in my throat
Or the stinging in my eyes
When I know the tears are coming
This time I just listen and watch him as he paces the floor

He calls me stupid and inconsiderate
It no longer surprises me
He yells now, telling me the truth he believes
Only lies
It no longer hurts
He raises his hand demanding I answer his question 
Lost to the dead of the room
I no longer cry
He threatens me again
I no longer care
He storms away
I hope out of my life forever
I can no longer care

~Anonymous~

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